Down the Drain

{happy trans day of visibility 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵}

I'm not even upset. A year and a half with that boy down the drain and I couldn't even care less. Well kind of, if anything I am just angry. Angry that I wasted my time. Angry about how he treated me. A small part of me is relieved. I can finally be with Jessie, guilt-free. We'll never be officially step sisters. My mom will cheat on him or he will dump her or both.

I needed to talk to someone. My go-to person would be Elle but I don't exactly feel like telling her the Jessie part just yet. Jessie is away right now and I don't want to bother her. I knew where I needed to go.

I pick up my phone and call who I need.

"Hey" He says when he picks up the phone.

"Are you home?" I ask. I sounded a bit defeated.

"Are you ok?" I could hear the concern in his voice.

"Can I just come over?" I ask.

"The door is always open" He says.

"I'll be there soon" I say and hang up.

I grab my keys and go downstairs. My mom and Collin were in the kitchen.

"Where are you going?" She asks.

"Don't worry about it" I walk out before she can protest.

I get into my car and start driving in complete silence. Normally driving without music or some sort of noise gives me anxiety but I don't feel like listening to anything right now. The car ride was short. I sped a little bit so I got here quicker than I normally do.

I get out of my car and walk inside. "Dad I'm here" I yell.

"I'm in here" I hear him yell from the kitchen.

I walk in and he is sitting at the table drinking a cup of coffee. "Hey"

"Hey" I say back and sit across from him. He waits for me to continue talking. "Ok so I did something"

He looks concerned. I probably should have started this conversation differently. He probably thinks I'm pregnant. Quite, the opposite honestly.

"I started having feelings for a girl. I may have acted on those feelings while drunk. Casey may have found out. Casey and I may have broken up" I say very quickly.

He looked so relieved. "Are you ok?" He asks.

"Not really" I say and that's when I break down crying. He comes over to hug me while I cry. "I fucked up."

"It's ok. We all make mistakes" He says while still comforting me.

I get myself together then we sit in the living room.

My dad turns on the TV. He puts on some sitcom from the 90s. I guess he was trying to keep it light. "Does your mom know you're practically dating her boyfriend's daughter?"

"No, and I don't plan on telling her" I say. He looks a little confused. "It's not like it's going to be a forever thing. We're only 16" I shrug my shoulders.

"Casey's mom is not going to be happy" He says.

"Oh I know" I haven't even thought about her throughout this entire situation. I would have loved to have been her daughter-in-law. She loves me. She treats me like her daughter since she only has one son. She is either gonna be devastated or pissed that I broke her son's heart.

We spent the rest of the day pretty lowkey. We watched TV. He told me all about the turtle that was brought into the facility where he volunteers this week. They named her Penny. We ordered food for delivery and I ended up sleeping over.

{I've restarted the sims 4 100 baby challenge for the 4th time. I must hate myself. I completed it within 2 months last year, let's see if I can break my record}