Chapter 82 Chapter 82
Finding Forgiveness
"Have you been down here before?â Milly asked, glancing around the
bunker.
We were sat almost in pitch black. Only a small bulb hanging from the
ceiling illuminated the room in a dull grey glow and being ten foot
underground, there certainly wasn't any opportunity for the moonlight
to shine in.
"No," I said clutching Stefano in my arms.
The rest of the kids were huddled by my feet, wrapped in the thick
woollen blankets that Leo kept stashed down here. They held each
other and my legs, not a single one asleep despite it being one in the
morning.
"The night I met you I was supposed to be,â I said looking around at
the concrete walls, concrete floors and thick reinforced doors, "But
Haden's men got to us before they could get me to safety so I ended
up in the heart of the war. It was terrifying but this is hardly a
comforting alternative.â
She nodded and continued her 10th lap of the small confined room.
We'd been here twenty minutes and she was yet to sit down. We were
all anxious and scared for the people above the ground that we loved
but she seemed particularly uneasy. Agitated, skittish...cooped up.
After the explosions, Max had piled us all quickly into the back of a
military truck, all eight kids still in their pyjamas, and driven through the
smoke and burning to get here. The kids had only had a seconds each
to say goodbye to their father and there had been no time to explain to
them what was going on until Max had slammed the three-foot iron
door shut and we'd listened to the clunk of every single bolt echo
around the concrete bunker. We'd stood in silence for a few moments
before I ushered them further in, found the switch to the unimpressive
light and at least tried to settle the distress and confusion.
They were already scared and explaining to them was difficult,
especially with Catoâs probing questions. He was far more developed
than his younger siblings and he knew there was more than I was
letting on to.
But all I could bring myself to tell him was that we had to stay down
here until Daddy says it's safe and that he is up there doing everything
he can to make that happen. I told them the fires were set by that bad
man we talked about before but they couldn't burn forever. When the
flames have died and the ash has settled, everything will be okay.
But Milly was seventeen and she knew the full situation as much as I
did. My soft words didn't stand a chance of settling her.
"Why don't you sit down, Milly?" I suggested, there's plenty of room
She shook her head, "I can't,â she said clenching her fists, "I just...â
She tilted her head back and contorted her face in what looked like
pain.
"Just what?"
"Somethings not right. I can sense it," She replied, "Those books we've
read about my magic and Hecate. They all talk about how I should be
able to see the future. I've never been able to hone that power.
Occasionally I have visions but only in dreams and they're weird and
hard to interpret. But there are feelings that I get. Like preemptive
emotions for what's about to come...â
She then turned to me. Her face was grave, her bottom lip quivered a
little as she pressed her nails into the palms of her hand
*..and what emotions do you feel now?" I asked.
"Panic, suffering, chaos, anger, fear..." she said, "And then this one
emotion that I could never have imagined. It's like nothing I've felt
before. It's cold and empty and dark and..." she glanced down to my
children in a split second before continuing in a hushed tone, "...It's like
death, Ella."
Now my lip trembled too.
"Whose going to die Milly?" I asked.
She clenched her fists even tighter as she just stared into my eyes, her
face plastered in pure dread
"Us and everyone we hold dear."