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Dahlia's POV

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I rolled my eyes as I noticed that Billie had liked and commented on all my Instagram photos that she hadn't liked or commented on before. I literally had four hundred Instagram notifications and three hundred of those were from her.

I made a mental note to respond to the other people's comments later.

I took the room key out of my phone case and slid it into the door, taking a deep breath as I mentally prepared myself to deal with her.

Just as I figured, she was already in the room, none of our friends anywhere to be found. She was lying on the bed watching TV when I walked in, but she quickly stood up once she saw me.

"Hey! How was my baby girl's day?" She asked quickly. I sent her an unamused look before walking over to my suitcase. I put it on the bed and opened it quickly, in search of my bikini. Kai texted me and told me that everyone wanted to go to the beach, and we're leaving in about thirty or so minutes when they get back from the big play center and get changed and everything.

"Are you still doing this shit? Seriously?" She huffed.

I searched my suitcase until I found what I was looking for. I grinned as I pulled it out.

I don't know, but I think this is one of the sexiest bikinis I brought. At least, she'll think so.

It goes nicely with my red lipstick, so it's the one I'm gonna wear, regardless.

"Baby, listen, this shit is fucking ridiculous and I'm not about to play these games with you. We haven't talked all fucking day. Just fucking—what you doing?" She questioned.

I took off my clothes and then unhooked my bra and took it off to. I slowly slid my underwear off after that, making sure to keep holding eye contact with her as I did.

I threw my clothes to the side and stood there, staring at her for a few moments, cocking my brow and smirking as I saw her mouth fall open.

The second she took a step closer to me, I picked up my bikini top and put it on. I slid the bottoms on soon after and then took down my pigtails, running my fingers through my hair and flipping it until it looked the way I wanted it to.

I placed a hand on my hip and stared at her again, a blank expression on my face this time.

"Oh, so you gone do me like that?" She questioned dumbly.

A small smirk made its way onto my face again but I quickly made my expression blank once again.

"We're going to the beach in a few. Get dressed if you wanna tag along." I muttered as I walked past her.

"So—Wait. Deadass, we're not gonna fuck right now? Cause it really felt like we were about to fuck, but you just—"

I don't know what she said after that because I closed the door as soon as I stepped out of the room.

I walked back to the elevator and it was once again already open, an older lady already inside. I smiled politely at her as I stepped in and then the doors closed.

It was quiet for most of the ride, but she spoke up just as the doors were opening again. "Oh my...Honey, you look like a whore." She muttered.

I turned and sent her a smile as I pushed myself off the wall I'd been leaning against. "You look like you'll be on your death bed soon. Have a nice day."

***

I sat perfectly straight, staring forward the whole time we were on the bus. Billie had sat beside me and I didn't pay her any attention.

I pushed my sunglasses back up the bridge of my nose before grabbing her hand—which had slid up my thigh once again—and pushing it away.

"Baby, you cannot ignore me forever." She whispered. "And you certainly can't fucking tease me like that and then act like nothing happened."

I don't know, I think she's wrong. That's pretty much exactly what I'm doing. Pretending nothing happened.

"I'm having withdrawals," She whined. "It's been hours since you said something directly to me and a couple days since we fucked. I'll literally die if this goes on any longer."

In the wise words of Nicki Minaj; Die slow.

"Alright, we're here!" Cooper yelled, causing everybody to cheer. We all slowly piled off the bus, Billie and I being the last ones off of it since she took forever to get the fuck up and let everybody off before us.

She slowly scooted out of the seat and held a hand out to help me up, but I grabbed the seat instead.

"Yo, I'm over this shit now, bro. For real. This is childish." She huffed.

I pushed past her and smiled at Cooper before walking off the bus.

"Last one in the water is a rotten egg!" Hudson screeched before taking off. I smirked as most of my friends began running after him, but Kit kept her slow pace.

"I guess we're rotten eggs." I told her.

"Yeah, I guess so," She chuckled. "I don't swim."

"Really? Did you never learn how?"

"I guess I know how to, I just don't. I don't fuck with water like that." She shrugged.

My smirk widened. "Are you scared of water, Kit?"

"Nah, I ain't scared of shit." She mumbled.

"Sounds fake, but okay." I snickered.

We walked until we got to a nice spot, close enough to the water but not too close. She handed me one of the blankets she was holding and I thanked her before spreading it out on the sand and then sitting on it.

"So, you didn't lose your voice." She said after a while. I raised my brows at her and she continued. "You're not talking to Billie."

"Nope."

"She told me that you're mad at her."

"Yep."

"Come on, Doe. Look at her. She looks like a sad little puppy." She gestured to Billie who was sitting by herself a few feet away, staring at us with a frown on her face. "You need to talk to her so she can stop walking around here all teary-eyed and shit."

"Billie made my day miserable all of yesterday, so I'm making her day miserable today." I told her matter of factly.

"Doe eyes—"

"I always feel so fucking weak around her. I feel like sometimes I let her treat me like crap and I don't do shit about it. I mean, don't get me wrong, she treats me like a queen 95 percent of the time, but that other 5 percent...She snaps at me for no fucking reason and I let her ass get away with it." I scoffed.

"Like, yesterday she accused me of flirting with every girl that I see and I know I don't do that but I apologized anyway just because I wanted to make her feel better and I wanted her to not be mad at me. I did nothing wrong and yet I was the one apologizing when she was going off on me for no reason. Explain that shit to me." I rolled my eyes.

"I'm just...I love that stupid bitch so much!" I grumbled. "And I want us to be together forever and I always want her in my life and it's honestly scaring me how much I care about her. I'm just desperately trying to make sure that I don't turn into some weak-minded, complacent little dog for her to order around all the time. That's the last thing I ever wanna be for anybody."

"You're definitely not weak-minded or complacent," Kit smirked. "Just like she said earlier, you're stubborn as hell. Look, she doesn't wanna treat you like a dog or whatever. But maybe you should tell her you feel this way so she knows?"

"I'll do that. Whenever I decide to start speaking to her again." I crossed my arms over my chest.

Kit sighed and shook her head. "You motherfuckers got my blood pressure and my cholesterol up."

"What turns you on? What do you like to do in bed?" I questioned bluntly.

"I like to be pissed on."

I coughed and nodded, my cheeks flushing as I turned to stare forward rather than looking at her. "Oh, for real? That's...That's cool." I mumbled.

"Bro—"

"I mean, I don't judge and shit, you know?" I coughed again.

"I'm fucking with you. You and Bea suck ass at whispering, you know that?" She chuckled.

"Oh. So, you heard our conversation..." I sighed.

"Yeah. I think it's cute that Bea asked you to ask me that, though. Just tell shorty I like it when she rides my face and that I like it when girls moan loudly. She tries to hold that shit in and I don't fuck with that."

"Oh." I blushed.

I don't know what the fuck to say to that.

"Yeah. Well, this was a great talk and all, but I think I'm gonna go sit with Billie. I'm trying to keep a close eye on her. She listened to Marvin's room on repeat for three hours earlier." She told me as she stood up.

Yikes.

***

I pulled my glasses down on my nose slightly as I stared at the girl in front of me blankly.

We'd been at the beach for three hours now and there were now a lot more people here than there had been when we first showed up.

I'd spent the whole time lying on my blanket, tanning and dosing off. I was woken up just a few moments ago, though, because something was blocking my sunlight. Once I opened my eyes, I saw two things.

One, Billie had scooted way closer to me than she was before. She was still a few feet away, but she was definitely within listening distance. Two, some girl was standing in front of me, smirking down at me.

"Can I help you?" I questioned.

"I just wanted to say I think you're really hot. I don't usually do this—" That seemed like a total lie. "—But I've been staring at you for, like, an hour now and I just had to come shoot my shot."

Well, since Billie was in listening distance now...

"Take a seat," I told the girl, patting the spot beside me. I heard Billie let out an annoyed grunt and smirked a little. "Your name?" I asked.

"Millie." The girl grinned. "Yours?"

"Dahlia," I answered curtly. "I'm having girlfriend issues. Wanna help me out with that?"

"Oh, you're not single? I—"

"My girlfriend seems to think that she's irreplaceable. I really hate to have to sing Beyoncé's song to her, but it's looking like I might just have to fuck around and do that." I sighed as I sat up and glanced at Billie. She was just staring blankly at us, probably trying to figure out what the fuck I was doing.

"See, yesterday we went to a party and she was mad at me so she decided to let some other girl sit on her lap and flirt with her right in front of me. If you were me, what would you do to get back at her?" I questioned.

"Oh, I'm a really jealous person and I do stupid shit. I'd probably fuck around with somebody else too." She shrugged.

"Mm. Interesting." I muttered, staring right at Billie. "See, I get the feeling that my girl thinks she's the only one who wants me. Sometimes I feel like she forgets that there are other people who might love to get with me. I mean, she says she's scared of that happening, but her actions speak louder than her words. She keeps acting like I can't have another bitch in a second if I really want one." I glared as Billie shifted around uncomfortably.

"I guess you should show her better than you can tell her, baby." Millie chuckled before resting a hand on my knee. Billie sucked in a sharp breath as her eyes flickered down to the girl's hand and then back up to my eyes. "Maybe you should get with somebody else."

"See, the thing about that is, I can't really see myself doing that to her," I said through gritted teeth. "It's crazy to me how she could easily let another girl flirt with her and be all over her, and not give a shit. I don't think I could do that to her. Get your fucking hand off me." I demanded before pushing it away.

I let out a small sigh and stood up. "Thanks for the chat, I guess." I muttered before storming off.

"Yo, can I at least get your number?!" She questioned.

***

I'd been leaning up against the side of the bus, my arms crossed as I stared up at the few clouds in the sky for about ten minutes before Billie slowly crept up to me.

She was barely in front of me when a stray tear rolled down my cheek.

I kept my facial expression hard as she took my glasses off and then wiped the tear away with her thumb before stroking my cheek softly.

After a few moments, she took her hand away and got down on one knee. I furrowed my brows as I tried to figure out what she was doing. "Um...I don't know how to make this right, so, like..."

"Bitch what the fuck—"

"Kit told me to propose to you!"

"She did what?!"

"Well, I just, I—"

"Don't get on your fucking knees for me unless you're giving me head, bro!" I hissed.

"Well, shit, that's fine, I mean, shit...That's fine!"

"Get the hell up!"

She stood up quickly and let out a small, shaky breath. "I fucking suck. I'm really sorry about everything, Dahlia. I'm sorry for yelling at you, I'm sorry for hurting you, and I'm sorry for being such a bitch." She mumbled.

"If you do something like that again we're over. It's not fair for you to go into a fit of fucking rage every time somebody looks at me or touches me or whatever the fuck, and then you turn around and let a girl sit on your lap and grind on your leg for a fucking hour." I mumbled before harshly wiping another stupid tear away. God, am I sick of being a fucking crybaby.

"I won't do that shit again. I promise. I love you." She whispered.

She kissed my forehead before kissing my nose and then my cheeks, and then she slowly leaned forward to connect our lips. I was gonna pull away from her, but fuck that. I missed her lips.

She put her hands on my hips and pressed me up against the bus and I wrapped my arms around her neck. I ran my tongue over her bottom lip and she groaned before grabbing my thighs and picking me up.

I wrapped my legs around her waist and smiled into the kiss before breaking it.

"I love you too." I mumbled.

"How much?" She smirked as she brought a hand to my stomach and slowly slid it downward.

I moaned and connected our lips once again as her other hand gripped my ass.

"Aw shit, them bitches fucking. Alright, everybody. Head back down to the beach." Caden's voice interrupted us.

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A/N: Aw look at that. They're happy again for now 🤗

okay so remember a few chapters back (chapter 122) when I said I was ordering new clothes and a few of u asked me to let u know how they were when I got them? Well I forgot who all asked so I'll just do my lil review here

I ordered from a site called YesStyle which is a Korean clothing/beauty sit. It caught my eye because one day I googled 'grunge shirts' tryna find some ideas on what I wanted my style to be like and a lot of the shirts that I liked and that seemed like a good price we're from yesstyle. So I eventually downloaded the app and started browsing.

A lot of their clothes are 'grunge' which is what I was looking for so obviously I liked it. Their clothes are also really cheap which, more than anything, is what I liked lmfaooo I hate spending money. Anyway.

So I ended up ordering five shirts, five necklaces and one bracelet! I ordered the stuff on June 25th and it came in two packages, one got here Friday (July 12th) I think, and the other one for here today (July 15th). So it took a bit for it to get here but I was in no rush so I didn't mind the wait.

All the shirts fit me pretty well! Four of them were one size fits all which is sketchy af and I try to stay away from one size fits all clothing but I couldn't help it, I really liked the shirts so I ordered them and I'm glad they did because they fit me well! Ofc in the pics on the site the clothing looks really oversized bc that's the aesthetic, but on me they're not oversized at all. I just can wear them comfortably. Which I didn't mind because I expected that.

For reference, I'm 5'2–5'3 (I forgot) and a lil chubby. And I have big boobs which is where my problem with shirts comes in. If it wasn't for my damn boobs I could probably wear medium sized shirts just fine and yet I'm stuck always buying xls and up bc the titties stacked. We'll rant about that another day.

So anyway, the shirts fit well and don't cling to me which is all I wanted. And the one shirt I got that wasn't one size fits all I got in a 2xl which fit just like, if not smaller than, the one size fits all shirts.

The fabric of the shirts is thing and cool which I liked, but not too thin that I didn't like it. I ordered a white and black turtle neck and it was a bit see through, which I didn't mind cause I just got it to wear under t shirts anyway, but still. If u order white it might be see through.

The designs on the shirts I got looked as good irl as they did on the site too. The shirts were all good quality imo.

The jewelry I haven't worn yet, but it doesn't seem like it'll break too easily as long as I'm not really rough with it. All the jewelry I ordered was $5 or under so I don't expect it to last forever tho.

In conclusion, I plan on ordering more from the site in the future and I'd say it's safe for u to order there too if u want but make sure to read reviews for everything!

I'm gonna go watch euphoria for the billionth time now.