Chapter 34 Chapter 34
Finding Forgiveness
Andrea came into the bedroom an hour or so later after the other men
had left. He peeled off his shirt and collapsed next to me on the bed.
He reeked of beer and tequila and a shiny sweat was visible on his skin
as he fumbled around in his belt for his gun which he then threw
carelessly onto the nightstand.
"You'll feel like shit in the morning if you don't drink water now," I said
after a few moments. "Even werewolves aren't immune to that amount
of alcohol.â
"Then get me water,â he grumbled.
I got up and fetched him a large glass of water from the bathroom
which he proceeded to drink the whole of.
He then rolled onto his back and gestured to his feet, "Take my shoes
off."
I knealt down by the side of the bed and untied his laces before pulling
the first shoe off his foot. As I reached for the other, he put his hand on
the back of my neck and pushed his fingers up through my hair.
"I want you right now, Blanca,â he replied. "But I'm too drunk.â
I breathed a sigh of relief and continued to fumble with his shoe.
"You need to sleep,â I said after finally getting his shoe off and putting
it neatly by the other one at the end of the bed.
He beckoned for me to come closer to him with a hand gesture but his
drunken clumsiness gave me the confidence to refuse. He glared for a
few moments before lurching forward, grabbed my wrist and pulled me
towards him.
I held my breath as he held my face inches away from his and stared in
silence. The anticipation of his next move drove me mad, but then he
just let me go, rested his head on the pillow and closed his eyes.
"Good night, Blanca,â he mumbled.
I slowly stood up. He didn't stir.
Keeping my eyes fixated on him, I crept forward and took his gun from
the nightstand and then crept back towards the door which was only a
couple of metres away and millimetre by millimetre silently turned the
knob so that the door could be inched open.
Once I had slipped into the hallway with the bedroom door securely
shut, I allowed myself to breathe and press my back against the wall,
trying to pull myself together. I looked down at the gun; it was only a
shotgun and relatively small but my hand still shook as I held it.
What the hell am I doing? How did I get myself into this?
But there was no going back now so I took a deep breath, composed
myself and whilst keeping my eye out for Andrea coming after me, ran
on my tiptoes down the dark hall towards the spiral stairs that lead
down to the foyer.
Just as I reached the top of the stairs, I felt something grab my arm and
pull me around the corner.
"What are you doing, gringa?" a voice asked.
It was deep but less harsh than Andrea's and with a thicker accent.
Although his face was mostly shadowed by the night, I could tell it was
Chico, still wearing the same expressionless face.
on
"Trying to get yourself killed?" he said quickly pulling the gun out of my
hand and flicking the safety cap on.
"No-I-," I stuttered.
"You know what the boss would do if he found out about this, yes?" he
questioned shaking my shoulders. "Why would you try this?"
"I don't know," I whispered. "I wasn't thinking."
He sighed and glanced around the hall.
"You're going to tell him?"
He looked me in the eye briefly before pushing the gun back into my
hands, "Take this and put it back exactly where you found it."
I nodded frantically and let out a shaky thanks as my lips quivered.
"Don't do anything stupid,â he warned before letting me go.
As Chico had ordered, I went straight back to Andrea's room and
replaced the gun being sure not to wake him and then I just silently lay
down on the other side of the bed, my heart beating fast. The thuds of
my pulse surged in my ears along with the fuzzy hum of a high pitched
note. As time went by, it became less piercing and the surging slowed.
My hands also stopped shaking and I felt myself relax.
I stared out the balcony at the rising moon and twinkling stars. The
jungle seemed still and the twittering birds had been replaced by the
clicking of hundreds of insects hidden in the undergrowth.
I must have been staring out for hours before I could sleep. Andrea
didn't move leaving me alone to think over everything that had
happened and to dwell on my own misery. The only comforting
thought I could think was Cato now being safely at home, probably
curled up in the warmth of Leo's arms as they both slept. I smiled to
myself at the image of the pair but at the same time it wretched my
stomach that I wasn't there to see it for myself.
I also thought about Chico, how he had helped me, how he had risked
the wrath of Andrea for my benefit. He hadn't been warm or friendly or
even smiled but it was nice to know that not everyone was fully against
me here.
The next day, I woke to a prod in the back. I opened my eyes to be met
with a gun.
I let out a choked gasp as I tried to shuffle away but he only laughed,
withdrew the gun and turned away.
"Get up, Blanca,â he said. "We have shit to do today.â
I closed my eyes, once again trying to banish my fear. It was just his
idea of a joke.
I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I could feel my hair sticking up in all
directions and the bags under my eyes but I had no energy to do
anything about it so I just followed Andrea downstairs to the kitchen.
"Are you hungry?" he questioned.
"No," I said in a hoarse tone.
"Then go and sit out in the garden,â he said pointing to the doors. "I'll
be out in a few minutes and we have much to discuss.â
I say nothing and just stepped out onto the patio, a clingy warmth
instantly hitting me. Chico was walking on patrol around the perimeter
of the lawn. He caught my eye and his stare lingered for a moment or
two before he continued doing his job as if he'd never seen me.
The heat was unbearable so I made my way under the shade of a tree
by the pool and pulled my knees against my chest. I watched the soft
breeze ripple the water and slosh in against the ceramic edges. But
despite its crystal blue colour and the fierce morning heat, I didn't feel
invited by it in the slightest. I'd rather hide in the shadows.
Under the cover of the leafy tree, the temperature was comfortable and
the air felt less thick and warm. I took a deep breath in and felt the
closest to peace I had in days.
But wait. Here comes a condescending piece of shit to destroy that.
Andrea stepped out of the house and scanned the yard for a few
moments before his eyes landed on me. He strode across the neat lawn
until he reached a deckchair just beside the tree I was underneath. He
leant back and closed his eyes letting the sun rays doze his brown skin
Considering his state last night, he did not look all that bad. His hair
was unbrushed and he wasn't dressed in his usual smart attire but apart
from that, there was little evidence of a hangover.
"Do you not like the sun, Blanca?" he asked.
"I live in Washington,â I replied bluntly after a moment or so.
"You'll get used to the heat soon enough," he said. "Anyway, we're
going out.â
"Where?" I asked
"Remember how you were my lil errand bitch before I found out you
were lying to me?" he began. "I don't normally give second chances but
I'm thinking you could still have a use. If you prove me right, maybe I
won't kill you.â
How comforting.
"As I told you yesterday, we're attending a party tonight and there will
be a man there that you are going to help me kill,â he began. "When
we arrive, I will point him out to you and then you're on your own
because he can not see my face. All you have to do is get him upstairs
alone. Shouldn't be too difficult. I got you a pretty dress to wear,â he
explained.
"You want me to..." I began.
"Relax...you don't have to fuck him. Just act like you're going to. I'll
come up and kill the bastard before he gets that far,â he explained.
"How good is your acting?"
"I can't lie for shit," I replied.
"What about for your life, eh?" he asked. "If he finds out that you are
working for me?"
He then laughed and smirked, "You will be dead, Blanca, and that's for
sure."
I gulped.
"And make sure you get his gun off him. Understand?"
I nodded.
"Ever seduced a man before?" he asked.
"I have a mate,â I said. "As you are well aware.â
"Funny. I would have imagined that it's Loren that does the initiating,"
Andrea replied.
"You're surprisingly obsessed with Alpha Loren's sex life,â I began.
"What else do you wanna know? How long it takes him to cum? His
favourite position? If he's ever experimented with a man?"
"Watch it, Blanca,â Andrea hissed. "You're treading on thin ice.â
I grinned to myself, happy in the knowledge that I pissed him off.
"l ain't no motherfucking gay,â he replied. "I can show you how straight
I am tonight if you like, huh?"
I looked down to the floor.
"That's what I thought,â he grumbled.
We sat in silence for a few minutes before he spoke again.