Chapter 658: 658: Let Yourself Go

Professor Winnie continued to ask, “Do you still not trust your own feelings? You drew your husband, scribbled over it, this displays the chaos in your mind.”

Olivia Jenkins remained silent, her gaze shifting to the sand art.

Professor Winnie looked at Olivia Jenkins and directly voiced her instinctual reactions, “You love your husband but you don’t feel secure, so you’re wavering. What disappoints you the most is the lack of mutual comprehension between the two of you. The figurine of a child in the sandbox, toppled over, is what ultimately broke down your mental defenses.”

Jenkins nodded her head, her almond-shaped eyes drooping slightly, and her tone much calmer as she opened her heart to Professor Winnie for the first time, “Since I married him, his family keeps pressuring me to have children, forcing me to drink traditional medicine, and creating disputes, all of which I find repulsive.

Later on, from what he said, I deduced that he doesn’t like children and doesn’t want me to give birth. Coincidentally, I didn’t want to either, and even contemplated divorce, which brought us to an understanding.

If it was just to live like this forever, I wouldn’t mind, but peace became a luxury. One despicable event after another revealed to me his deep-rooted commitment to his ex-fiancée and their unborn child.

They cherished that child and made many preparations for its arrival, but sadly he lost both his beloved and their child. Hence, I realized over time that he doesn’t dislike children, just the prospect of our child.”

It wouldn’t matter if we didn’t have a child, and I never envisioned spending my lifetime with him, so I didn’t hold it against him. It seemed nice for the two of us to be together, I even felt some happiness.

That was until the day I inadvertently played his ex-fiancée’s violin. I saw his intense emotional reaction, and I understood then, that it had always been a life for three.”

Pausing for a moment, Jenkins blinked her eyes, trying hard to dispel the tears welling up, “This is just what I thought. What happened later, including my attempts to test him, clearly told me that in reality, it’s four of us living together.

Although that child never had the chance to come into the world, it has always been in his heart. His heart didn’t have room for any other child. As for the life of the four of us, I don’t know how to live it. Therefore, I don’t want to continue anymore, I want to end it.

Once, he and I were near a hospital entrance when a car almost crashed into me. He rescued me with great effort. His subsequent fear strongly suggested a trauma re-experience due to post-traumatic stress disorder, so I started suspecting that his mental state wasn’t quite right.

There were also several arguments and conflicts later on, which made me feel extremely exhausted. Yes, I can’t afford to lose, I’m afraid, but I also have the right to end it. I am me, I don’t want to always be the one to compromise or to endure, it’s not fair for me either.”

Professor Winnie nodded slightly, his piercing gaze still fixed on Jenkins, exuding an attentive observation, “You should understand that these are his symptoms, he can’t control them, this is not the real him.

When you noticed that his deceased ex-fiancée was affecting his emotions, you should have encouraged him to see a psychologist. The root of your issues lies in his symptoms, so you should also receive psychological counselling. You need to see his real feelings.

Psychotherapy or mental health therapy requires cooperation and the concern and support of others around. As you know, it’s not a problem to be solved with a few sessions.

If he cannot get better, you will also be caught up in your own struggles. If you both complement each other in your relationship, why not truly let yourselves go?”