Chapter 194
My Love for You Broke Me
Chapter 194
It was snowing in Eldham tonight. I blinked, but I did not hear an answer from Christopher. I knew that it
was not my place to ask, but I would rather him not misunderstand.
I contemplated my answer before responding, "Emma meant Shawn. Thatâs because sheâs basically
grown up under Shawnâs care, so to her, he is someone whom she worships; she also vows to be
following in his footsteps for the rest of her life. However, there is nothing illicit in their relationship and
Emmaâs not in love with him. Heâs just someone she refers to as a role model in her career. Do you get
me?"
At that moment, Christopher replied intelligently, "So, how did Shawn and Emma encounter each
other?"
He was planning to find out every single piece of information about them and I was not quite sure
whether I could reveal all that, so I asked him in return, "How much do you know about Emma?"
As soon as he heard that, his expression suddenly froze for a moment.
It was then I realized that he knew nothing about her.
After some consideration, I replied, "Emma was the young girl nurtured by the Turner Family and the
previous Xenos Family."
The previous Xenos Family was in fact a reference to Shawnâs era.
Christopher turned to me in confusion as he asked, "Why did the Xenos Family keep guard of her,
then?"
"Christopher, sheâs an exceptionally gifted child."
There was a dazed look on his face and he seemed to have recalled something from the past. I briefly
explained, "There are a lot of things that Iâm not sure whether I should reveal to you, but Emma is
highly intelligent compared to ordinary people. She grasps things better than either of us could and
sheâs way more perceptive than the two of us too."
He shut his eyes and breathed out softly. "Iâm in a dilemma."
I asked in concern, "Whatâs wrong?"
Christopher slowly opened his eyes and looked at the snowy scene outside the window. Then, he
explained solemnly, "Emma directly rejected my feelings last night."
His words had caught me off guard as I suddenly realized that this man before meâgenerally cold and
silentâhad actually fallen for Emma!
Olivia had pursued him for more than ten years, but had not managed to win him over; she had been
defeated hands down by Emma, whom he had not even met more than ten times.
Why is that so?!
I asked, "Did she say why?"
Emma had been critical of Diegoâs age but Christopherâwho was depressingly standing before meâ
was much older than Diego.
Christopher lowered his head and considered my words before pursing his lips to reply, "She said that I
was old, traditional and rigid in my ways."
At this point, I could not help but burst into laughter. "Did she say that you were traditional and rigid in
your ways?"
Christopher murmured âyesâ softly as I rose to walk to his side with a smile. "I used to think that Shawn
was too traditional and rigid in his ways."
Shawn usually preferred to don a black suit and had always looked very solemn. Furthermore, he
enjoyed reading as well as calligraphy writing and was generally very soft-spoken. He behaved like an
old man in his eighties, unfazed by everything and silent as ever.
As Shawn was mentioned, Christopher changed the topic and asked, "Did you manage to see him
yesterday?"
As soon as he brought this matter up, my heart clenched thinking about it.
"No, he intentionally avoided me."
Christopher was seemingly at a loss for words so he lifted his hand to pat me on the shoulders for
encouragement. "There are bound to be disappointing moments in life and the most important thing is
to have a clear conscience."
Christopher was indeed skilled at providing comfort. He retracted his elbow while speaking eloquently,
"Life is too short to not do the things you want. Do whatever you think is best for you and Shawn and
Iâm going to take the same approach with Emma. Got it?"
I nodded and replied, "I hope that you guys will end up together."
"Sure. Just donât assist Diego too much in their daily interactions," he reminded.
As soon as he mentioned Diego, I quickly smiled and explained, "Iâve never assisted him. He used my
phone once when I was in Finland to text Emma. Other than that, weâve hardly been in contact."
Christopherâs expression suddenly became serious upon hearing my words. "Emma did visit Finland
previously."
At this moment, I was speechless.
He had just finished his sentence when there was a knock on the door. I went to open the door and
found Emma standing in front. She had a comical expression as she leaned against the door with a
seemingly innocent smile. "Renee, my dad just called to summon James and I back home, so Iâve got
to go now!"
"Iâll walk you out then," I responded.
As for Christopher, he also whispered in my ears, "Iâll be on my way too."
"Okay. Iâll walk you guys out."
I shifted sideways to allow Christopher to walk out first and Emma squeezed past him to get inside.
Subsequently, she hugged my arm and asked, "Renee, Iâll be visiting Finland soon. Would you like to
join my trip?"
Right then, Christopher paused in his tracks and instantly asked, "Why are you going to Finland?"
She replied frankly, "Kevin just called to invite me over. Heâll bring me skiing and trekking but itâs mainly
because of him."
He patiently asked, "Who are you referring to as âhimâ?"
I thought that it was Diegoâs idea for Kevin to invite Emma over to Finland, but I was taken aback by
what she had to say. "Itâs Shawn. Kevin said that Shawn needed my help, so I have to go over to
Finland," said Emma, without any filter.
Christopher no longer pursued the topic as Emma continued to explain, "Shawn needs someone with
knowledge in programming, so itâs just nice that Iâm able to be of help."
I had heard that Emma was great in scientific and technological skills, but it was the first time that I had
heard of her being good in programming too. Nonetheless, Emma was such an intelligent girl, so it was
not surprising that she was skillful in many areas. Right now, she was the only one able to assist
Shawn.
And then thereâs me⦠A totally unhelpful me! All I can do is watch him as he solves his problems.
Christopher left the room and Emma voiced out softly, "The elite class and the men close to Shawn
have gathered in Finland. Judging by Kevinâs words, I might have to stay on for a couple of months."
Shawn had to be planning to rebuild his connections and influence.
Suddenly, I was envious that Emma could remain by his side.
Emma noticed my silence and asked, "Do you want to join me there?"
I recalled my past two failed attempts in meeting Shawn in Finland, so I heaved a deep sigh and said,
"Emma, I wonât get the chance to see him."
She asked with a perplexed look, "Why is that so?"
"Weâve gotten into a huge fight and parted ways."
Emma was quite confused at that point and asked, "You guys separate as easily as you get together. Is
that how adults treat their relationship? It feels quite fickle."
I was significantly speechless by her words.
To Emmaâs knowledge, I had been with a few men all throughout my life, therefore, her assumption
was understandable. However, be it with Nicholas or Shawn, none of the endings were of my own
accord. I had always been the one forced to walk away. This time, though, I had hurt my man.
"Emma, I love him very much," I responded desolately.
She intelligently replied, "Iâll be sure to pass on this message to him."
I smiled and asked her, "Do you think itâs better for us to separate?"
Emma shook her head and replied, "My wish is for you guys to have a blissful life."
"Thank you, Iâm sure we will."
Shawn and I will definitely have a blissful life.
â¦â¦
â¦
I went downstairs to send them off, then went back to my bedroom. After taking the medication
prescribed by the doctor to stabilize my pregnancy, I lay in bed for a moment before feeling some slight
cramps around my abdomen.
I was in an alert mode, so I quickly brought Joseph along with me to the hospital.
After the checkup, the doctor repeatedly advised me to terminate the pregnancy. No way! I asked the
doctor with the last hope within me, "Is it completely unviable?"
"There is a chance, but itâs quite a slim one."
"I would like to give it a try, even if itâs just the slightest chance."
"Then, youâve to make sure to avoid all stressful situations and come to the hospital for regular check-
ups. My advice would be for you to stay hospitalized for bed rest."
I meekly heeded his words. "Okay. Iâll arrange to get admitted to the hospital the next day onward."
I planned to get admitted into the same hospital as Francesca in Sundew tomorrow so that we could
keep each other company. At the same time, it was the perfect chance for me to learn more about the
Xenos Family structure.
Suddenly, the doctor piped up, "Miss Felix, Iâve got another issue here."
"What is it?"
He expressed worriedly, "It would be best if you could undergo an anomaly scan."
His statement stunned me. "What do you mean by that?"
"Youâre in poor health and it wasnât an easy thing for you to get pregnant. Furthermore, your conditionâs
not stable ,so I would recommend that you undergo an anomaly scan tomorrow."
With an ashen-faced, I could no longer hold in my worry. "Are you telling me that my babyâs deformed?"
"Miss Felix, Iâm just trying to rule out that possibility and be prepared for anything."