Chapter 30

Ellie's P.O.V

"Hey troublemaker" I snap my head to the door when I hear Lucas's voice as he walks into the room

"Hey! What are you doing here?" I ask excitedly, I was happy to see him. I needed company and he was my favourite

"I'm here to take you to get washed and the Kai wants you" I smile, I can't believe I'm finally getting out of here. I jump up and walk over to the door, I couldn't wait to get a shower and feel clean

"It's been ages and I can't wait to get a shower and brush my teeth" I say as we walk out of the room. Kai walks me up to my room, he sits and waits for me on the bed.

I walk into the bathroom and completely strip out of my clothes, I turn the shower on and wit for it to heat up. Whilst I'm waiting I brush my teeth and wash my face. I get the facecloth and then jump into the shower allowing the warm water to fall down onto my body. You have no idea how nice this feels. I squirt some of the coconut scented shower gel onto my face cloth and wash my body from head to toe, I then shave everywhere, apart from my arms and face obviously. I wash my hair with the raspberry scented shampoo and conditioner and once I'm satisfied I'm completely clean I get out and dry myself off. Once I'm dry I get into clothes.

I walk out of the bathroom and we head down to Kai's office.

"So how's Oscar doing?" I ask

"Yeah he's fine, still resting obviously but he doesn't want to. He says he's bored and doesn't need to rest and that he is okay" I laugh knowing that Oscar was probably complaining every second.

Once we walk into Kai's office he tells Lucas to leave. I was a bit nervous as he is really mad at me, well he was I'm not sure if he still is.

"I need you speak to you about some things" he says. He motions for me to sit down so I walk over to the chair in front of his desk and sit down.

"First of all, I'm not mad at you anymore, second of all you WILL be moving into my bedroom tonight" He says leaving no room for discussion, I decide not to even argue about it. I just got out of that room I don't want him to get mad and get put in there again. So I nodded my head instead.

"Good I'm glad your not arguing about it"

"There's no point your not going to give me what I want anyway so why waste my breath"  he looks a bit annoyed that I said that but he doesn't say anything

"Okay so I heard you have a brother" he says, I was confused and shocked that he brought that up and how did he even know what?

"How do you know that I have a brother?" I ask

"Do you not talk to him?" He asks completely ignoring my question

"No I haven't seen or heard from him since I was 15, he left and didn't say why, why do you wanna know?" I ask, I didn't know why he was asking about my brother, I  know why I so open to him about it and why I was just telling him. I suppose it's nothing really big that I'm telling him.

"Oh, did you not get on?" There he goes agin ignoring my question

"Why do you wanna know so much about my brother? And how do you even know I have a brother?" I ask again hopefully this time he will answer my questions

"Answer my question Ellie, did you not get on with him?" Is he serious!

"You haven't answered my questions since I sat down, why do you wanna know so much about my brother?" I ask for the third time!

"I'll get to that but I wanna known why he left first" he says, he clearly must be deaf

"I told you I don't know why he left, I don't even know where he is" I say, I was a bit upset, i was really close with my brother and when he left it hurt me. My mum and dad told me to just forget about him that I shouldn't get upset because he abandoned us but surely there was a reason. I would love to know why he just left without an explanation.

"I know where he is"

"What?...Why?.. How?"

"He's in a Mafia Ellie, mine to be exact"

"WHAT?" I screamed, I couldn't believe he left to join a Mafia. Did he not know how dangerous that it? Or how much I would miss him? Or did he just not care? Tears started to stream down my face, I was mad, upset and shocked all at once. I didn't know what to think

"Hey its okay" he says as he comes around to my side

I stand up and walk away from him "no please just leave me alone" I cry. I couldn't believe that my brother who I loved so much and depended on and who I trusted and went to when I was getting bullied in school left me to join a stupid Mafia. I was angry but mostly hurt, and I felt betrayed.

"Look I'm sorry, I just thought you deserved to know" he says, I was glad that he told me. I had spent so much time in the past wondering why he left and now I know.

"No I'm glad you told me" I said as I sniffed and rubbed my tears away

"So do you want to see him?" He asks, I didn't know what to say. I was mad at him but I haven't seen him in so long, I want to know what his reason was for leaving. I feel I deserve to know but then again I don't know if I could handle seeing him after finding out that he is in a Mafia and that's probably why he left, I'd probably start crying. He doesn't deserve my tears, he just left me when I needed him and counted on him to make me feel better. I was only 15 and I was getting bullied at school and he was the only one I could talk to because my parents weren't there when I needed them, they told me I'd be okay and that the bullies would get bored if I just ignored them but guess what? They didn't, Sure my parents didn't know how bad my bullying was but Josh did and he left without so much as an explanation. I remember the day like it was yesterday.

5 years ago

"J-josh can I talk to you?" I was holding back my tears, the bullies ripped my homework up and I got an after school detention. It was currently 4 o'clock and I just got home, I walked up to my brothers room. Once I walked in I noticed his room was a mess. Clothes where everywhere and straight away I knew something was wrong because Josh always had a tidy room.

I also noticed that there was a suitcase and it contained Josh's clothes in it, there was also some other bags by the door or his room.

"Josh?"

"What's wrong?"  He asked as he came out of his closet

"Nothing, why are you packing your clothes? Are you going on holiday?"

He sighs "I'm leaving El and I'm sorry but I have to go"

"What? Go where?"

"Just know that I love you okay, and listen don't let them bullies change you, stick up for yourself and fight back" he always said that but that never made it any better in fact when I did stick up for myself I got a slap to the face. But I wasn't worried about them right now, I was worrying about why my brother was leaving

"Why are you leaving?"

"I have to" He says and continues to put his clothes into his bag

"But why? Josh you can't leave me please just talk to me what's wrong? Why are you leaving? Does mum and dad know?" I was nearly in tears for the second time today

"Ellie"

"Please josh don't leave me, your practically all I have"

"Ellie?"

"ELLIE!" I was snapped out of my thoughts when I felt Kai shaking me and shouting my name

"What?" I ask

"What happened you just blanked out?" He looked worried

"Sorry, I didn't mean to what did you say again?" I ask

"I asked you if you wanted me to bring your brother here so you can see him"

"Oh, no I don't want to see him in fact I don't want him to even know I'm here" I say, I was angry and felt betrayed I had begged and begged Josh not to leave that night and he just kept saying he had to. With no proper explanation so no I didn't want to see him and he clearly never wanted to see me because after he left I tried to phone him all the time and I texted him about a million times, he never picked up and he never texted back.

"I have to tell him Ellie, it's only fair. I told you and he deserves to know" he said

"No! No he doesn't deserve to know. Wanna know why? Because he left without a proper explanation and when I begged him not to leave me guess what he did? He walked out the door and never turned back! Do you know how that feels? He knew what I was going through and he knew I needed him, I was 15! I practically only had him as my parents were barely home and when they were they paid no attention to me, I called and texted Josh all the time but he never responded. He was my only friend and he left me so no he doesn't deserve to know!" By the time I was finished I was in tears, a proper sobbing mess but I didn't care, I was hurt.

"I'm sorry" he says, that shocked me but it didn't make me feel any better

"And to answer your question. Yes, yes I do know how that feels and it hurts I know it does. When I was 6 my mum left, she walked out on me and I didn't know why either, know I don't even care I'm glad she's gone because I don't need her"  I felt bad for him, I knew what it felt like to not have a mum. Sure I had my mum but she may never really bothered with me. It was just me and my brother until he left

"I'm sorry"

"It's okay, it was a long time ago" he says and kisses my forehead it was only then I realised that I was sitting on his knee.

"Please don't tell him" I said

He sighed "I won't for now but I think you should see him"

"Why?"

"To find out why he left"

"He won't tell me, if he was going to he would have just told me before he left and he wouldn't have ignored my calls"

"I'll make him, don forget I'm his boss" he says. I wasn't sure what to do, I wanted to know so badly but I didn't want to see him

"I'll think about it" I said

End of chapter 30

hope you enjoyed!

What do you think Ellie will do? Do you think she should give her brother a chance to explain? Or do you think she should just pretend like she doesn't know he is there?