38.

{Swearing}

*Luke's POV*

FUCK

FUCK

FUCK

FUCK

LUKE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH AN IDIOT

'You fuckin screwed up now fuckhead' Jackson growls at me

'Shut the fuck up asshole' I growl back

'All because I'm right and your wrong.' He snarls

'Gosh I hate you!' I yell at him and try to block him out

'No assfuck your not blocking me out so easily. I have a fur to pick on you! YOU not me YOU fucked up. You kissed Daisy back! NOT ONLY did you kiss her back but you said that you missed her lips. What the FUCK where you thinking! If she rejects us it's YOUR fault!' He screams.

The thought of her rejecting us is scary!

'HELL YES IT IS!! If she rejects us i Will NEVER EVER forgive you. I will die then you will too!! Now look what condition she's in. You made her do this to herself. You best come up with one fucking good apology Lucas!'

And with that he shuts me off all together.

I fucking hate my wolf!

I swear he's bloody fucked up!

'Hey dipshit I can hear you'

'Sorrynotsorry'

After that I make my way up to my room to check on Kat.

I didn't want her in another hospital, so I made the doctor check on her every 3 hours up in my room.

I take a look at my beautiful mate.

Bandages covering her arm, her face all pale, I changed her clothes for her, her hair all messy.

I'm just lucky she's still alive.

I don't know why I kissed Daisy back.

I don't know why I said what I said.

I just simply don't know.

I know she saw and I know that's this is what has caused it.

I know that she feels worthless, that I lied to her, only used her, fat, ugly, useless and stuff.

But she's none of that.

She is the most beautiful, caring, kind person I will ever meet! No anyone will every meet!

I hope in the bed next to her and start crying.

I'm so stupid.

I'm the reason why she's like this.

People like me don't deserve people like her.

"I'm so sorry Kat."

"I didn't mean for this to happen."

"I didn't mean to hurt you."

"I need to go."

"You don't deserve me."

"Goodbye Kat."

"I'll always want you."

"I'll always love you."

And with that I write a note.

Kiss the top of her head.

And left.

*Kat's POV*

He done this to me!

People like him are the reason I do this.

I know I went to far, and too deep in some places but, but it felt so good.

I can slowly come back to my senses and I can hear, feel and smell things normally.

I try to feel the touch of my mate but he's not there.

'He's probably fucking that chick.' White whines.

'Hey gurl, don't think like that kay?'

'Mkay' she agrees.

I slowly open my eyes and sit up.

I look around knowing that I'm in his room.

I probably look like a mess.

I slowly get up trying to walk but my legs giving up on me.

I waited for the impact but It never came.

I feel someone holding me. I don't feel sparks so it's not Luke. I look up and see Toby.

"Hey be careful." He says sitting me back down on the bed.

"Yeah thanks for that." I mumble and rub the back of my neck.

"Hey Kat. I need to tell you something." He states looking nervous.

"Shoot." I say pulling all my attention on him.

I don't want to worry about Luke or anything just Toby right now.

"So umm.. A few months ago... Mum.. Well your mum... She Ummm came and told us that.. Well I realised when we were at school but umm..." He dragged on.

"Toby just get to the point."

"Okay well don't freak out or anything??! But Ummm... I'm Toby your brother.." He states.

Um what?

I look at him dumbfounded.

"Your kidding right. But you or Toby like died.." I ask staring at him.

"Something happen it's complicated but I'm alive and I am your brother. We do look a like Kat.." Omg he's so true our blue eyes and blonde hair. We have the same nose and stuff.

"Seriously!! This is so cool. I have my brother back!! Finally someone to be there for me!!" I started feeling the tears come to my eyes.

"Yes Kat I know. I'm always here!" He says hugging me.

It felt so nice to be hugging my brother again.

I'm gonna forget about him leaving me and never coming back when he did, my mum and dad.

I'm just gonna try and forget my past and focus on the future.

"I love you Kat." I hear Toby mumble in my hair.

I hesitate but "I love you too Toby."

I hear him crying too.

We pull away.

"Gosh woman you smell." Toby says laughing lightly pushing me into the bathroom.

He quickly goes through the draws and takes out everything sharp, and anything that he thinks can hurt me.

He leaves.

I roll my eyes and strip naked.

After my 40 minute shower I finally decide to get out.

I walk out with my towel and see that my brother has laid out clothes for me.

A purple pantie set, my black skinny jeans, my white long sleeve top, my grey jumper

And smiley face socks.

Nice job brother.

I put the outfit on and look around Luke's room again.

Where even is Luke? I wonder.

I look on the tv and I see a white piece of paper stuck on it.

I walk over to it and I realise it has writing on it.

It's a note.

I start to read it.

'Kat,'

It's from Luke.

'I know I'm not what you wanted. I know that people like me do not deserve people like you. Kat the minute you step into that school is the minute I instantly loved you. The second I laid eyes on you I took in every little feature of you. The second I smelt your sent I was addicted to it. Your touch was something I wanted NO needed. Kat you are one of the most strongest, prettiest, kind, caring, amazing, and most of all beautiful girl I have ever met. We have been through so much together, that shows that were always gonna make it till the end. Kat you make me feel alive again. You made my whole world worth living. Kat if I didn't have you I don't know what I would be. You made me realise how much I needed you. You changed me Kat in a good way. You were so good to me gave me so many chances, but I guess I was never good to you. I made you do this to yourself. I made you hurt yourself. I put danger back into your life when I should've put peace. I'm not good for you Kat. So for the safety of you and your health I have come to a conclusion that I need to leave you be. I need to go Kat. By the time you have found and read this I would be far gone. Please don't look for me. I'm doing this for the best.

Remember I will always want you.

I love you Katrina

Lucas xoxo ❤️'

That was it.

He was gone.

And never coming back.

He was gone.

Because of me.

It is all my fault.

If I hadn't of been so selfish he would still be here. Holding me. Telling me everything's gonna be okay.

He's gone.

I scream.

I scream so loud that the house shakes.

"LUNA!!" I hear people run it.

"KAT!!" I hear Eve scream and race over to me. She holds me so tight.

I fall to the ground bringing Eve with me.

"Sh Sh Sh. It's okay. It's gonna be okay." She assures me.

I just cry harder.

"Kat!" I hear Toby run in with Jake.

I can feel to many people around me right now.

"Guys please leave." I hear Jake say pushing people out.

It's a lot quieter now.

All you can hear is shaky breathes and my sobbing.

"Hey hey hey kay. Shh baby girl it's gonna be okay." Toby comes up and rubs my back.

"What's wrong bubs?" Eve asks looking down at me.

"H-h-h-he's g-g-gone." I stutter out quietly.

"Who's gone??"

"L-l-luke"

I'm assuming that they found the note because everything is silent.

"Oh love."

"It's okay."

I have managed to calm down.

"It's a-all m-m-my fault." I stutter again trying to calm down a little better.

"No no no Kat nothing's your fault." Jakes smiles at me.

"Yes it is. If I wasn't so selfish then this would've happen!" I yell lightly.

"Shhhhh."

Once I'm calm enough I stand up.

I know what I have to do.

'Everyone meet in meeting room NOW!' I command in my Luna voice.

'Yes Luna'

I know I haven't been introduced to the pack and I'm not officially Luna, but I have mated with him and that's half way.

I get down to the meeting room and see everyone there.

I stand on the mini stage and look at everyone.

"Okay! I have called everyone here today to tell you all that Alpha Lucas has left." I announce as strongly as I can without crying.

I hear many gaps and whispers. I see many apologetic looks and a few tears.

"Okay so in this situation we would go out and look for him. However he has requested to not look for him." I finish and I see many confused looks.

"BUT do you think I'm going to listen to that? NO! I am not. He is your Alpha, son, best friend, and most important my mate." I announce. None dares to talk.

"I want all the trackers, Warriors, shifters, and all the men that are willing to go out and search for the alpha! All the children and women are to stay here. Understood." I say boldly.

"Yes Luna."

"Good. I will call another meeting tomorrow so we can start the search. Dismissed!" I say turning around letting a few tears fall.

I see Lace making her way up to me and I run over to her hugging her.

"I'm so sorry." Is all she says.

"We will find him. We have too!"