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Don't Hug Me I'm Scared {Billie Eilish}
A/N: very, very very, very VERY important question that I need you guys to answer. If you've never commented on this story before, pls do so now. ⤵ï¸
'Annie'
'Peter Pan'
Or 'The Wizard of Oz'?
Which?
I'm serious, pls answer that. ⤴ï¸
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Billie's POV
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"Bursting through a blood red sky
A slow landslide
And the world we leave behind
It's enough to lose your head
Disappear and not return again
When I fall to my feet
Wearing my heart on my sleeve
And all I see just don't make sense
You are the port of my call
You shot and leaving me raw
Now I know you're amazing
Cuz all I need is the love you breath
Put your lips on me
And I can live underwater."
I sang quietly to myself as I packed my bag for the day, walking around the room slowly as I tried to make sure I had everything that I wanted to take.
I don't know why the hell that song is stuck in my head today of all days. I haven't heard it in like three years.
I turned to walk into the bathroom to see if there was anything else I needed in there. I ended up just standing there, leaning against the doorframe as I stared at Dahlia's silhouette through the glass shower door. I couldn't see too much because the glass was tainted, but what I did see was absolutely beautiful.
Maybe that's why that song is stuck in my head.
Every love song in existence is stuck in my head right now. Cause of her.
Maybe it's a little creepy for me to be standing here watching her when she doesn't even know I'm right here, but I can't help it. I've been away from her for too long, I needed to see her!
She's only been in there for ten minutes, but...That's still too long.
Yesterday was so amazing. Spending the whole entire day with her, just talking and acting like idiots and just being with each other. It was the best day I've had in a while.
I'm so thankful that we're back together. I'm so thankful that even though I almost fucked this shit up entirely, Dahlia decided to be with me again.
The three months I wasn't with her were the worst three months of my life, no joke. I didn't think I could miss someone so much despite seeing them almost every day, but I did. I missed hugging her, holding her, kissing her. I missed telling stupid ass jokes with her and I missed all the deep talks we used to have.
I missed getting to call her mine, getting to touch her anytime I wanted in any way that I wanted. I missed it not being awkward between us and I missed when we weren't fighting all the time.
It was fucking torture, to be honest. I was worried every single day that she'd find somebody new to be with; Somebody who could treat her better than I could. Somebody who could make her smile wider than I could, someone who could make her feel better than I could.
I'm kinda still scared of that happening. Dahlia is one of the most amazing girls I've ever met. She's so funny and so kind and she's drop dead gorgeous. Anybody would be lucky to have her and I'm scared that one day she'll find someone better than me to be with.
Now that I get to call her mine officially again, I guess I'm not as worried about it, but that thought always lingers in the back of my head. I'm convinced that one day she'll wake up from whatever dream she's in and realize that she can do better than me. I'm just gonna enjoy having her in my life until that day comes.
I smiled slightly as she began to sing and do some kind of weird ass dance as she washed her hair. As much as I wanted to stay and watch the show, I decided it'd be best to go ahead and start putting our stuff in the car.
We're all going to the beach today. I mean, we're kind of on a beach right now while we're staying in this house, but we're driving to a nicer one that's about thirty minutes away.
I walked out of the bathroom, grabbed both of our bags and then opened the room door, heading out.
I was halfway down the hall when I heard a door open and turned to see who it was. I dropped the bags as I saw Cora walking toward me, practically skipping, actually. She grinned as she got closer to me and tried to walk around me, but I held an arm out to keep her from walking forward.
"Nah, bro. Fuck are you wearing?" I questioned. She's wearing a small, neon green bikini that doesn't cover up nearly enough. It's not the worst, but I know damn well she has one that's a little less showy that she could be wearing instead.
She looked down and shrugged. "Bea let me borrow one of her bikinis."
"Well, give it back and go put on one of your own." I demanded, crossing my arms over my chest and glaring down at her.
"Are you serious?"
"As a heart attack." I sassed.
"You can't make me change! You're not my dad!"
"I'm your sister's daddy. Close enough."
She cringed and shook her head quickly. "Billie, that is the most disgusting thing I've ever heard. Ever. Why would you say something so controversial, yet so...Wrong?"
I chuckled as I wrapped an arm around her shoulder, walking us back down the hallway and toward the room she came out of. "Are you still having trouble with Liza? Did you talk to her? Are youâ"
"I talked to her and we're all good," She smiled. "I was worried for no reason and she totally understands me wanting to take things slow."
"That's great. If that's the case then why are you trying to leave this house with half your asscheeks out?"
"Oh, come on. It's not that bad. It's really cute!" She grinned. "Not worse than what Dahlia's probably gonna be wearing." She sent me a pointed look.
I shrugged. "Dahlia's eighteen. Grown. She can do that."
"You act like I'm a ten-year-old child," She rolled her eyes. "You guys are just three years older than me."
"That's true. I'm glad you can count. Go change." I shoved her the rest of the way to her door and then turned around to head back to our bags.
"I'm not changing!" She shouted after me. "But I'll put a slip on!"
I grumbled to myself as I heard her door slam shut. I guess me being Dahlia's daddy means nothing to her. Ugh. The disrespect.
***
"Billie? Billie? Billie!"
I slowly turned my head, still watching Dahlia out of the corner of my eyes as she put on her sunscreen. She was wearing a simple black bikini and she looked amazing in it.
God, I'm loving spring break. This is the second day in a row that I've gotten to see this girl in a bikini. I cannot wait until summer.
My eyes followed her hands as they slid up and down her shiny legs, and then I looked a little further up, noticing how amazing her boobs looked while she was bent forward. Then my eyes trailed further up and I stared at her beautiful face. She was wearing a small smile as she talked to Orb and her brother.
Then my eyes went right back down to her breasts, then her legs, then her breasts, then her face, thenâ
"Billie!"
"Whaâhuh? Yeah." I mumbled, turning my head toward the person who was talking yet again. It kept turning right back to Dahlia's direction every time she made a move, though.
"Girl, I'm not gonna ask you again. Put this fucking sunscreen on before you end up looking like a burnt piece of vegan bacon or whatever the fuck you eat."
I finally turned to look at Cadence and narrowed my eyes at her. "I don't need sunscreen, I'll be fine and there is no fucking vegan bacon. Bacon is bacon, it can't be vegan. I meanâWell, okay, there is vegan bacon, but, likeâ"
"Did I ask?" She raised a brow. "I'm not fucking around here, Billie. Put this shit on before I hold you down and do it myself. The sun is a powerful force that shouldn't be reckoned with, and the last thing I want is for one of my friends to end up with blisters and terrible sunspotsâBillie. Billie?"
Dahlia had stood up. I watched as she readjusted her bottoms, and they slapped right back into place against her beautiful ass right after she did. She bent down quicklyâway too quicklyâand picked up her sunglasses before standing up straight and placing them on top of her head.
I watched as she stretched her arms above her head for a few seconds and then began running her fingers through her curly hair to try to fix it.
"What the fuâ" I gasped as Cadence slapped the shit out of me and a wet substance remained on my cheek long after her hand had left it.
She began rubbing it in and I moved my head around, trying to get away from the coldness, but she followed my every move. "Cadence, you fuckingâ"
"You're gonna thank me for this when you're not walking around here sunburnt and red as a God damn clown's nose, Billie Eilish." She fussed. She grabbed my arms and began rubbing them down with sunscreen as she kept a knee over my thighs to keep me from moving.
"Gigi, help me!" I called as he was walking by.
He came over, about to help, but she turned to look at him quickly. "No, baby, she needs her spf 100!"
He sent me an apologetic look and shrugged his shoulders. "Sorry, Billie."
I ignored how adorably he pronounced my name and sent him a hard look. "You're gonna choose her over me?"
"I get the sex from her. Not you." He shrugged again before walking off.
Cadence sighed as she watched him. "Doesn't he have such a way with words?"
"Get off of me you weirdo."
She did as told and tossed the bottle of sunscreen at me. "You get your stomach and legs and have Dahlia help you with your back." She instructed. "Do it." She cut me off before I could even begin to argue.
That girl can be real scary when she wants to.
"Gigi, baby? I know I already put sunscreen on you, but I'd love to do it again!" She yelled as she ran over to him and began to rub his abs.
I rolled my eyes and tossed the sunscreen to the side.
"You forgot to put sunscreen on the most important part of me."
I turned to look in the direction that Caden's voice had come from and snickered as I saw him gesturing to his dick. Ken slapped the back of his neck and walked away from him, him whining as she did.
"Cadence sent me over here to make sure you put your sunscreen on." I heard Dahlia mumble as she slid a hand over my shoulder and down my arm. I turned to look at her and smirked as I pulled her down so that she was in my lap.
"I'd rather watch you put your sunscreen on again."
"You were watching me? Oh, I had no clue." She smirked, a devious glint in her eye.
"Don't be a tease. You can get it right here. Don't test me." I warned her.
"Yeah, with all our friends around?" She rolled her eyes.
"I don't mind an audience."
"I don't see sunscreen being applied. Dahlia, you had one singular job."
Dahlia snickered as she stood up again and grabbed the bottle of sunscreen. I playfully glared at Cadence. "You're the biggest fucking cock block, you know that?"
She pulled a confused facial expression. "There's no cock to be found between the two of you, though as I've told Dahlia many times before, if any bitch is gonna sprout one it's gonna be you."
"That's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me." I grinned. "I bet if I had one I could make it do tricks."
"And I oop." Dahlia mumbled as she began to put the sunscreen on my back.
***
"I can't believe this tom fuckery." Dahlia shook her head.
I grinned as I watched Finneas, Claudia, Ori, and Denver play a game of chicken fight. Claudia was on Fin's shoulders and Ori was on Denver's.
"He's really putting the moves on my brother. My friend actually likes my brother. That shit is disgusting. Chair, but make it electric." She muttered to herself.
I watched as Claudia won, pushing Ori off of Denver's shoulders. Her and Finneas celebrated once he put her down and Denver laughed as he helped Ori stand up.
"Oh, calm down. I think it's nice! They'd be cute together." I smiled as I watched them. They seem to be getting along great and Orb is flirting like hell. Denny doesn't seem to be picking up on it though.
"I think it's nice, they'd be cute together." Dahlia put on a weird voice as she mocked me and I snickered, slapping her shoulder.
"Don't you want Denny to finally get himself a boyfriend? You know, one that he can actually be with out in public?"
"Ouch," Hudson grumbled from beside me. I shrugged my shoulders and apologized. "I agree with Billie, though." He added.
"Not you too!" Dahlia groaned.
"Yeah, I mean, I think they'd be cute together too! I'm jealous of Denver, though. Orb is cute."
"They're both ugly thots," Dahlia mumbled before standing up. I leaned back on my elbows to get a better view of her ass. "I'm gonna walk down to the little ice cream truck. Wanna come with?"
"I'm gonna stay here and drool over the two guys I can't have," Hudson said as he leaned back in his beach chair, crossing one of his legs over the other. We both gave him weird looks and he pushed his sunglasses down on his nose a little as he stared at us. "What? I don't judge what you two like to do for fun. Mind your business!"
I laughed as I stood up and grabbed Dahlia's hand, beginning to walk with her to the ice cream truck.
We passed by Caden and Ken who were making out on the sand, and Cadence and Gigi who weren't too far away doing the same thing, and Kai and Jessica who were hiding behind a tree that was too skinny to hide either one of them let alone the both of them, and they were doing the same thing.
I was really starting to wish that that was me and Dahlia.
My sex drive is through the roof these days and I'm honestly a little concerned.
"Damn, my titty almost slipped out!" Dahlia cackled as she readjusted her bikini top. I stared at her boobs while she did.
Well, maybe I shouldn't be so concerned. My girlfriend is hot as fuck. If I didn't wanna have sex with her every moment of every day, that would be cause for concern.
When we got to the ice cream truck, Cora and Liza were already over there, making out by the side of it. Dahlia and I sent each other looks before silently agreeing to bug them.
I stood behind Liza and Dahlia stood behind Cora, smirking at me as she began to speak. "What the fuck do you think you're doing?"
They jumped apart and I backed up as Liza fell to the ground from shock. I could've probably caught her but...Oh well.
"Oh my god, what in the hellâ" Cora helped Liza up, blushing as she sent us both glares. "You two just won't let me be great, will you!? Do I interrupt you guys when you're busy swapping spit?!"
"Yes." I nodded.
"All the time," Dahlia said. "Now, you two crazy kids go back to the area where all our friends are. And remember. We're watching you!"
They begrudgingly did as told and me and Dahlia high fived before walking around the truck to order some ice cream.
After grabbing the ice cream cones that we ordered, we sat on a bench a few steps away from the truck and began to eat our ice cream.
I decided to be cute and intertwine my arm with Dahlia's. It was a task trying to eat that way, but I'm sure we at least looked cute doing it.
She laughed at me as I got ice cream on the side of my mouth and leaned forward, licking it away. My eyes widened as she did, and she leaned back with a big smirk on her face afterward.
I rubbed some ice cream on her breast and grinned as I leaned down to lick that away too, laughing as she squirmed around. She's really ticklish on her boob and I don't know why.
"So I'm sitting there, vanilla ice cream and Billie Eilish's tongue on my tittiesâ"
I didn't take my tongue off of Dahlia's breast as I looked up, noticing Bea standing there. "Sorry to interrupt, I just came over to tell one of you to break up with your girlfriend, I'm bored."
"You're not interrupting." It came out weirdly because of my tongue still being attached to Dahlia's boob. "Where's Heidi?"
"Can you please take your tongue off her tit? It's distracting." She sent me an amused look and I did as told. "Heidi's currently having a rap battle with Julia."
"A rapâAre you serious?"
"Yeah, and Julia's winning."
"Well, take us to the rap battle!" I screamed as I stood up.
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Dahlia moaned as I wrapped her legs around my waist and pushed her closer to the wall, and I broke our heated kiss to lick a long strip up her neck and then started sucking on her sweet spot.
"W-We should stop." She whispered shakily.
"If they need us they'll come interrupt us like they usually do." I mumbled.
"True!"
I let out a frustrated growl as I turned to look at a smirking Denver. He held his hands up in defense. "Hey, I didn't wanna come interrupt you guys! But Nana is on the phone and she wants to talk to Dahlia."
I put her down and went to sit down on the steps of the little shack we'd been standing outside of.
She took the phone from Denny who walked away soon after and sat down next to me, rubbing my thigh comfortingly as I pouted. I gestured for her to put the phone on speaker and she did.
"Hey, Nana."
"Denver tells me you kids are out of the house right now, is that correct?" She cut right to the chase.
"Yes, ma'am."
"And about how long do you think you'll be gone?"
"Well, we got to the beach about...Five or six hours ago. I don't see us leaving any time soon, but I'm not sureâ"
"You think you'll be out for another two hours at least?" She asked.
"Oh, definitely." Dahlia answered.
"Good! Honey, let me tell you what happened. I was on my date with Mr. Harmon and he was being the same dirty old bastard he always wasâ"
"Nana, please spare me the details."
"Fine. Damn. Can't tell you shit." Nana fussed and I chuckled. "Well, anyway, he insinuated that he wanted me to take him to bed and I told him I'd have to see if I could fit him into my scheduleâYou know, just so he doesn't think I'm waiting around for himâ"
"Yes, ma'am."
"Mhm, but really I was waiting to see when you guys would be out of the beach house."
Dahlia cringed, probably thinking about the fact that her Nana would be in the same house that we're staying in, screwing some old dude.
I cringed too.
"What if he's busy today? Isn't it a bit short notice to tell him to come over today?" Dahlia questioned.
"Oh, honey. The men come when I call. I've got to go now, I need to find my favorite underwearâ"
"Bye Nana!"
She hung up quickly and let out a small sigh as she turned to look at me. "We haven't swam all day. We should go do that." She grinned.
"Bitch, I'm tryna go swimming in that pussâ"
She grabbed my hand and yanked me up, pulling me in the same direction Denny had come from.
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A/N: Mannnnnn I want Billie to cover 'underwater' by Mika SO BAD. I bet it'd sound so fucking good but nobody fucking knows about this song or Mika and that'll probably never happen.
Also, happy sperm bitch day.
Anyways, remember kiddos, if ur gonna put sunscreen on when u go to the beach and u know ur gonna go swimming at some point after u do, please try to find a sunscreen that won't be harmful to the sea creatures. Sunscreen can kill coral reefs and some sea animals if you don't get the right kind. Admittedly, idk all that much about this and idk which sunscreens are safe and which ones are harmful so you'll have to do your own research. I just know that my twelfth-grade science teacher (fave teacher ever btw) told me about how harmful some sunscreens can be to sea life and it broke my lil heart.
Take care of the earth bbys ððâ¨