We're Gonna Be Okay

{Y'all I was on break but decided to check in. 100 fucking thousand reads?!? What the fuck that is insane. I truly did not expect this story to get over 100 when I started

Thank you all so much. You all deserve a chapter and a whole lot more but at the moment I can only deliver this.}

3 am:

"That was crazy," Jessie says. She is sitting up against the bed frame and I am lying in her arms. She is running her fingers up and down her arm.

"Did you at least like it?" I look up at her. I'm not completely inexperienced but I've never done anything like that with a girl.

"I loved it," She says and kisses me on the top of the head. "Sit up"

I do as told and she stands up and grabs a t-shirt from her suitcase, grabs my pajamas out of mine, and throws it at me. "Go to the bathroom"

"Do I have to?" I ask.

"Yes," She says.

I go into the bathroom and do what I need to do. I look in the mirror and I am all red, sweaty, and gross. I should probably shower but I want to go back to cuddling in bed with her. Once I change and leave the bathroom, she does the same.

When she comes out we crawl back into bed together. This time I am holding her. She is on her side, cuddled into me.

"I love you," She says, drawing circles on my stomach.

"I love you more," I say.

"No you don't get it," She sits up. Lay back down. I want to play with her hair. "I like love love you" She emphasizes the second love.

"I know and I love you too," I say. I can see in her eyes something's bothering her. She almost looks like she wants to cry. "What's wrong?"

"It's just too much too fast." The first tear falls. "Coming out to my parents, drinking, partying, clubbing, my first relationship." She cries a little harder. "I don't even get to enjoy my first relationship" I pull her back into my arms and she holds on to me for dear life. "We get to have good moments like that or the pool or the tree house and then it sets in that in 3 weeks this is all going to be over and I'm just gonna have to bottle all these feelings up and I just don't want to do that," She says in between sobs.

"Love, we are going to be ok. I promise" I run my hand up and down her arm to comfort her.

"You can't promise that," She says.

"I can promise you will never lose me," I reassure her.

"Ok," She wipes her eyes and sits up.

"We'll be ok," I say.

She doesn't respond; instead, she leans in and kisses my lips.

"Can we go to sleep now?" She asks.

"Yes"

We lay down. She cuddles in next to me and I wrap my arm around her. She lays her arm on my chest and falls asleep almost immediately.