Anger

Saudade: nostalgic longing to be near again something or someone that is distant, or that has been loved and then lost; "the love that remains."

I opened my eyes as a familiar noise reached my ears. It's seven-thirty. I was beginning to think my entire existence is fucked up beyond all recognition.  Yesterday was Sunday and I stayed home all day sleeping but woke at night and started watching Netflix until I fell asleep. I really didn't do anything at all-.....I cut myself with my thoughts as I came into realization ..IT'S MONDAY...seven fucking thirty. I opened my eyes again and jumped out of bed.

I'm gonna be late for school again.

I get changed very quickly and take an apple and granola bar from the counter.

"Bye mom" I screamed as I close the door but not before I hear my mom say "love you".

I start walking but a hand quickly reaches my shoulder. I turn around to see C/n.

"Hey (nickname)" he says in a playful mood. I roll my eyes.

"Hi (C/n's nickname)"I say smiling.

We are neighbors and we've known each other since we were little.

I continue walking with him and we talk about random things.

I enter the school just in time to hear the warning bell, signaling us to go to our classes. Every girl started checking him out and winked at him and I just mentally rolled my eyes. Just as I was about to start walking to class, a hand reaches down my arm and C/n says

"Uhh I-I just wanted to know if we could walk home together..you know..you could meet me by the lockers next to the gym?"

"Uhh yeah sure" as I say that, he quickly says "great then see ya"

We parted ways to get to our classes and all I know is that this kinda made my day.

*time skip*

Here I was waiting for C/n. 10 minutes have already passed. what if he lied, just to make fun of me?!..hmm...no it's just ten minutes.........but what if h-

I stop talking with myself as a door opens, revealing C/n with a bag on his right hand.

"Let's go," he says kind of in an angry way. He looks bothered but still sends a small smile at me. That's a fake smile.

I follow him and now we're out of school. He's still angry. I don't know why but...I'm worried. I open my mouth to say something ..but nothing comes out. Did I do something wrong? Oh, my God did I call him daddy accidentally?

I take the courage of opening my mouth again and I say "C/n..what's wrong?" We're now in front of my house and his house.

"It's none of your business Y/n," he says without even looking at me as he heads to his house. My eyes go wide cause C/n has never stopped calling me (nickname). Now I kinda missed it. After just one time?..get yourself together y/n.

He's really getting me pissed. I huff but decide to try again.

"C/n it's okay, y-you can tell me ab-"

"I said its NONE of your business," he cuts me off with a seriously threatening lower voice. I sighed

he started talking "look-"

"nu-uh hun. Are you freaking kidding me!! YOU asked ME to come with you...you know you could tell me at school not to go with you!!! you know, If you have a problem, you don't need to let that anger out on others..it's your damn problem and you know what, you're right...it's none of my business, but what do you expect me to do when you're mad at me? Not ask you why?!! " shit I hissed under my breath.

Then I quickly walk to my house. I was fucking frustrated. My back was pressed against the door. I looked out the window to see C/n still standing there with a mad face.

I sighed. Asshole.

I went up to my room and changed myself. Today I had no homework so I just used my phone until I fell asleep. I always take a nap after school.

I wake up with the sound of some footsteps. I hear a familiar voice say my name "y/n.....*knock*...y/n!!!" I still don't want to move. he opens the door.

"(nickname)?" I open my eyes, seat on my bed, and roll my eyes.

"How did you?-"I say.

"Calm down, I need to talk to you..oh and your mom gave me a copy of the keys just in case something happens. isn't it crazy-"I cut him off.

"Get out, "I say calmly. smh

"Wait but I need to tell you something," he says.

I mentally roll my eyes and say "fast"

" I was angry because someone was talking about you," he says.

"They were talking shit about you...very inappropriate...I-.I just punched them and warned them...well..let's say I got detention with the three guys that were talking about you."

He cares for me....was he..jealous? And he skipped detention?

Wow "C/n...I didn't know-" he cuts me off and says

"Look (nickname), I really care about you, I shouldn't have done that..like let my anger out on you...I really do like you and I don't know what you're thinking about but I don't know what I would do without you, I just couldn't take it''

I smile, I put my hands on his neck and close the distance between us. It was magical. He kisses me back right away and put his hand on my waist. He pulls me closer and he smiles between the kiss. Our lips danced together in a medium-paced tempo. We break the kiss and his breath is fanning on my cheeks.

"I always wanted to kiss you so bad (nickname)" he says. I try not to melt.

"Me too," I say as he leans again for a passionate long sweet kiss.

''you know..i think you would be great in bed actually'' he said playfully. I gasped furrowing my eyebrows and slapped his chest. "ow! What? it's a compliment."

stupid fucking jerk.