Chapter 37 Chapter 37
Finding Forgiveness
When we got back to the house, we were greeted by a whole group of
men that had been previously just lurking around the house, carrying
big guns and keeping an eye out.
Most of them were tattooed and rough looking, others were younger
and clearly new but they all wore huge smiles and let out leary cheers
as Andrea got out the car.
His lips curled into a smile, "La victoria es nuestra! The victory is ours!"
One man came up to Andrea and shook his hand, âFelicidades, Sefior.â
Andrea laughed and pulled him into a hug, "Ayy, gracias Paulo."
"Someone get the tequila," he ordered releasing the man from the hug.
There was another huge cheer and the men began heading up the
steps to the house.
Andrea slapped his hand around my shoulder and kissed my cheek
before we followed the men inside, "You like tequila, my love?"
I shrugged and he led me up into the house and then into the kitchen
where shot glasses of tequila were already being poured.
Andrea picked two up and handed one to me and waited a few
moments until each of his men had one in hand.
"To Caracas,â Andrea announced holding his glass up.
"To Caracas,â they responded and all drank.
I particularly feel like drinking to the deaths of a hundred people but
not wanting to draw any attention to myself, I did. It was strong and
burnt my throat but I forced myself to swallow it.
"You like it, Blanca?" Andrea asked. "Huh?"
He then reached forward and began pouring me another.
"Oh no-" I began.
"Humour me,â he said giving me the glass.
I took it and knocked it back again but this time the strength soothed
me.
Andrea smiled in satisfaction. His eyes then drifted down to everything
the dress didn't cover and flashed with black.
"Vuelve al Trabajo. Go back to work," he said to his men and they all
picked up their guns and filtered out in different directions.
He watched them as they assumed their guard positions in various
places in the garden or at the front of the house before turning back to
me.
"Vamos," he said taking my hand. "Let's go."
He led me towards the stairs. I knew his intention and it made my heart
pound and my mind searched for an escape route. But the tequila
already clouded my thoughts and created a blockade to reason.
"Andrea, celebrate more with your men," I said.
He turned to me and pressed his lips forcefully on mine, âI wanna
celebrate with you."
When he pulled away his smile was wide and unsettling. He lurched
forward and kissed my cheek, making me flinch before taking my hand
again and pulling me up the stair case.
Chico was stood on a balcony stretching off the hallway upstairs,
looking out over the garden, a large gun in his hand. He turned briefly
as we passed, looking from Andrea to my pleading face and I caught
his eye for a millisecond before he turned back out to the garden.
I let out an exasperated sigh, my only shred of hope ripped away from
me. I was on my own now.
When we reached Andrea's room, he let go of my hand and I moved
across away from him, to the window, trying to control my heavy
breathing.
For a few minutes, there was silence. I heard the metal clunk of him
putting his gun down and then he just lay on the bed on his back with
his head resting on his hands. I tried to focus on the moon. It glowed,
casting its bright white light over the jungle, in its almost spherical
glory. A few more nights and it would be full, I could sense it.
Andrea then stood up and I cast my eyes away from it, to a small beetle
crawling across the railings of the balcony outside the glass panel
doors.
"You did good today, Blanca,â Andrea whispered in my ear, standing
behind me and putting his hands on my shoulders and slowly running
them down the side of my arms. "You did real good.â
His fingers brushed along my back, sweeping my hair to the side.
"Let me get your zip," he said reaching for the back of my dress.
I heard the metallic sound of the zip sliding down and the fabric of the
dress loosen its tight hold on my skin. Andrea slipped it off my
shoulders and slipped his hand down the front of the dress.
I refused to give him the satisfaction of my movement or even the
slightest sound so instead, I just fixated on the beetle, scuttling around
outside.
"There won't be any interruptions this time," he said kissing my neck.
I felt his lips on my mark and I flinched. "Please, just not that spot,â I
whispered.
He looked up into my eyes, kissed it one more time before he stopped
and instead, reached for my dress and pulled it further down.
"I don't want you to be thinking about your Alpha right now, Blanca,â
he said.
A tear ran down my cheek and dripped onto his hand which was on my
chest.
"How can I not?" I choked.
The beetle had now disappeared over the edge of the balcony so I
turned to face Andrea.
"There are so many girls out there that would willingly sleep with you," I
said. "Why must you have me?"
He smiled and cupped my face with his hands.
"Because I want you," he said. "And I always get what I want."
His hand then reached for my breast and as he pulled my dressed fully
off so that I was only in my underwear.
"I helped you," I protested. "Caracas is yours now and I helped."
"So far, your Alpha has killed eight of my men, located one of my stock
warehouses with tonnes of products worth millions, nearly shot me
dead, disrupted the runnings of my business and most importantly, you
have both pissed me off. Whilst your help does not go
underappreciated, it was not enough to make up for all the shit you
and your mate have caused me. So if you want to live, you will let me
fuck you. Understand?â
I nodded and he ran his hand over my chest as he kissed my mark once
again before leading me to the bed and laying me down on the
mattress. I was soon underneath him as he removed his tie and shirt.
As he reached for the buckle of his pants, a whimper bubbled at my
throat and lurched out.
He slammed a hand onto my throat so tight that I couldn't breathe
before he went back to unzipped his pants.
The tequila and an extreme lack of oxygen made me feel dizzy and
weak. I hardly even remember him removing my panties. Only the
excruciating pain that followed.
He finally let me breathe and I let out a choked sob as he spread my
legs apart with his hands and forced himself inside.
After letting out a deep moan, he positioned his hands on my hips as I
through my head back already drowning in my own tears.
I wanted nothing more than anything to be home. With Leo, with my
children. Or just literally anywhere away from Andrea and away from
this situation. The feeling of helplessness and powerlessness was
overwhelming and I couldn't handle it. There was nothing I could say or
do, it was already happening and nothing was going to change that.
If this is what I have to do to stay alive, I think I'd rather be dead.