Chapter 333
Ex-Husband’s Regret
Chapter 0333
I stay at my parentsâ house a little longer. Iris is eating up the attention that is being given to her by her
grandparents. Although she is small, she loves attention, especially if the attention comes in the form of
belly kisses.
Looking at her, I wish that my life was that simple. Was I the only one whoâs ever desired the life of a
child? They didnât have a worry in the world except food and dirty diapers. Their
innocence is like a balm to a wounded and troubled soul.
Then they grow up, life happens, and they become jaded. If I could save both my children from this
thing called love, I would, but I know ultimately I canât because they have their own destiny to follow,
whether it will be full of happiness, heartache, or a mix of both.
I continue watching as both sets of grandparents play with my daughter on the grass. Nora was holding
a laughing Iris. You want to know what she was laughing at? Well, apparently, she found it really
hilarious seeing Theo roll on the grass.
I get her too. If I was in a better mood, I would also find it funny. Who would have thought that one of
the most powerful couples in the city would be like this with their grandchild?
I donât remember the parents of Kate and James, but what I remember is them being really cold and
stoic, but maybe it was just towards me. As for Mother and Father, even though they loved Noah, I
never once saw them behave like Nora and Theo. Their warmness warmed my heart.
I take a sip of my drink, trying so hard to fight against the decision I was sure I had to make. Part of me
thought I needed time, but the other knew that Rowan and I couldnât continue the way we were. It took
that memory to destroy everything I thought we were building since I woke up.
I felt the sincerity in his words, but I was having a hard time letting go. This time around, what
threatened our relationship wasnât his lack of concern and love for me. This time, it was the echoes and
memories of his past mistakes.
âIs something still bothering you?â Noraâs voice startles me, mainly because Iâm so lost in my thoughts
that I donât even see her come towards me.
âI forgot to tell you the reason why I asked for a meeting,â I answered, trying to dodge the question.
Of course, a lot of things still bothered me, but I wasnât going to burden her with that. This fell wholly on
me. I was the one who was struggling. The one that this whole thing fell on. I didnât want to dampen
others spirits with my troubles.
âThatâs not important,â she tells me softly. âNot when youâre clearly still struggling with
I just stared at her. Maybe what I need is fresh air. I felt a bit suffocated. A bit unhinged. I felt
uncomfortable in my own skin.
âIâll be okay. Iâm just struggling with what I need to do and what decisions I need to make.â
She nods her head in understanding before pulling me into her arms. Her warmth and care make me
want to cry. I felt so overwhelmed, so burdened by everything. I felt lost, like I was just drifting. Fighting
the tears back, I pull away from her.
âIs it okay if I leave Iris with you for a couple of hours?â I ask, trying to control the tremble in my voice. âI
want to go pick a gift for Noah.â
Her eyes sear into mine. I know she knows Iâm using this as an excuse, but she also
understands that I need to breathe and be alone.
âSure, my love. No problem,â she smiles at me. âTake as much time as you need.â
After I said my goodbyes, I left. I tell Boris to drive me to the mall.
I already had an idea of what I wanted to buy Noah, and maybe a little shopping will give me an escape
from the constant turmoil of my thoughts.
We get to the mall, and without wasting time, I start going from shop to shop. Noah wasnât subtle, and
he dropped obvious hints about what he wanted. All of them combined made a whole list. He wasnât
spoilt, but he also knew that neither of his parents were lacking in the financial department, so he was
comfortable asking for whatever he wanted.
âAva!â
I had just finished buying the last item on the list when I heard her voice. Turning around, I found Letty
and Corrine rushing towards me. They both embraced me in a bear hug before stepping away.
âWhat are you doing here? If we had known we would all be here, we would have organized lunch,â
Letty all but screams, her happiness at seeing me clearly evident.
âI decided to come last minute to shop for Noahâs birthday gifts,â I answer, giving both of them a smile.
âWhere is Iris? Is she with Rowan? I still remember how he left work to babysit her simply because you
wanted to go shopping,â Corrine says in a dreamy voice.
Gosh, why was this so hard? She looked so hopeful and so happy, and in her own world, dreaming
about how happy Rowan and I were. I donât say anything. I wonât say anything until Iâve made a
decision.
âDo you want to get lunch?â Letty asks. She probably assumed that Corrine is right and Iris is with
Rowan.
âSureâ
We walk to a nearby restaurant, with Boris following behind us. We get a table, and immediately a
waiter comes to take our orders.
Immediately, Corrine and Letty start chatting. Today I wasnât in the mood, but I needed a distraction.
Something to take my mind off things with Rowan.
âSo, has Reaper been by to see you again?â Letty asks, her excitement evident.
Corrine bites her lips, telling us all we need to know.
âYes. In fact, he did more than just visit,â she beamed, her eyes sparkling with admiration. He rocked
my world the entire night.â
âGet out!â Letty shrieks, almost getting out of her chair. âGive us all the tea, woman. Donât leave us
hanging.â
I wasnât interested before, but this got me interested. I didnât think that she would go through with it, but
it seems like I was wrong. Even after she said she would consider it just to aggravate her father, I didnât
take her seriously.
âWell, he showed up again; I let him in, and then he proceeded to fuck my brains out,â Corrine smirked,
still clearly on cloud nine.
âSeriously? Thatâs all youâre going to tell us.â Letty looks offended by this. âI want the spicy details: how
big is he, what positions did he take you in, how long did he last, and how many times did you cum?â
I chuckled at that. Letty looked like she would die if she didnât get the answers to her questions. She
looked eager and was sitting at the edge of her seat. I couldnât hold it in anymore, and I ended up
laughing. It was damn hilarious, and she had this comic look on her face that made it all the more
funny.
âWhat?â she asked, looking at me as if she couldnât understand what I found so funny.
I laughed harder. âYou. Why are you so desperate to know what her tumble in the sheets was like? Do
you want a threesome or something?â
She glares at me, but I know there is no heat behind the loo. She knew I was just joking.
âNo, thank you⦠I just want to know if they did a position Iâve yet to try since I like experimenting in the
bedroom. Trevorâs dick is enough for me.â
âThat is disgusting.â I made a look of disgust as she smirked at me. Sheâd just gotten back at me in the
best way she knew how.
They both laugh at me as I try not to gag at the image she painted. If Iâm honest, I donât know what she
sees in Trevor, but love is love, and maybe my bad experience with him has clouded my judgement
when it comes to him.
Anyway, as much as I would want someone else for my friend, I wasnât going to interfere. If she loved
him, then I would have to deal.
âSo, is it a oneânight kind of thing, or will he be back for more?â I ask curiously as I push thoughts of
Trevor out of my mind.
âSince we both liked it, we agreed to be acquaintances with benefits.â
Letty looks puzzled. âWhat the fuck is that?â
âYou know, like friends with benefits kind of thing. We arenât friends, and we donât really know each
other, so acquaintances with benefits suit us perfectly.â
Slowly laughing, I stare at Letty as she looks at Corrine, like she said the most absurd thing sheâs ever
heard,
For the first time since everything went sour with Rowan, I was laughing and having fun watching the
bickering between Letty and Corrine. They managed to do something no one else has been able to do
these past few days. They managed to get my mind off my problems.
âSo youâll continue seeing him?â Lettie asks.
âIf you mean, will I continue fucking him? Then yes. The sex is good, and thereâs no strings attached,
just the way I like it.â
I donât say anything, but for some reason, I stare at Letty to find her looking at me. A smile creeps on
her face because we have the same thought. Something told me that one of them or both of them were
going to fall.
âBy the way, did you decide on what youâll do?â Corrine turned to me.
Iâd told them how I was struggling to stay at home doing nothing. Reâlearning things is working, but the
progress is slow. At this point, I think itâll be years before I can go back to teaching.
âNo. I still havenât figured things out.â
âWhat about your foundation?â Letty asks, sipping her lemonade.
âWhat foundation?â
They tell me everything, taking turns to explain things to me. By the time Iâm done, Iâm shocked at all
the progress Iâve made. I remember feeling sorry for a boy in my class and wishing I could help him.
Turns out I birthed an idea and saw it through.
âMary held back because the doctor had warned about stressing you and wearing you down. Sheâs
managed to keep the foundation running, but Iâm sure sheâll be happy to have her boss back. That
woman literally worships the ground you walk on,â Letty gushed, making me feel shy for some reason.
I didnât know this, Mary, but to hear that she adored me was a bit disconcerting. That quickly faded
away when I realized that I could actually work. That I didnât have to stay home all day long, and since
the foundation houses had other kids, I could always bring Iris with me.
âIâm sure you could find something to do there that doesnât put a strain on you,â Corrine adds. with a
warm smile.
I return the smile. âYouâre right. If itâs a big foundation, as you put it, then Iâm sure Iâll find something to
do.â
We continue chatting until our orders arrive, and then we eat. Once we are done, we chat a bit more
before we decide to call it a day.
I was just getting out of the restaurant, and Iâd said goodbye to both Corrine and Letty when I felt a chill
run down my spine.
I look around, but I donât see anything or anyone out of the ordinary. Wrapping my hand around myself,
I continue walking towards the car.
Boris helps me, but it doesnât chase away the fear that all of a sudden overcomes me. Boris didnât
seem to notice anything and just drove off, but I felt it, the chilling stare of someone who wanted to
harm me.