10. the morning after

*the next day*

I woke up and Axel once again had already left my side. But I heard the shower so I knew he was just taking one probably to ease the stress of what today would bring. I already knew what I was in for.

Yesterday was unfortunately very fresh in my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about that kiss or I think what's worse my soon to be punishment from Axel. I almost felt guilty because I wasn't sure if he knew or saw. I knew my ass was grass.

I started to pace around the room practicing what I was gonna say. Or how I was gonna talk myself out of it.

I'm good at that. That's what I'm good at. I need to stick to what I'm good at. Why confess when you can just stress!

Or something like that.....

I sat back down on the bed and stared at my tiny white painted toes and my threaded anklet on my ankle swinging back and forth.

Axel walked out of the bathroom soon after with just a towel across his torso.

Jesus Christ I couldn't even be scared of him. I was too busy getting all hot and bothered.

"Good morning bug", he said to me but looking in one of the mirrors across the room.

He called me bug. That's another nickname he has for me. Which is a good sign.... maybe.

"Morninggggg", I said in a puppy dog voice.

"Don't even do all that Lani. You already know what's coming I just don't have the time to deal with you right now when all of the future 31 is acting way worse", he said getting annoyed as he thought about it.

"Are you super mad at me or just a little bit mad at me", I asked with my fingers crossed.

"Medium mad", he said.

I decided that I wanted to tell him about the small kiss I had with Justin because I didn't want him to find out later and realize I kept it from him.

"Yesterday I um-", I stammered, nervous about his reaction. The last thing I wanted was to be given back.

"Gave that fuck ass kid a peck on the lips. Yeah I saw you", he cut me off. My heart fell out of my ass.

"I-", I started to explain myself.

"Lani. I'm not mad. I know you won't do it again after I'm done with you. And I know your dumb ass never smoked or drank and last night you probably did both. So we just won't talk about it okay", he said looking for a shirt.

I huffed.

"Okay baby", I said trying to sweet talk him into being less mad. He kinda just ignored it.

"So what I don't get to hang out with you today, it's a weekend", I said pouting.

"You don't even deserve to lay your ass on that bed Lani. You are beyond lucky right now", he said.

"But no you're coming with me so hurry up and shower", he said.

I got up excited but I didn't wanna show it bc then he'd make it miserable for me.

I just washed my body real fast and skipped my hair because wash day isn't for another two days.

I jumped in some clothes and kept it pushin. Axel was downstairs eating his meal prepped breakfast leaving me to make my own.

I opened the cabinet to see we still had no fucking cereal. And I don't know why this pissed me off so bad. But I've been begging Axel to go to the grocery store to get more foods. ESPECIALLY CEREAL.

I guess I got caught up in my thoughts and I slammed the cabinet door in frustration.

Axels head shot up from his phone and an angry look was plastered on his face.

"Who the fuck do you think you are slamming shit Kailani", he said standing up to come closer to me.

"Sorry", I said harshly pushing past him to get grits and an egg.

"There's not enough time for that", he said, coming up behind me and closing the fridge door harshly.

"What the f-", I was about to get really angry. I get hangry easily.

"You're pushing your luck. Go upstairs and get your shit to go to the office. Looks like you'll skip breakfast", he said to me.

"You're so unfair", I yelled at him, stomping up the steps.

Once I got back down he handed me a strawberry pop tart and a to go orange juice.

"You're so unfair", he mocked.

I snatched it from him and mumbled a thank you.

"Huh", he said grabbing my shin making me look at him.

"Thank you", I said annoyed. He smacked my ass hard as hell.

"What Lani", he said.

"Thank you daddy", I wanted so badly to roll my eyes.

"Your welcome princess", he said letting me go.

"I have a meeting with 31 and the junior 31. Those little ticks won't know what hit them. I'm talking conditioning for hours. Fucking wimps. I hope their hangover bites them in the ass too", he said as we both walked out the door.

"Go back inside and get me a blunt. It should already be rolled in my office", he basically barked at me.

Who the fuck.

I'm back to not being drunk or a second handed high where I'd except smoking. I didn't want to be around it right now.

"No. I don't wanna smell it", I protested.

"Did you just say no", he said dumbfounded.

"Yes. I don't wanna be around it", I argued.

"Oh but you had no problem smoking it from that bitch ass boy though", he said.

"I thought you said you dropped it", I started getting loud.

"Yeah that's when I was letting your ass off easy. But you don't know how to act. Get out the car. We can start early. I'll tell the boys to wait", he said getting out the front.

Oh fuck. I forgot he's the leader he can do whatever he wants, whenever he wants.

"No baby! I'm sorry", I started to beg him not to do anything till afterwards. It's gonna be so embarrassing if my ass hurts and my face is all red going in to the gang.

He got to the other side and basically ripped my ass out the front seat. He started at my ass with no remorse.

Hit after hit after hit.

"Get on your knees", he said after letting me down from whooping my ass with his hand.

"What", I said with tears in my eyes.

"You fucking heard me", he said harshly. I just did what I was told.

He started to unzip his pants and I knew what was coming.

I'd given him head before but it was different now. I didn't feel like it because he just beat the shit out of me.

"You don't wanna do it do you", he said stopping in his actions. I shook my head no.

"You obviously don't learn", he said continuing.

"No sir", I said crying.

"I didn't think so", he said zipping his pants back up.

"Keep having a smart ass mouth and an attitude and I'll make you wish you never opened it in the first place", he said.

"Get up and let's go", he said not waiting for me and slamming the door behind him.

I tried to look at my face and get myself together but he honked the horn at me so I'd hurry up.

I got into the car with an obvious 'I just got my ass beat' attitude and stayed silent.

"I don't like doing that Lani", he said as he was driving. I stayed quiet.

"But 31 is going to be all out of order if these fucking kids don't straighten up and my girl is an example for them and you're not showing a good one at all. I'm disappointed in you", he said. That just made me feel worse.

"I'm sorry", I said really quietly.

"Yeah whatever", he muffled. I fooled to the side to see a blunt in his mouth as he started to light it.

I can't lie he was very attractive when he smoked.

I felt like one big ass hornball. Sitting in the passenger seat next to him. Getting squirmy in my seat as my sex drive all of a sudden wanted to shoot through the roof.

Watching the smoke go in and out of his mouth and nose. Floating around him and expanding around the car. The smell was unusually pleasant if you allowed it to be.

I was happy he only smoked weed. No cigs or any other bad drugs.

"Can you sit still", he said annoyed.

"I think I wanna have sex", I blurted out.

Oh shit. Why did I do that.

"Yeah right. Bull shit", he laughed.

"I'm serious daddy", I whined.

When I said that he knew I was for real.

"Yeah, baby", he said slightly excited.

"Mhmm", I shook my head.

"You're probably saying this to get out of trouble. I don't wanna talk about it anymore. Wait till we're home. We're out on business Kailani", he said ruining the vibe.

We got out the car and all I could do was pray for what junior 31 had in store.