chapter 55

I tried to read the next few paragraphs with all the strength I had. I guess I had reached the ninth paragraph. While I tried to finish it, I started nodding. “Oh gosh! I am not able to read any longer. I never thought reading a novel would be so difficult.” I again tried to read the same paragraph, again I nodded and failed to understand its meaning. “What the hell am I doing? I can’t even finish reading the ninth paragraph!” I tried again and failed again. I wondered, “I never nodded while watching a web series. I never nodded while talking to my boyfriend. But why am I nodding while reading a book? Why am I not getting interested in reading?”“If I fail to love a good book then how will I be able to love a good man? I don’t think I will be able to read this book on my own. I have to seek some guidance from Raj.”I called up Raj. He picked up my call. I said in a bit of an anxious tone, “Raj, it’s very difficult to read a novel. I am feeling very sleepy just after reading eight paragraphs. I am stuck on the ninth paragraph.”He burst into laughter, “Haha!”Divya - Hey, don’t laugh. Just tell me, don’t you feel sleepy while reading a book? He laughed and said, “No, no, I don’t feel sleepy.”I asked him curiously, “How is it possible? I tried to read the book, I felt sleepy. You must be feeling sleepy too because both of us are human beings.”Raj - Haha! No, I don’t feel sleepy!I asked him with an authoritative voice, “Then tell me what do you do?”Raj - Haha! I don’t do anything. Divya - Hey, you are lying! You must be doing something. Tell me the truth. For the first time ever, I am trying to do something good in my life. You are my boyfriend. You have to help me. He smiled and said, “Okay, okay. I tell you the truth. You are trying to read a novel for the first time ever in your life. Right?”Divya - Right.Raj - That’s why you are feeling like that. If you make a small target, say a page daily, and complete your target daily then you slowly slowly you don’t even come to know when you start reading fifty to hundred pages daily!I said surprised, “Fifty to hundred pages daily! Are you kidding me? I guess, I have to take rebirth at least seven times to reach such a stage!”Raj giggled, “Haha! You are very funny.”  I said, making my face serious, “Seriously. I don’t think I can ever do that.”He said sincerely, “You will be able to do that because you are my girlfriend.” I smiled and said, “I hope so.”He said in a teacherlike tone, “Now do one thing. Complete a page and then stop reading. Your today’s target will be over.”I said, “Yay! It means I have completed the target already. The ninth paragraph is on the second page.”He applauded me, “Wow! That’s awesome. It means you can read a full novel easily!” I could not digest what he said but of course, I felt good to hear that. Then we started talking normally. I had already thought that I would try to develop my interest in his conversation. I tried my best by initiating the conversation from what I read in eight paragraphs. We talked to each other for about one hour on various books. Obviously, I felt bored but I tried to develop some interest. When our talks finished and he hung up the call, I thought, “It’s not going to be an easy journey to become a good girl. It really demands a lot of effort from my side. Let’s see what happens. Hope everything will go fine.” Days passed by, I continued trying my level best to get interested in wisdom books. But I failed to complete even one book so far. I continued talking to Raj too along with reading. As the time passed by, I slowly-slowly started developing some pure feelings for Raj too. I mean pure feelings of love. I touched some other dimension of love that I never felt before. I spent one full night thinking about these two dimensions of love. I thought lying on the bed, “When I was in love with Vicky, that was a different kind of feeling. And now it’s completely a different feeling as compared to Vicky’s love. Whenever I would talk to Vicky, I felt aroused. Just imagining Vicky in mind, I started feeling a bit horny. But now, with Raj, I don’t feel like that, not even an iota of that type of feeling. But still, I feel happiness by talking to him. I agree so far the happiness is not too much. But  I guess happiness will increase in the future.”“If I talk about Sanaya. She is very happy with Nikhil. Neither did she like to have dirty talk nor Nikhil does. Still, they feel very blissful with each other. Both of them are very happy. Sanaya told me that their feelings towards each other are very pure and only such type of love is true love. Perhaps, one day, my pure feelings will also increase and I will start feeling like her. If it happens, then it will be the greatest day of my life.”“I am wondering if I had not met Sanaya, I would have never been able to touch the new dimension of pure love. Girls like Sanaya are very rare. As far as I know all the girls of my class believe in physical love only. All of them talk about kisses, long smooches and how their boyfriends are on the bed. At that time, I would feel love is all about only these things. No kisses, no smooches, no sex means no love. But if I talk about Sanaya, she never talked to me about these things. I think I should talk to her tomorrow..”(It will be so nice of you, if you leave at least a single word comment and please don't forget to follow me and become my superfan. You will be able to read all the locked parts of all my series for free and you will also be able to chat with me and my superfans directly.)