ColdPlay

For those who read before 7/30/2020 and were waiting for a new chapter. This WAS the story in part one. I replaced it with a better one and reposted it here.

ps- I wrote this when I was younger and I did NOT edit it so it might not be as good. But enjoy anyways lol.

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I sat on a bench at the park with my headphones on when I saw C/n coming. My heart accelerated and my breath itched. I felt myself blush and kept my head down low. God, not now y/n.

We've been friends for several years already. I started to develop feelings for him but I really had no chance... He's always with a girl, but somehow he's just so..... perfect to me. Every time I'm with him, it's another girl. And of course, I get jealous, and I get mad at myself for getting jealous because I know I'm not supposed to be jealous. I'm not even his girlfriend and it's not my place to be jealous. He'll never like me as more than a friend. But STILL, I won't act as my life depended on him. I am a strong independent woman.

"Hey Y/n, are you okay? "C/n said smiling with a curious look in his eyes causing me to get out of my thoughts.

"Uh? ... "I said "Oh yeah yeah "I got up and started walking with my head down low. The heat went away but it was still present on my soft cheeks.

*time skip*

We entered the school doors and every girl stared at him as if he was a god. They started roaming their eyes around C/n's body. I mentally rolled my eyes and kept walking.

C/n saw my face and he just smirked... He freaking smirked.

"okay see you later," I said as a girl started flirting with him and throwing herself at him. It really hurt seeing him with every girl, but what can I say, he's kind of a player after all, and as I said before...It's not my place to be jealous. I should mind my own business. If he's happy, I'm happy...right?.... I blinked several times to stop the tears from falling like every day and bite my bottom lip.

I saw his face and he looked somehow hurt and curious. Like if he knew he was doing something wrong but didn't fight it. My heart ached. I turned my head and made my way to my locker.

stupid feelings

C/N's POV•

I went into school with Y/n. I was about to hug her goodbye but then a girl came and started flirting with me and leaning over. The same girl from yesterday.

I saw Y/n's face and I could tell she was hurt. Something was wrong and her eyes started watering. I wanted to stand by her side and let her talk to me but I still hesitated. I hate not knowing the reason why she's sad most of the time. It hurts me seeing her like that. But I don't think she has a crush on me. I have been with most girls but not her, she's different. I'm scared Y/n could be just one of the girls I played with. I'm scared something goes wrong and it changes the way we see each other.

I kiss the girl. I started to be like this when I knew I had a crush on Y/n.

I started kissing girls to make y/n jealous and somehow make her realize she liked me. Time passed but I knew it wouldn't work and I didn't manage to make her jealous still. So I just gave up and started kissing more girls to stop thinking about her, get her out of my thoughts and get my mind on something else...someone else, but I just can't.

And I think I won't for a very long time..

Y/N POV

I start heading to my class and open the door. I sit next to a weird guy and the teacher starts explaining.

"Okay students so today we are going to make a fun activity. We're going to talk about poetry. So guys, of course, you already know the basics so why don't we start making quotes and we are going to present it on Friday to our classmates if you want to." I sighed and put my hands on my face. Life is joking with me. I'm very bad at poetry but let's get to it.

**..time skip ..**

At home

I was moving on my bed staring at the ceiling, trying to get these things out of my mind...

What am I going to do? I didn't have any homework at all today because it was a Friday and I did everything else at school. Right now I started doubting my feelings for C/n. I don't think this is good for me. I need to get rid of those feelings and start being selfish for once. I can't keep on putting myself last. I need to do it at least once. And if I wanted to get rid of these feelings I had to distance myself from him...and then we could be friends again. I am really confused right now...

*doorbell goes on *

I sigh, go downstairs and open the door.

"Hi," he said and invited himself in as always but before he could give to steps I but my hand on his chest stopping him from doing so.

"Umm hi," I say back. He stands in front of me with pink cheeks but still curious as to why I stopped him. I felt my cheeks warming up too. I quickly put my hand down ignoring the way it was affecting me. Concentrate y/n

"C/n" I couldn't help it, I'm so scared of what this feeling can do, what if he doesn't want to be with me or if I hurt him somehow?. "We can't see each other anymore?".

I said it like if I was asking him....with that, his smile slowly faded, "what did you say?" he began asking what he did or what could he do "no C/n please i-I just, just don't I -uhh I ... please we can't, we just can't. I - " now tears was threatening to stream down my face. His eyes started getting glossy. I've never seen him cry at all, oh god "please tell me you're kidding" he said.

I looked down and closed my eyes ''you're serious'' he said almost whispering

"I don't understand..w-what did I do wrong..did I do something?..w-we can fix it..anything y/n anything.." I looked up at his face and I shake my head.

"okay then" with that he left my house and I closed the door leaning over it. That's when I got it all out. I started crying more than ever. I kept sobbing and choked on my own tears.

I did the right thing.

I did the right thing

I kept telling myself but nothing seemed to be okay still

Time skip *****

At school

It's the end of the day now. I had been crying for the whole weekend. I'm about to leave school, walking down the hallway and I see him leaning on a locker. I haven't put eyes on him since that day. C/n... swollen eyes..messy hair, pale, he looks like he's been up all night. He looks at me and then looks back at the girl next to him leaning over her and letting her hug him.

Time skip******

Another day at school.

This morning I was crying again, I realized I did something horrible as days passed. I did since the day I talked to him, I just thought it would go away. And this wasn't good for me nor for him.

How can I be so stupid?... We could've stayed friends. My friendship with him was enough to make me happy.

I started walking down the hallway to say sorry and talk to him, that's when I saw him, he was with another girl. oh right, he's clearly occupied with something else right now, all he does is hurt and use other girls. He doesn't care or give a shit. I can tell him later.

I then run, hide and get it all out, I cry and think even more about him, oh god, I don't know what to do. I really do like him. And of course, he doesn't... he doesn't. Gosh, I'm so difficult. Sometimes, people aren't meant to be. And I'm afraid that's the case here.

Time skip ******

Walking home. I think about what I'm going to do. I will just apologize tomorrow. When I get home I'll turn on the TV, eat ice cream and chips..lots of junk food...yes..and I'll cry and I'll stay single forever with cholesterol problems. - I started to think about it more and my eyes were now glossy...

A pair of hands reach my waist. I scream and hit the person in the stomach. As soon as I realize who it is, hugging him back."I'm so sorry C/n" I say closing my eyes.

"It's okay, it didn't hurt that bad," he said.

"no not that, you kind of deserved it, I meant sorry for pushing you away..for distancing myself from you"

" Y/n, look I know I did something wrong too"

"no you didn't..don't feel bad for something you didn't do. I-It's all my fault"

"I.......*sigh* -I started kissing girls because I wanted to make you jealous. I knew you wouldn't like me so I continued to try and get you out of my mind...Y/n..I-I like you"

"you're so fucking stupid," I said with my eyes watering.

"I'm sorry for being-"

I kiss him. He pulls me closer by the waist and I smile. It was an almost short gentle kiss. We pull apart and he says.

"I love you. that's all I wanted to hear. please forgive me. I- "

I try not to melt. Now tears of happiness streaming down my face. That's when I kiss him again, this time the kiss was longer, more intense. Without breaking the kiss, he twirls me around and then we break the kiss.

"she likes me!!" he yelled practically to no one.

"stop" I said laughing.

"she likes me" and the owners of the two houses besides us stared. Some were confused but others were smiling and laughing. An old lady who was watering her plants from her front yard glanced at us and shakes her head slowly while smiling.

"Today's youngsters," she said.

"she LIKES me" he yelled one more time making me laugh harder.