Chapter-56

Watching the sun set feels ironic. The darkness slowly surrounding the sky feels like the story of my life. As if I am being pulled into a dark abyss. Just few days ago I was so happy but now that happiness feels like luxury.

Everytime I try to move on in my life I am pulled back in time. Is there really no end to all this?

Will I always have to live under the shadow of my parents actions. Will it always be the same prejudices that will follow me everywhere I go.

No matter how much I achieve in life I will be judged on based of something I had no control over.

It's been a day since the incident with Lorenzo's father happened.

Since then there is this unsettling silence surrounding me. It makes me wary.

What will he do next? With how much I have interacted with him I know that he is a sick man. He wants to hurt Lorenzo and will go to any lengths to do that.

Lorenzo.

My hearts twists upon thinking about him. I haven't seen him since we came back from the forest, after that night. The bliss I felt the next morning feels like a distant lost memory. I still remember how happy I was. My chest was bursting with happiness.

His touch, his caresses. The way he touches me with so much care.

Honestly it's good that I haven't met him after that morning because I won't think I'll be able to look into his eyes. The guilt of hiding about my past from him is eating me up.

He told me everything about him even about his painful past, why can't I bring myself to do the same. Why was it so easy for him?

Fear of rejection.

My subconscious reminds me.

I am too afraid to see Lorenzo looking at me with a prejudiced look. I don't think I will be able to handle him look at me with disgust. His eyes which are always filled with so much love if there is even a flicker of repungence, I'll not be able to handle it.

Not from him.

I know I have been subjected to emotions like hatred, repulsion, abhorrenence all my life. I should be immune by now. But it hurts every time the same. To see the admiration vanish from people's eyes and a look of repulsion take over as they hear about me.

And to think that I am hiding not only my past but my present too from lorenzo. I haven't told me him about the truth of my marriage with Xavier.

Xavier.

How will he respond. He claims he as his wife. Would he still do that if he knew the truth? No respectable man would want there house to be maligned by the dirt from whore house.

I take a deep breath halting my thought process. My head is hurting now.

I gently rub my temples hoping to ease the pain.

The creaking of the door makes me turn.

A chills run over my body as I look at the door.

There he is.

Lorenzo's dad.

The embodiment of evil standing at the door with a vicious smile.

But it isn't him that making my heart stop.

He has a baby in his arms. The baby's face is covered by the blanket wrapped around the baby.

The same blanket the I put Nikolai in, early morning.

For a moment I forget how to breathe. But the loss of air makes me sharply inhale as I look at the horror before me unfold.

"Cute child you have got."

He says with a smirk.

I just look at him in terror.

"What was his name, again?"

"Nick"

"Nial"

"Niakolai"

"Yes niakloi, great name too."

"But he is a bit heavy. Am I right?"

He says and lossens his hold on my baby.

"Wait, stop."

I say as I move towards him but he moves back.

"Stay where you are or else..

He mimics the falling of a baby.

"Please give me my baby."

I say as I feel my eyes tearing up.

"Aww don't cry little dove I just want to play with him."

He says in a sarcastic tone.

"Old macdonald had a farm...

He sings

Suddenly he lets go of the baby.

"Niko"

I scream and run towards him.

But before I could reach for him I see him hit the ground.

My heart comes to a stop, my mind scramble as I run towards him and fall on the ground near my baby immediately picking him.

But it isn't him it just a pillow wrapped in his blanket.

A sense of relief washes over him.

But it's short lived as I hear him cackling loudly besides me.

"That was so fun. You should see your face. It looks as if you have seen a ghost."

He laughs like a maniac while I sit there on the ground processing all that happened in the span of few minutes.

As I sit there in utter despair he crouches down and cups my face.

"This my little dove is a warning for you to listen to me or else I'll make youe worst nightmares come true."

He says as he tucks strands of my hair behind my ear.

"So be a good girl and help me destroy my dear son, okay?"

He asks

"Why are you doing this to me?"

I asks in a broken voice as my tears fall free.

His expression shifts from pleased to annoyance.

"Because why does he have the freedom to do as he pleases while I was denied the right to even marry the woman of my choice. I couldn't marry her because they were not well off while he prances around with the daughter of a whore so proudly."

His grip tightens around my mouth.

"How can I let him be happy while I am miserable. I'll make sure that he experiences the sane pain as me."

He lets go me and stands up.

"So brace yourself my little dove it's going to be so much fun."

I lay on the ground absolutely hopeless.

"Also you should be careful while feeding your child. It's quite easy to poison a child. "

I look up at him as he speaks.

I immediately get up and make a run for Nikolai's room. Everything is a haze as I run like a maniac towards his room.

I hastily enter his room and see him lying in the cot peacefully.

Almost too peacefully.

The panic resurfaces and with trembling fingers I move my hand towards him. As my finger touches his face his little hand engulfs my whole finger and he smiles while sleeping peacefully.

I break down into tears.

Picking him up from the cot I immediately cradle him in my arms. I put him on my chest and more tears break through as I feel him breathing.

I fall to the ground and wail loudly.

I could hear footsteps of people barging in but don't bother to look up. I just hug my baby and cry.

My little angel

What would I have done if something had happened to him?

I would have died if something happened to him because of me.

"Kuhu."

Xavier calls me

But I don't look up. I just hug my baby tightly. And while hugging him I rock back and forth. The sobs and tears still relentlessly flowing.

"Did something happen to niakloi?"

Xavier asks his voice panicked.

I don't answer. I can just hear his question but can't process them, my mind is too hazy. I just kiss the back of niko's head.

"Kuhu let me look."

Xavier tries to take him out of my hands.

I immediately back away from him.

I look up at him with teary eyes.

I can't even see his face properly as tears blurr my vision.

"Ddon't..

Touch..

My..

Bbaby."

I say in a weak voice.

"Okay okay I won't but atleast tell me is he alright?"

He questions

I nod.

"Then why are you crying sweetheart?"

I look up and see Lorenzo standing besides Xavier.

And as I see him my heart shatters more.

I can't keep my eyes off of him. I just keep staring at him.

His eyes.. so much love.. so much affection.

And I have to hurt him.

I cast my eyes down and wail loudly while clutching my baby.

How did I end up here?

I ask myself as the pain in my chest becomes unbearable.

"Kuhu, darling."

Xavier cups my face.

"Are you alright? Are you hurt?"

He asks.

"Xavier."

I call him.

"Yes darling."

He answers

"Ppplease take it..

I hiccup due to crying so much.

..Away."

I beg him.

"Take what away?"

He asks almost immediately.

"The pain."

I whisper

"It's unbearable."

I falls onto his chest and cry my heart out.