『Day Nine』

Day Nine

I woke up around ten. I looked to my right, and saw that the futon was made nicely. Next to the futon was Tomo playing on his phone. I smiled looking at him. He was so into that silly mobile game that he didn't even noticed me waking up.

His eyes looked up, and he blinks nervously. "O-oh good morning! I didn't see you getting up!"

"Good morning." I smiled. "It's okay. I really think you're cute just playing your game."

His face grew pink. "Really now? That is a first I've heard that." He chuckles.

"I like seeing people be passionate or hype about things. Makes them seem human, and capable of loving something."

"I suppose so." He tilts his head. "What do you like?"

"I like food." I got red. "But I want to work out, and lose weight. I've made that my goal. After these ten days, I will try my best to live a healthier life."

"Why the sudden motivation?" He smiles.

"Simple. God has blessed me with having you for these ten days. I have to say I'm lucky. I know you didn't even like guys, but you stepped out of your comfort zone to be with me. I know God loves me." I smiled like an idiot.

He looks at me with gentle eyes. He didn't say anything, but his eyes said it all. He enjoyed my words. I was happy yet sad. Today is day nine. At least I got the chance to wake up to his adorable face.

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We got out of the house by twelve. Tomo said he wanted to spend the day with me. We skipped school for the second day now. I was amazed that neither one of us mentioned school. I liked that.

"Sono can I ask you a question?" He asked me as we were on the train.

"Anything you like!" I smiled.

"If you had a girlfriend, how would you treat her?"

I wasn't sure why he asked that. Maybe he's asking me for advice on his next girlfriend. I felt that sad feeling in the pit of my stomach again.

"Well I would compliment her, and remind her everyday why I adore her. I will be her shoulder to cry on, and spoil her occasionally with gifts."

"So do you like guys more or girls more after this experience?" He stares at me from the corner of his orbs.

I thought about it. I didn't have a clear cut answer. I never knew how it felt like to have a girlfriend, but I know how a boyfriend is kinda.

"Well I will say I prefer guys more right now. That is only because I still never had a girlfriend so I can't compare." I chuckled nervously hoping my answer won't disgust him.

He looks away. He didn't really seem to be pleased with my answer. Maybe he is disgusted by me. Maybe he's upset because he doesn't want me to like him still.

"Does it bother you?" I asked.

"No. I just feel bad because people will make fun of you liking guys more. I wouldn't want that for you."

"I don't care. I already get made fun of. One more reason to pick on me won't hurt me. I've learned to accept life as it is. It isn't about them, it is about me, and my happiness. They can't change my lifestyle. They have no say so no worries Tomo." I snickered. He's cute for worrying about such petty things.

"You're very strong. I wouldn't be able to do it." He looks out the window.

"You don't need to. Everyone likes you. You are in shape, popular, handsome, and rich."

"Looks can only get you so far."

"You have a better life."

He didn't reply. I looked over, and he seemed annoyed. "Sono, you don't know my life. Don't assume I got it good."

"You don't get picked on like I do. You can get anyone you want." I was starting to get irritated. People with fortunate lives always think they don't. It bothers me. I bet he couldn't live a day in my shoes.

"You have a supportive family." He mutters.

"That's it."

"That's all I want." He gets up. "You don't get me. I'm leaving." He starts walking towards the front of the train to get off at an unknown stop. I got up, and chased after him. Is he really going to get off on this stop that isn't even the stop he planned to get off on?

"Tomo wait!" I ran, and caught up with him. "What's wrong with you?!"

He glared at me. "I am tired of hearing the same thing over, and over. Everyone keeps thinking I'm so lucky."

"Because you are! I bet you don't know how hard it is being me! I get constantly picked on! I have no friends! I only hang out with my cousin! I've never kissed anyone, let alone had a relationship!"

"But you know what you are, and who you are! You are content with what you have, and you are lucky to be you. You have a supportive family, and they never pressure you to be some way! I would trade with you any day!"

"You don't get it. You are so ungrateful! People like you can never be happy. You just want more! I make do with what I have, and that's why I love myself just a bit more each day! I hate myself still. Even now I am disgusted with myself, but I can't wallow up in my own self pity all my life! I change! That is the sole reason why I want to work out after all this is done. I want to make myself proud. I may have supporting family members, but even if I don't, I am my own supporter! I won't let anyone push me down the path I won't take!" I stood by my word. I wasn't wrong.

He was silent for a bit. He bit his lip. "You don't understand it that's all. Family is the key to happiness. I don't think I can ever be myself around family nor you. All you guys do is judge, and assume things about me."

"I don't all the time. I want you to tell me."

"'No. You just..no I don't want to."

"Stop being spoiled." I sighed.

"I'm not!" He looked mad.

"I....I can't stand you right now." I quickly turned away, and ran off. I didn't know where my feet will bring me, but I ran, and ran until I couldn't hear or see Tomo anymore.

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I found myself running to my cousin's house. The area I was running around looked pretty familiar, and it dawned on me that it was my cousin's neighborhood.

"What you doing here cousin? You don't live around this area."

"Can I come in Kisa? I had a bad day."

"Why aren't you in school?" She looked confused.

"Why aren't you?"

"Well I have errands..." She looks around.

"You ditched like me." I laughed.

"Yeah...I just didn't wanna go. It is just one of those days you know?" She laughs. "Come on in."

I walked in, and set my shoes near the entrance. "I need to talk to you."

"Shoot."

"Well me, and Tomohisa actually went out."

"What you guys go?"

"No I mean like he was my...boyfriend..." I blushed.

"Whoa! You mean for ten days?!"

"Yes."

"What day is it?" She sits on the couch, and I sat down next to her.

"Nine."

"Wow, tomorrow is the last day. Why aren't you with him?"

"I got mad at him, and ran off. He was complaining about his life, but he has it all."

"Some people look like they do on the outside. Maybe he's a broken soul on the inside."

"Yeah..."

"Do you like him? How did it happen? I didn't think he liked guys." She taps her chin.

"He doesn't like guys. I just joked with him, and said to him that he couldn't date an underachiever in the looks department like me, and he said he could. Kinda just happened on a whim. I do like him. A lot. I just don't want to get too close. Today really did make me see him in a different light. He seems ungrateful for the stuff he has. He was saying how I have it easy, but you know I don't." I frowned.

"Well I can't say either of you is right or wrong. Everyone has a different story. If you don't want to end it on a bad note, I suggest you make it up to him." She smiles. I love Kisa. She is so understanding, and she didn't look at me differently when I admitted to liking a guy.

"I guess so. I don't think he would talk to me today though."

"Why?" She looks at me.

"Because I ran away from him. I didn't want to talk to him after he said those ridiculous things."

She chuckles. "Well you better hurry up because tomorrow is your last day."

"You're right." I took out my phone, and dialed Tomo's number. No answer. I kinda expected that. "He didn't answer." I sighed.

"Maybe he's still fuming."

"Maybe..."

"Don't stress it. He has to talk to you tomorrow. Just take that opportunity to say whatever you have to say. You never know what will happen after that. Don't be too negative cousin." She pats my back.

"It's a little bit hard. It's me basically preparing for a break up tomorrow."

"It might not end that way." She shrugs.

"I basically yelled at him, and called him ungrateful not too long ago. He must be an idiot to still like me."

"He likes you?" Her eyebrow rose.

"I assume he likes me a bit to give me some sort of chance. Unless he felt sorry for me. Tomo is a nice guy."

She smiles. "I bet he likes you a bit. Don't put yourself down. I am happy he chose you for these ten days. Soon you will find a girlfriend for eternity."

"I want him. Not a girlfriend." I blushed.

"Maybe you can have him. If you do, I'll be jealous." She laughs.

"Haha I wish, but I know that chance is pretty slim at this point."

"Even if it doesn't work out, I know you will find that special one." She hugs me. "I'm proud of you."

"Thanks Kisa. I love you. I think after this who ordeal, I will work out, and be a better me." I smiled.

"Love you too cousin. I will always support you, and good luck!"

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It felt weird being in my room again. It felt even weirder not having Tomo sleeping next to my bed. I had fun with Kisa, but I still felt empty.

I decided to call Tomo again, hoping he would pick up.

The phone rang, and rang. My heart was thumping louder with each ring. Maybe I will only have nine days rather than ten. The thought wasn't nice.

"Hello?" His voice rung on the other end.

"Tomo! Hi! I'm sorry about today!" My nerves were kicking in. I could hear my displeasing high pitched voice.

"It's fine."

"Are you mad?"

"Not particularly.." He didn't sound the happiest.

"Are you going to school tomorrow?"

"No."

"You know what tomorrow is right?" I dreaded the tenth day.

"I do know."

"What will we do?"

"Chat by the pond near the park."

"That's fine..." I was nervous. This is how he breaks up with everyone isn't it? There was no way he would stay with me after all this. We are awkward on the phone, and he doesn't seem to be bothered that tomorrow is his last day with me.

"Alright. Goodnight." He hung up before I could say anything.

Prepare for tomorrow Sono...prepare to be heartbroken.

To Be Continued