Chapter 331
Ex-Husband’s Regret
Chapter 0331
Tâen still reeling from everything that Rowan told me. Everything that he told me made sense, but I just
donât know whether I can trust his mond
My mind has been in turmoil since then. I didnât know whether to believe him or not. I get that he had a
hard time letting go of everything he and Emma had planned for the future I get that he also had a hard
time letting go of a love that he thought would be eternal. Hell, t understand that if I were in his shoes, I
would have struggled too with my feelings, but what about me?
What about what Iâve been through at his hands? What about the paint endured and the feelings Iâm
still struggling with? Iâve loved Rowan even when I shouldnât have, and I think the moment I realized
that I should have let go.
I want a future with him, but how can I fight against my memories of everything heâs ever done to hurt
me? I can forgive, but Iâm really not sure that I can forget, and thatâs where the problem lies. I believe
that past pain and memories will always pull us back a few steps behind, every time we make progress.
âWeâre here, maâam,â Boris, who is my driver and also my bodyguard, says, pulling me out of my
thoughts.
I look outside, and weâre packed right outside my parentâs mansion.
He gets outside, opens the door for me, and helps me unbuckle Iris. I thank him once thatâs done and
then begin heading towards the house.
Iris was fussy, and I was double sure itâs because she was hungry, or the long ride to my parents
house.
The door opens before I can even knock, and Noraâs excited face greets us.
âIâm so happy youâre here,â she says giddily, making me grin at her excitement despite my inner turmoil.
âHi,â I murmur awkwardly.
She pulls me in for a tight hug, careful not to hurt Iris. Theo appears behind her and does the same. In
their arms, I feel something that I never felt with Kate and James. The countable times they hugged
me, it felt cold, but with Nora and Theo, it felt warm, and I felt like I was safe and at peace.
âCome on in⦠Iâve been anxiously waiting for you to comeâ she says as she ushers me inside.
âSheâs right, you know⦠Sheâs been so excited. It was like looking at a kid in a candy store,â
Nora slaps his chest playfully. âStop pretending, old man, you were the same,â she then turns to me.
âHe kept asking when his little girl would get here.â
Their playfulness and the love shinning in their eyes bring an uncomfortable feeling to me. This is what
I wanted with Rowan. What Iâve always wanted. Only, Iâm not sure that weâll ever get it at this point.
I mean, Nora and Theo are teen sweethearts and are still together. Rowan and Emma were high
school sweethearts, and I canât help but wonder if they would still be together if I hadnât happened. If
my obsession hadnât broken them apart. I guess deep down, thatâs one of the things that I struggle with
when it comes to my relationship with Rowan. That, and my missing memories.
When we get to the living room, I cover myself and feed Iris. When sheâs done, I burp her, and
immediately Nora takes her from me. I donât mind because I needed to pull myself together.
I watch them play with her as I try to bring my head back in order. I was here to tell them that I was
ready to give them a chance, but my head was somewhere else. I admit that I was quite a mess. My
thoughts were jumbled, and I felt like I needed to make a decision.
âI can tell that youâre trouble, my dear. Mind sharing?â Noraâs sweet and soft voice pulls me away from
my musings.
I stare at her, then Theo, wondering if I should talk to them or not. I needed advice. Letty was on team
Rowan, and from what Iâve learned, she has always been on his team. As for my parents, they werenât
really big fans of Rowan, so I donât know if their advice would be biased or not.