Chapter 14
Faking it with Damian Black
Chapter 14
-MILLIE-
I heaved a breath, took one last glance at Damian, and rose from my chair. âThank you for dinner,â I said, gathered my things, and ran towards the exit.
âWhat?â Damian scrambled to his feet, pulled out his wallet, and dropped a few bills on the table. âMillicent, where are you going!!
I gathered spectators as I shuffled towards the elevator. The staccato of my stilettos rose in discard with my speeding pulse.
Stepping inside the elevator, 1 jabbed my fingers at the close door button as if the building was on fire. I glanced up. Darmian patted the shoulders of the bar manager, skirted past him, and took huge, determined strides in my direction. He cursed loudly as the door closed.
I was flustered when I reached the lobby, my chin tucked against my collarbone, shame crawling underneath my skin. I raced towards the street. hailing a cab in time for Damian to step out of the building.
âMillicent! Go dda mit!â He cursed.
I slid into the cabâs back seat, not daring to look back, and ordered the driver to get me out of there as though my life depended on it.
His studying gaze, those intense green eyes wanting to read my soul, and the k*ss on the sidewalk-everything made sense now. He knew my deepest, darkest secret. Even Candice didnât know what was going on in my S** life. Within seconds. tonight topped my unforgettable night in the most negative way
The cab stopped at my building. I paid the cabby and rode the elevator up to my floor; the tension in my b*dy eased a bit. But as soon as the lift door parted. I debated whether to continue forward or run back to the elevatorâs safety. There was a very upset six-foot-one caveman glaring my way.
How Damian managed to beat me here is beyond me.
He pushed off from the wall where heâd been leaning, faced me, and folded his arms in his middle. His gaze could melt glaciers.
I willed my feet to move, one foot in front of the other. My legs threatened to give up on me under Damianâs heated glare
âThat wasnât very nice, Millicent.â His tone was sharp. Annoyance flared in his emerald pools.
My fingers trembled as I opened the door. This conversation cannot happen in the hallway. It was embarrassing enough th Damian knew intimate details about my S**ual relationship with Hunter. Having my neighbors eavesdrop on this topic wa the last thing I needed.
Damian invited himself in and closed the door behind him.
âI canât do this, Damian,â I murmured, heading towards my kitchen and opening the wine cabinet, looking for something stronger than beer.
âDo what?â He parked his huge figure across my kitchen island, his presence taking up all the space in my apartment.
I faced him, unscrewed the pinot noir, and drank straight from the bottle.
Yes. Iâm breaking my promise to watch my alcohol intake. The wine warmed my throat, giving me a boost to meet Damianâs gaze. âThis, my forefinger wagged back and forth between us. âI canât.â
His brows creased, the tips of his hips curling in annoyance âYouâre backing out?â I nodded âBecause I know you had a huge crush on me back in high school, and your p sycho ex makes you do things you canât stomach?â
âGeez, Damian.â I sank my fingers through my hair, raking the strands harshly. âStrip me bare, will you?â
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His l*ps twitched, picking up the innuendo in my statement. I rolled my eyes and took another gulp of wine.
âWe havenât finished talking about the terms. He rounded the island and opened the fridge, frowning as he closed it. He neared me, sna tched the bottle of wine, and took a long pull before saying, âYou need beer in that fridge.â
He stood beside me, our shoulders brushing, our as s es pressed against the counter.
âThereâs nothing to talk about. Iâm out.â I took the wine from him, tipping the bottle to my l*ps.
âWhy?â He sounded genuinely confused.
âBecause⦠Damian,â I groaned.
âBecause what, Millicent..â he mimicked my exasperated tone.
âUgh!â I swiped my mouth with the back of my hand, wiping the rivulets of wine from my l*ps. âHow can I pretend weâre together when I canât even look you in the eyes?â
âIs it because Iâm too beautiful that you find it hard to breathe?â His teasing tone set my cheeks on fire.
Oh, my G od! Did I really tell him everything in detail? Thatâs how I entered his name in my diary for over four years.
âThat was a long time ago, I huffed, fighting the cold sweat forming on the base of my spine.
âSure it was, so whatâs the issue?â He asked, our fingers brushing when he took the wine bottle from me. âDonât tell me itâs because your ex is a ps ycho.â
âCan we not?â I stepped away from him, but he grabbed my forearm, towing me back until I was pressed against his b*dy.
âThatâs your issue?â His brows wrinkled, genuine confusion blanketing his face. âWhy? And stop f ucking running, or Iâll tie you up. Millicent.â
My mouth parted at his threat, my heart smashing against my breastbone, and my inside throbbed⦠with need. Iâve always pictured Damian as dominant and possessive. Images of me tied up in his bed, moaning and writhing underneath him, flooded my head.
âWhat the hell is wrong with me?
âIâm ashamed, okay?â Defeat settling on my belly. At night, when Iâm alone in bed. I still cry over Hunter, justifyin actions. Apart from being busy with work, there were some things I could not fulfill as Hunterâs girlfriend. Yes, I h but sometimes, he gets too controlling in bed, forcing me to do things I cannot swallow.
A low growl rumbled from Damianâs chest, eyes sla nting. âIf someone should be ashamed, itâs definitely not you, p erv ert ex.â
âItâs not his fault I cannot give him everything he needs, okay!â wriggled my arm from his grip. He only tightened
on me.
He huffed, and then my world spun. The next thing I knew, Damian had me trapped with his b*dy against the counter white steam billowing from his ears and nose.
âDid he ask for your consent before doing those things to you?â His voice was almost a snarl.
âWhat?â I was too stunned to process his question.
âAnswer the f ucking question, Millicent.â If he was annoyed earlier, he was enraged now.
âWeâre not talking about this, Damian.â I flattened my hand on his chest, his heartbeat drumming against my palms.
âYes, we are.â He grabbed my wrists and pinned them behind my back, my breast pushed against his chest. âDid he?â
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I kept my mouth shut, refusing to discuss my f ucked up S** life with him.
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His gaze softened, but his iron grip remained. âAnswer me. For this to work, I should know how your ex f ucked you up.â
Thoughts of Hunter touching me flashed in my head. My fear and the pain he inflicted on me when I refused to submit to him.
1 caved. âAt first, he did,â I grunted, my voice thick with shame. Heat exploded from my chest. âBut he has needs I had to fulfill them, Damian.â
Growling, Damian let an inch separate our bodies, releasing my wrists, slithering his left hand on my hips, holding me close. âThatâs not how a relationship should work. Yes, a man has needs, but forcing you to do sh it against your will isnât justified by
that
âDamian..â I was mortified that he knew my secret, and realizing he was right made my stomach twist, pushing bile up my throat. âPlease. I donât want to talk about this anymore.â
I kept everything to myself, how Hunter treated me when I refused to have S** with him or let him tie me up and use things on my b*dy that I didnât even know existed.
âYour ex is a f ucking maniac.â Damian growled. âFirst, he manipulated you and treated you like s hit. The more I learn about him, the more Iâm convinced you are better off without him. He doesnât deserve you, Millicent. Heâs a good for nothing cheater and a f ucking p sycho.â
âItâs my fault he cheated on me. Iâm not defending Hunter. Heâs not even here, and weâre not even together. But Iâm aware of my shortcomings. At some point, I even considered that one of the reasons he cheated on me. âHunter said I am the problem. Can we just stop talking about this?â I reached for the abandoned wine on the counter and drained the last of it.
âIâm not letting you out of this deal,â he insisted, leaning back on the island, facing me. I was ready to question his motives when he explained. âThis isnât you. I hate that f ucker for planting that self-doubt in you. He took advantage of you. Heâll know what he lost and regret what he did to you. I assure you that.â
Itâs really sweet that he wanted to help me, but how will I move on from this? He knew the things Candice didnât know about. âI donât know if I can pull this off, Damian,â I sighed. âAfter knowing what you learned about me.â
He stepped forward, reaching for my face. His touch was gentle, pilting my chin up, forcing me to look into his eyes. âYou donât have to feel embarrassed about it, Millicent. How I see you havenât changed. Iâll take care of you.â He k*ssed my forehead; the tender gesture caught me off guard. âIâll see you on Saturday.â
He left me standing there, speechless. I eyed the door where Damian had disappeared. Time ticked by, and I still couldnât wrap my mind around what had happened tonight.