twenty two

Tyler Anderson

She blocked me. She. Fucking. Blocked. Me. I'll go crazy soon. Why? How do I deserve this?

Racing through the cold night air isn't helping me either right now. I definitely broke the speed limit already but I don't care.

I'm speeding down the empty street, my new baby is so fast, Steve, I love you. He did some good things to my new bike. My friends can't even catch up with me anymore. Pretty cool...

It's been a month since prom. I called her, texted her, tried to reach out in some way but she blocked me. God dammit.

"I'll kill you, today's the day." I saw Daniel hovering over Chris on the couch, Daniel's hand around Chris' throat. "Guys, guys, calm down. Oh my god." I quickly took my helmet and gloves off and made my way towards them.

"He deserves it!" Daniel's hand loosened around his throat as he sat down, next to Chris. "It's been so month and he already messed up with Cassie." He runs a hand through his dark hair, glaring at Chris as if he wished some laser would shoot out of his eyes and murder him.

I sigh, these guys are definitely not eighteen and older. The fuck, I feel like a thirty year old next to them sometimes. They're a pain in my ass. But I still love them.

"Have you heard anything about Alice yet?" A breath I didn't know I've been holding leaves my mouth as Chris asks me the question, I shake my head, running a hand over my face.

"Nothing. She blocked me. What should I do?" I let myself fall into the couch, body exhausted... Why do I even keep trying?

"I heard she moved away." And suddenly I sit up straight in my seat again. "What do you mean she moved away?" I ask Daniel, he just shrugs. "New York or something." My heart sinks as I hear that.

She moved away? Why? Was it because of me? I just knew my brain wouldn't come to a stop tonight. I wonder if I'll even get some sleep...

"New York." I breathe out. What does she want in New York...?

I'm still mad at myself for not speaking up at prom night. I should've told her that everything Adam is saying is a lie.

How could she believe him over me? I thought she knew me by now... I need to win her back but how? I want to explain myself. I really do...

"You'll go after her?" Chris said jokingly but I think... I think I might to that. I just have to find out where she is in New York. "I might." Chris immediately starts laughing. "Are you insane?"

I get up from the couch. "No, I'm just trying to fix us. And you definitely do not care about your relationship with Cassie. You don't even try." My words sound pretty harsh but he had to hear it.

"Think about it, Caddle." I pat his shoulder and make my way into my bedroom, I sigh as I close the door. New York... My girl is in fucking New York.

I let myself fall onto my bed, groaning. This is going to be a sleepless night. I hate over thinking but I can't turn it off...

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What should I say... Another six months had passed and I'm still here in Boston. I haven't moved a single muscle yet. I was kind of a coward.

Right now I'm sitting across from Brian. When I showed up at his house he almost started beating me up but I explained. I explained and now we're... Kind of talking

"You're crazy." He scoffs, leaning back in his chair as he chews on his gum. His hands crossing behind his neck.

"I'm not." I poke my inner cheek with my tongue, this guy has patience... God...

"You want to go to New York for her?" I nod and he scoffs again. "The fuck is wrong with you." I groan, slowly losing my patience. "Listen, just give me the fucking address, okay?"

"I have never seen a guy like you before, wow." I'll rip his fucking head off if he won't stop dancing around our actual topic. "To be honest, I don't know where she lives right now. She lived with her uncle before, she's probably living in a dorm on a campus now." Brian says so calmly.

"Campus?" I ask, leaning forward. "Yeah, Alice got into college in New York. Hunter college." Of course. She told me about going to college before.

"College, okay." I get up, my conversation with him is over. I don't need to talk to him further. He won't be any use for me anyway. "Thanks." I walk out, not waiting for any other word from his side.

New York, Hunter College. Okay, I guess that's my next plan... Finding Alice, apologizing and hoping that she understands me.

I don't know what this girl does to me. I've never been so obsessed with someone. I need her in my life and I know, I just know, she does too. She told me. She feels the same.

I make my way home, I'm greeted with my favorite ginger as I close the door behind me. "Noah, bro." I pull him into a tight hug, he's been gone for so long. He's finally back.

"Hey, bro. Missed you." He returns my hug, I pull away shortly after to look at him. "You look good, how was Dublin?" He nods, smiling.

"Pretty good I'd say. My dad and I had a good time together, I also saw my mom and sister again and my new brother... He's cute." I could see the satisfaction written on his face.

He enjoyed being back with his family, getting to know his dad again, being part of that family his dad recently build too. "I'm glad you enjoyed your time. I knew you wouldn't regret it." His eyes light up a little.

"I needed it. You're right, thanks again." He patted my back, a big smile plastered on his face. "Of course." Daniel walks into the room as well.

"Williams, you won't believe it. Tyler is going to fucking New York for Alice." Noah's face twists in confusion. "That dude fucked up at prom and has to make it up to her now, he's going to New York."

I slap Daniel onto the back of his neck. "I didn't fuck up! Stop saying that." I'm pouting like a toddler right now but I don't care. I start telling Noah about everything that happened at prom.

"I mean, you and her are a perfect match. It'd be quite sad to just throw that away and since she feels the same... Why not?" Daniel's jaw drops at Noah's comment.

"Am I the only one who thinks he's insane? Yes? Okay." Noah chuckles, shaking his head. "Let him be. He knows what's right and what isn't." That's my boy, thanks for supporting me.

"I'll go tomorrow. On my motorcycle." Now they're both staring at me. "Excuse you?" Daniel scoffs, shaking his head. "You know it's way faster by plane, right?" I nod, of course, I'm aware.

"I know. But I'll take my motorcycle, thanks though." I pat his shoulder and leave. As soon as I arrive in my room, I start packing my bag, I'm not taking much with me. I don't know how long I'll be staying, I don't know if I'll even find her. I don't even know what I'm doing...