Euphoria

Mamihlapinatapei: The wordless look shared by two people who desire to initiate something l, but are both too scared to.

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"And once the door opened, I realized I had come to the wrong house. But I lied and tried to play along. It was so dumb really."  I burst with laughter.

"That must've been so embarrassing oh my god."

"I know right. I was literally stuttering at the beginning. I still can't get over it."  I cackled at my classmate in response.

I turned to my other side and slammed my hands against C/n's shoulder. "He is so funny C/n." He grunts with an irritated look on his face but still leaned into my touch. He had been acting very weird lately at times. I rolled my eyes.

"Come on C/n why are you like this." I whined. I pressed my side against him so that my head could lay on his shoulder. I eyed him for a while until he looked back at me. I smiled brightly at him, showing him the teeth he so complimented at times after comparing me to a horse. I try to cheer him up.

"Woah look at that face. So sexy" I poked C/n's cheek with a pen and laughed at his reaction. As soon as I did that, he threw his head to the side as he blushed. He giggled in a very handsome way and had that sparkle in his eyes that showed when he was enjoying something. That smile made my heart go so wild that I would do inexplicable things to see such wondrous beauty again and again. I felt my cheeks go red as I admired his face. It's so amazing what a person could make you do. So many things that you thought you weren't even capable of doing. My life is better with C/n by my side. He never failed to smile whenever I tried to cheer him up. Saying stupid things and doing whatever I could to make his day better. We did each other a favor by being together like this and I was honestly so happy with our friendship. Always as long as we are together.

Once we made our way to the cafeteria, we sat on the usual table and began to eat. I took the grapes from C/n's plate and I gave him half my sandwich.

"Do you want the rest?" C/n asked in a muffled voice as he offered me a small cup with greek yogurt. I nodded and took it as C/n took a big bite from the sandwich. He looks so cute.

"You are so pretty sir."

He blushed at my compliment but his expression didn't change.

"You are very pretty too, ma'am." He continued munching on his sandwich while we stared at each other comfortably waiting for the other to laugh. I was so sure he was gonna say something else.

"C/n don't say anything stupid-"

"You look like a rat."

"Fuck you!" I shoved him playfully but still with  enough force that he would fall off. He was about to but he grabbed the corner of the table, and pulled himself to me as he cackled.

"A very cute rat." He slurred. I thought he was going to boop my nose or something but instead, he kept pushing his index finger on my nose and kept poking my face with his finger. I slapped his hand away.

We kept eating in a comfortable silence and at one point, C/n pointed to his ear and I nodded. He got out his phone and headphones. We shared it and heard music together.

A few minutes later, I noticed the student I was talking to earlier in class coming towards us. He waved and I smiled. When he was standing up next to me, I felt C/n tense up and grunt. That's weird . C/n has been doing this a lot recently and it's driving me crazy. He doesn't expect me to cheer them up every time it happens. This made me somehow a little mad and upset. He  has to tell me what's going on already and I haven't really talked to him about it. I'm going to make him.

"Heyy Y/n"

"Uh hey (classmate's name {clmt/n}). Watcha looking for?" I answered politely as I popped one of the remaining grapes into my mouth.  " You actually" clmt/n laughed nervously. I raised my eyebrows and had to force myself to laugh again. "Um okay? for what? Do you need help with something?"

"Actually I was wondering If you were free so that we could... go on a d-" He was cut off by C/n standing up with our belongings suddenly and digging fingers on my wrist.

"Y/n can't, dude. Whatever it is. She's busy."

"Wha-"

His grip wasn't hurting me but it was very uncomfortable. I struggled as he dragged me out of the cafeteria. "C/n what are you doing!" I yelled. I was mad and confused. How dare he just treat me like that?

He pushed me against the locker and dropped the bags and books next to us. Now I was mad, confused, surprised. "What the fuck C/n what was that?" I was looking at him like he had just killed a dog. Yeah fuck me I'm being dramatic.

"Why did you treat me like that?" We were both breathless and he was trying to calm down but you could clearly see that he was very upset. "C/n fucking talk to me! What is your problem!?" I pushed him and it was enough to make him go back a few steps.

"I can't  Y/n... I-" C/n yelled. Thank god the halls were empty. I was even madder when he raised his voice.

"You are such an ass sometimes C/n. You can't control me!! You have to respect me too!"

"I know," he said while I was talking back to him. I barely heard him.

"Such a fucking... buttface! I have a life. You have your life. Why do you have to be such a spoiled, asshole sometimes!? I'm not just gonna do whatever you want me to do." Words got the best of me.

"Watch it y/l/n!" he hissed.

"Or what? What are you going to do C/n?" I took a step closer so that he was right up in my face. I couldn't help but to get lost in C/n's beautiful eyes. I felt his hot, racing breath on my face. We were staring intensely at each other for what felt like an hour and suddenly, he kissed me. He kissed me with such force, that it made me back away once again and slam against the locker behind me. Our lips locked and it was the best feeling ever. Everything happened too quick and he pulled away from me. He was catching up with his breath and his hands dug into his hair.

"Y/n I-... I'm sorry." I don't know what went through me but my hands just found his shirt. I jerked C/n to me and crashed my lips against his. I erupted with butterflies. No not even butterflies. not even fireworks. It felt like a bomb. I licked his lip asking for entrance and that's when he responded again. Pushing me up against the locker once again and kissing me like a hungry man starved. He bit my lip and shoved his tongue down my throat. We both fought for control over the kiss. He grabbed my waist and started grinding against me. That's when I lost it. I melted like putty in his hands. We were both moaning. This is the best kiss I've ever had. I wanted more. I needed more. It was euphoric. We broke apart as we both needed air. We stepped back in shock. Breathless.

We were looking at each other with wide eyes. I looked around to see if there were any students but thankfully, there was no one in sight but one of the janitors with a what the fuck face.

C/n quickly grabbed his things and went out. I was left standing there in shock. What the hell did I do. I glanced one again at the janitor and as soon as I caught him, he looked away and continued wiping the already clean wall.

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C/n had left school three hours ago and I was impatiently waiting for the bell to ring so that I could go look for him.

As soon as I got to C/n's house. I knocked for a very long time until he flung the door open. I let out a breath. He opened the door wider and I pushed C/n back into the house with one hand. My heart was racing. "We have to-" that's as far as I could go before he cupped my face and slammed me against the door, pressing his lips against mine. The kiss was intense but gentle. I have never experienced something like this before. It was full of lust and passion. Evoking feelings deep within me that can make even Hades himself weep. I wrapped my hands around his neck as C/n licked my lips asking for entrance. I denied.

He put his arms under my shirt to grab my bare waist as he figured that I was teasing him. This made me gasp. I opened my mouth for C/n to taste me better and moaned.

C/n deepened the kiss getting more intense each second. I broke the kiss when we were out of breath.

"This is more than I could ever ask."

Our noses touched and we were still holding each other close. He cupped my face and looked at me straight in the eye.

"I'm sorry...for what happened."

"I forgive you C/n. But you had to talk to me. You can't just keep it all in."

"I know. And I'm really sorry for my mood changes and everything else. I really shouldn't have done those things to you."

I massaged the back of his hair as we stared at one another.

"Who knew you we're just jealous."

He blushed and rolled his eyes. I pecked him on the lips once more.