0.13

If I get marked mature for this chapter, I'm deleting it XD I don't think I will since it's a small part soooo we'll see

William

Everyday, I felt my weight beginning to stack up, all my progress going to waste.

I've been trying to eat more because I've realized that not eating makes me tired and sometimes grumpy. Anthony always made sure I'd eat, not knowing how much I appreciated it.

My 17th birthday was today... Amber and Macy haven't talked about anything else but it since February started and my birthday is on February 7th...

I wasn't looking forward to having a huge party at Macy's house tonight, but I didn't want to ruin the fun. And her and Amber already told everyone on their social medias, so it's too late now to back out.

It's just one night though, so how bad could it be?

"It's going to be amazing, Will!" Macy assured while she popped a strawberry into her mouth. "My parents are out of town for the entire weekend, so it'll be amazing."

It's a coincidence that my birthday was on a Friday and not during a school day. If it was on a fucking Tuesday, I would have had an excuse to not come. But it had to be on a Friday.

"I bet." I mumbled, pushing my food around on my tray, not having much of an appetite today. The food wasn't bad, so I could never make a, 'the school food sucks' excuse. I just didn't feel like eating.

"You alright? You shouldn't be sad on your birthday." Amber spoke, poking my arm.

"I'm not sad, I'm fine." I assured her with a lazy smile. "Just didn't get much sleep last night."

That's a lie actually, I slept for a solid 10 hours yesterday because my head was hurting, so I fell asleep. I woke up with a worst headache and I was extremely tired still.

Amber didn't seemed convinced, but nodded, continuing to eat.

I felt a body slide in the seat next to me and a smile instantly formed on my lips.

"Happy birthday, Will." Anthony smiles, kissing my forehead tenderly.

"Thank you." I beam, grabbing his warm hand, which instantly warmed my cold one. I glance up at Macy, who was staring at us, along with Amber, Scott, and Shane all confused mixed with shocked expressions on their faces. "Oh shit, I forgot to tell you guys!"

Macy shifted her widened eyes between Anthony and I, "tell us, then."

"Anthony, this is Macy, Shane, Scott, and Amber." I started, gesturing to my friends. "Guys uh... This is my boyfriend, Anthony. I guess I forgot to tell you guys."

Macy's jaw dropped before she quickly grinned, "oh my gosh, really?! You're gay?! I was always joking when I said that, but... Awe, I'm so happy for you."

My cheeks heated up, (which was odd since I was cold) mumbling a small, "thank you" to her.

"Why didn't you tell me?!" Amber exclaimed, slapping my arm. "You just so happen to forget to tell your best friend that your dating someone, a guy in specific."

I shrug, "must have slipped my mind. He's not that important." I send Anthony a teasing grin, squeezing his hand gently.

"Wow." Amber spoke, glancing up at Scott, who just shrugs, still slightly shocked. "How long have you guys been dating? How long have you been keeping this from us?"

"Only two weeks."

"Two weeks?!"

"Better than two months." I remark with a smirk, causing Amber to roll her eyes. "Sorry."

She just lets out a dramatic, "hmph" but smiles.

"Are you not going to eat?" Anthony softly asked me, noticing my full tray of food. I shake my head, looking down at our hands, enjoying his warmness. "Why not, babe?"

I shrug, "I'm not that hungry."

He sent me a look that said 'I know you're hungry you just don't want to eat because of what you told me'. "Did you eat breakfast? Or anything today?" Again, I just shrug in reply, not wanting to answer the question that made my stomach grumble. "Eat a bit, for me, please."

I glance at the food, grabbing a carrot stick. I bite into it, sending him a reassuring look. "I'll eat this carrot."

He shakes his head, "eat more than just that." His mouth came close to my ear, his voice lowering, "just don't push yourself, okay? But you need to eat, baby. You need your energy for tonight."

I sigh and nodded, tearing my burger in half. I hesitantly took a bite, feeling a bit better now that I had some food in my stomach.

My head stopped pinging and I didn't feel as tired as I finished the portion of the sandwich. Anthony nods in approval, making me smile.

"Wow, you got him to eat. I haven't seen him eat lunch in months." Macy comments as she ate some of Shane's chips. "I'm impressed."

I wanted to kill Macy. Why'd she have to say that out loud? It just made it clear to Anthony, and probably everyone else at the table, that I had a problem.

Instead of killing her, I just nervously laugh, "I just don't like eating in the middle of the day. That's all."

Anthony looks at me strangely at my logic, but shrugs it off. "I have to go, but I'll see you tonight, okay?" I smiled and nodded, a bit sad that he had to leave. He pressed his lips against my cheek, whispering, "thank you for eating, cutie."

He then left, making me sad to not have his large hand in mine.

"He's so pretty." Macy gushed, giggling loudly. "Isn't he a senior? And new?"

I nodded, "yep. And yes, he is very pretty. Just don't say it out loud or I'll karate chop you."

Macy just giggles again at my empty threats, "mhm, sure. Does he make you happy?" I nodded. "That's good, cause if he didn't, I would chop off his di-"

"You don't need to worry about chopping anything off." I assure my friend with another smile. "Just don't embarrass me, okay, asshole?"

She mockingly saluted, giggling.

My head was already pounding from the loud music blasting through the house. It was so crowded and I barely knew half the people in here.

I have stayed with Anthony a majority of the time, watching as the house contiued to fill and fill, getting louder and louder.

"Isn't this fun?" Macy beams, throwing confetti into the air. "So many people are here all for you."

"Or for food."

Macy scowls at me, "don't ruin the fun, William." She then sends me a grin before she pranced into the crowd of people, dancing with strangers.

"I have a feeling you don't like parties." Anthony laughs, kissing my head. I glance around the room, studying it. There was a large table full of gifts for me, a cake, steamers and balloons hanging everywhere, and the words 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM' was hanging up.

"I don't mind them too much." I lie, resting my lips on the back of Anthony's hand, not really caring if anyone saw. "The girls begged me to allow them to throw this party."

Anthony hums, pulling me towards a table full of food. He grabs a bowl and filled it up with some pretzels, handing it too me, along with a stern look.

He grabbed some as well, but a lot more than what he had gave me.

"I'm not hungry."

Anthony sighs, "you don't have to be hungry to enjoy some pretzels, babe. It's a party, your birthday party. Just have some pretzels, I know your head is hurting."

I agreed, beginning to nibble on a salty twist. Surprisingly, the thoughts of it having too much salt or carbs didn't run through my head, just the thought that I was enjoying eating them.

The party only grew wilder, and it wasn't even midnight. Someone brought alcohol so Amber and Macy instantly started to drink until they were wasted.

Anthony only drank a beer, nothing else. I just stuck with my bowl of pretzels and some water.

"We should leave and go somewhere more private." Anthony whispers into my ear, nipping at it. He pressed his body against mine, something poking at my back, causing me to jump in surprise.

My eyes widened as I reached my hand behind me, pressing my palm against his crotch, listening to him begin to breath unsteadily.

"Let's go." I agreed with a smile, yanking him to the door, avoiding all the dancing bodies. He stumbles slightly because of the alcohol he consumed, but walked with me. "Give me your keys."

Anthony fished his key out of his pocket without a word, the fresh air hitting our faces.

The drive back to his house was quite fun. My hand may have gone somewhere if shouldn't have on his body, especially while I was driving, but I didn't care. The thought 'you only live once' was running through my head.

Anthony's lips connected with mine as we stumbled into his room, his hands pulling at the hem of my shirt. He groans at my denial, slipping his hands underneath my shirt.

I gasp at his hand pressing against my skin, feeling extremely self conscious at the moment.

His strong arms pushed me down onto his bed, instantly straddling my body His hardened groin grinded against me, his lips attacking my neck with wet kisses.

My stomach bubbled as I arched my hips upward at the shot of pleasure.

In the moment, Anthony pulled my shirt off, exposing my body. The warm air in the room instantly hit my bare chest. His lips instantly trailed down my chest, towards my belly.

My eyes widened when he stopped, his finger rubbing against the marks on my stomach.

Shit.

"What's these?" He whispered, grazing his hand over the scars on my skin. "Baby, what happened here?"

I gulp, shruugging. "I don't know, I think those are from when my neighbor's cat attacked me a while ago. I'm bad with animals. Don't worry about it."

"Are you sure these are from a cat?"

I nodded, running my fingers through his hair, missing the feeling of his mouth on my skin. He just hums, continuing to kiss my body as he unbuttoned my pants.

Slowly, he slid my jeans down my legs, running his finger tips along my skin as he did so.

My breath hitched whenever they came close to my upper thigh, his warm fingers grazing over the cuts and scars on them.

Again, he stopped touching me, his eyes meeting mine in the darkness.

"Baby, what are these? Anthony asked, gripping onto my thighs as he pulled me closer to him. I gulp thickly, nervously shrugging. "Why are you just shrugging, William? What are these and how did they get here?"

Cuts and scars. I did them myself. Duh. "It's nothing, okay? Can we talk about it later, please?"

"No. We are talking about it now. Are you hurting yourself, William?"

I open my mouth to speak but nothing came out. My blood ran cold through my body and it became harder to breath.

One of his hands met mine, trailing down to my scarred wrist. My heart began to pound in my chest and I felt sweat begin to run down my forehead.

"What the fuck, William?" Anthony hisses, his hands gripping my chin and titling it so he was looking at me. His face was hard (which was hard to see in the dark room) and I already felt 6 feet under.  "Are you hurting yourself?"

His face remained stern and I thought of a lie to cover it all with, but my mind drew blanks.

"No."

He scoffs at my final reply, his other hand running over my wrist. "Don't lie to me. Unless you can explain that these aren't from self-harm, then don't bother lying to me. Are these from you hurting yourself?"

Now he's going to leave you because you're a freak. You cut yourself and you throw up what you eat. Just accept that your relationship is over.

My mouth opens, words sputtering out, "I... um... I'm... well..I-i... Yes..."

Anthony's face softened while he let go of my face to pull me up. His warm hand stroked my cheek as he sighs in slight disappointment. "Why would you do this to yourself, baby?"

My eyes pricked with tears as I just shrug. I've never told a single person about my cutting habit and now that Anthony knows... I am just scared. "I... Reasons."

"Can you tell me those reasons, babe?" Anthony whispers as his kissed my head to calm me. He's going to leave you once he figures out you hate yourself.

"It's complicated... I'm trying to stop, I swear. Things just get hard sometimes and...and..." I stop my rambling, bowing my head down in shame. "I didn't think anyone would find out."

Again, he sighs, pulling me into his arms. "You need to stop doing it completely." I nod, knowing that wouldn't happen. I've been doing this for over a year, and I've been starving myself for a while as well, I can't just stop. "You can always call me whenever you want to do it, William. I'm here to help you."

I frown, tears beginning to run down my face. "I don't want to bother you with my problems."

"That's what I'm here for, William. Okay? I'm here to help you so you are happy."

I just nodded, awkwardnly shifting my legs. I completely forgot what was happening before we started talking.

"Let me fix that for you." Anthony whispers in my ear, pushing me back down.

Nothing happened. I just got a great birthday gift, that's all.

They didn't do bad things, I swear...0_0 Anyways, hope you are enjoying.

Anthony now knows about Will's cutting and a bit about his eating...

So uh yeah.

~Whoops