Chapter 19

Shuyi's POV

We got out of the ride and drove back home without any of us talking about what had just happened back there. I tried to figure a couple of reasons why Shide kissed me. "Maybe he was just too scared, so he did it to divert his attention? Maybe he is into guys too? No way. Maybe he likes me? Duh you wish Shuyi. He didn't even kiss me on the lips. There's no way he likes me"

While I was busy reasoning with myself, Shide drove with a big smile on his face which confused me even more since he clearly didn't enjoy the ferris wheel ride.

As soon as we got home, I rushed towards my room unable to even look Shide in the eyes. I shut the door and tried to calm myself down but every time I closed my eyes, all I saw was Shide kissing me. I touched my cheek trying to remember his soft touch and ragged breath on me"

I instantly felt an arousal in my pants. My heart wanted more. Before even realising, I slowly slipped my hand inside my underwear making my whole body shiver with excitement. I started stroking my growing erection up and down hopelessly trying to control the desperate moans escaping through my mouth. With my eyes shut, all I could think about was Shide's lips and how badly I wanted to taste them.His eyes looking so hungrily at me like he wanted to devour me whole there and then.

His hands touching my body exploring every inch of my skin. The way Shide marked his ownership on me by leaving red marks all over my white neck made me fully hard and oozing. I stroked my member fast and hard not caring about the loud moans leaving my mouth. I moaned his name imagining myself kissing him from his hair to his shadow. With one hand I stimulated my genitals and with the other I gripped the bedsheet. "S-Shideah!" I cried his name as I got closer to cumming.

"Hey, Shuyi! Are you okay in there?" Shide knocked at my door sounding extremely worried about all the noise coming from my room.

"Shuyi...Shuyi open the door"

Hearing him call my name drove my imaginations even crazier. I panted heavily as I came on my hand feeling both pleasured and ashamed at the same time. Shide still knocked at my door so I slowly regained my composure and cleaned myself before opening the door.

He instantly pushed me into the room while holding both my shoulders. "I heard your screams! Are you hurt somewhere!?" He said while looking up and down my body to make sure I was okay.

I held his waist lightly and pushed him back a little. "I'm okay, I was just watching a scary video" I said dying of embarrassment for making such a lame excuse.

"Scary video?" He looked suspicious but also relieved to find I wasn't hurt. He then softy held my chin up to look at him directly in the eye unleashing thousands of butterflies in my stomach. "I think we should talk about today to clear the air"

About today? The moments of our intense closeness flashed before my eyes. He of course regrets it and now he's trying to come up with a stupid explanation for his actions since he obviously doesn't have feelings for me and whatever happened, happened in the heat of the moment. I looked at him with sad eyes since Shide had no idea about all these unsaid emotions I was feeling for him.

He went out in the living room indicating that I should also follow him. I took nervous steps behind him since I knew I was going to get my heart broken.

"Ah..I have been thinking about what happened back at the carnival since we got back home.." he said not looking directly at me.

I've been thinking about it too!!!! I had never felt this way for no one before. I thought to myself.

"Shuyi....the thing is....I've been feeling......ah..I don't know  how to say this to you..." he said nervously stealing glances.

He's obviously ashamed and regretful of what happened back there since he can't even look me in my eyes anymore, I thought to myself. I felt like I was going to die of embarrassment in that moment when suddenly my phone rang.

I knew this was the only opportunity I'd get to escape before getting my heart shattered into pieces. My feelings were all over the place and being close to Shide right now was only intensifying my desires for him. I didn't even know how would I ever face Shide again if we has this conversation. So I interrupted him in between, and showed him my phone "can we talk about this next time?, I have to go see some friends right now"

He looked at me in confusion as I quickly walked out of the door. I breathed a sigh of relief and got a cab for Yue's place.

Shide's POV

I couldn't believe how easily he ignored me as soon as he got a call. Am I that insignificant in his life? Does what happened between us back at the carnival mean nothing to him? He's not even bothered so I guess I'm the only one catching feelings.

I was feeling betrayed but tried to calm myself by taking slow and deep breaths. When I felt a little better, I walked towards the kitchen to start preparing dinner.

"It's alright if he didn't have time right now. We can talk about it while we have dinner. There's no way I'd stop making efforts for him"

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After I finished cooking his favourite spaghetti and meatballs for dinner, I paced back and forth in the living room anxiously waiting for him since it had already been more than 3 hours and he still wasn't back.

I crashed in the living room sofa exhausted with all the overthinking about where would he be so late at night. Anxious, I started scrolling through my Instagram feed. Suddenly I received a notification that he had just uploaded a story on his page.

I immediately sat up seeing him in the middle of a road somewhere and more importantly with someone I had no idea about. "Where exactly is he? Why isn't he coming home yet? I thought he must be busy practising his performance for the fest but it seems he's out with someone"

"Now that I think about it, the person who was calling him when he showed me his phone before leaving was named Y. Someone close to Shuyi who's name begins with Y....who would it be....?Damn it Yue!!!

I quickly searched his username on instagram and opened his recent story update.

I was hoping it not be him, but clearly Shuyi was with Yue so late at night since both the pictures where at the exact same location but what infuriated me more was the text on Yue's picture. "What confession!?" I felt both annoyed and scared at the same time. My brain and heart debated with each other. Facts against feelings. "He would've have told me if he liked someone. But then if he doesn't like him, why would he go out so late to see him? He must be practising for the fest. But then where are the other members?"

I felt uncontrollable thoughts running through my head when my phone rang bringing me back to my senses. It was Shuyi. I took a deep breath to calm myself before answering the call.

"Hello?"

"Hey Shide, I'm just calling to inform you that I won't be sleeping at home tonight since I'm staying at a friend's".

Friend's!!? He won't even tell me he's staying at Yue's place overnight?? I felt extremely frustrated with Shuyi's complete ignorance towards me.

"I cooked your favourite food" I said hoping he would wanna come home sounding lame even to my own self.

"Ah...it's okay I already ate, you should eat and sleep early tonight, sorry" He said almost whispering in the phone.

*Shuyi Let's go!!* I heard Yue's voice before the call disconnected making me feel like a complete fool on the other side of the phone.