Bared to You: Chapter 4
Bared to You (Crossfire, Book 1)
Mortified by the sudden intrusion into our privacy, I scrambled up and back into the armrest, yanking down my skirt.
ââ¦two oâclock appointment is here.â
It took an endless moment to realize Cross and I were still alone in the room, that the voice Iâd heard had come through a speaker. Cross stood at the far end of the sofa, flushed and scowling, his chest heaving. His tie was loosened and the fly of his slacks strained against a very impressive erection.
I had a nightmare vision in my head of what I must look like. And I was late getting back to work.
âChrist.â He shoved both hands through his hair. âItâs the middle of the fucking day. In my goddamn fucking office!â
I got to my feet and tried to straighten my appearance.
âHere.â He came to me, yanking my skirt up again.
Furious at what Iâd almost let happen when I should be at work, I smacked at his hands. âStop it. Leave me alone.â
âShut up, Eva,â he said grimly, catching the hem of my black silk blouse and tugging it into place, adjusting it so that the buttons once again formed a straight row between my breasts. Then he pulled down my skirt, smoothing it with calm, expert hands. âFix your ponytail.â
Cross retrieved his coat, shrugging into it before adjusting his tie. We reached the door at the same time and when I crouched to fetch my purse, he lowered with me.
He caught my chin, forcing me to look at him. âHey,â he said softly. âYou okay?â
My throat burned. I was aroused and mad and thoroughly embarrassed. Iâd never in my life lost my mind like that. And I hated that Iâd done so with him, a man whose approach to sexual intimacy was so clinical it depressed me just thinking about it.
I jerked my chin away. âDo I look okay?â
âYou look beautiful and fuckable. I want you so badly it hurts. Iâm dangerously close to taking you back to the couch and making you come âtil you beg me to stop.â
âCanât accuse you of being silver-tongued,â I muttered, aware that I wasnât offended. In fact, the rawness of his hunger for me was a serious aphrodisiac. Clutching the strap of my purse, I stood on shaky legs. I needed to get away from him. And, when my workday was done, I needed to be alone with a big glass of wine.
Cross stood with me. âIâll be done by five. Iâll come get you then.â
âNo, you wonât. This doesnât change anything.â
âThe hell it doesnât.â
âDonât be arrogant, Cross. I lost my head for a second, but I still donât want what you want.â
His fingers curled around the door handle. âYes, you do. You just donât want it the way I want to give it to you. So, weâll revisit and revise.â
More business. Cut-and-dried. My spine stiffened.
I set my hand over his and yanked on the handle, ducking under his arm to squeeze out the door. His secretary shoved quickly to his feet, gaping, as did the woman and two men who were waiting for Cross. I heard him speak behind me.
âScott will show you into my office. Iâll be just a moment.â
He caught me by reception, his arm crossing my lower back to grip my hip. Not wanting to make a scene, I waited until we were by the elevators to pull away.
He stood calmly and hit the call button. âFive oâclock, Eva.â
I stared at the lighted button. âIâm busy.â
âTomorrow, then.â
âIâm busy all weekend.â
Stepping in front of me, he asked tightly, âWith whom?â
âThatâs none of yourââ
His hand covered my mouth. âDonât. Tell me when, then. And before you say never, take a good look at me and tell me if you see a man whoâs easily deterred.â
His face was hard, his gaze narrowed and determined. I shivered. I wasnât sure Iâd win a battle of wills with Gideon Cross.
Swallowing, I waited until he lowered his hand and said, âI think we both need to cool off. Take a couple days to think.â
He persisted. âMonday after work.â
The elevator arrived and I stepped into it. Facing him, I countered, âMonday lunch.â
Weâd have only an hour, a guaranteed escape.
Just before the doors closed, he said, âWeâre going to happen, Eva.â
It sounded as much like a threat as a promise.
âDonât sweat it, Eva,â Mark said, when I arrived at my desk nearly a quarter after two. âYou didnât miss anything. I had a late lunch with Mr. Leaman. I just barely got back myself.â
âThank you.â No matter what he said, I still felt terrible. My kick-ass Friday morning seemed to have happened days ago.
We worked steadily until five, discussing a fast-food client and contemplating some possible tweaks to ad copy for a chain of organic grocery stores.
âTalk about strange bedfellows,â Mark had teased, not knowing how apt that was in regard to my personal life.
Iâd just shut down my computer and was pulling my purse out of the drawer when my phone rang. I glanced at the clock, saw it was exactly five, and considered ignoring the call because I was technically done for the day.
But since I was still feeling shitty about my overly-long lunch, I considered it penance and answered. âMark Garrityâsââ
âEva honey. Richard says you forgot your cell phone at his office.â
I exhaled in a rush and sagged back into my chair. I could picture the handkerchief wringing that usually accompanied that particular anxious tone of my motherâs. It drove me nuts and it also broke my heart. âHi, Mom. How are you?â
âOh, Iâm lovely. Thank you.â My mom had a voice that was both girlish and breathy, like Marilyn Monroe crossed with Scarlett Johansson. âClancy dropped your phone off with the concierge at your place. You really shouldnât go anywhere without it. You never know when you might need to call for someoneââ
Iâd been debating the logistics of just keeping the phone and forwarding calls to a new number I didnât share with my mom, but that wasnât my biggest concern. âWhat does Dr. Petersen say about you tracing my phone?â
The silence on the other end of the line was telling. âDr. Petersen knows I worry about you.â
Pinching the bridge of my nose, I said, âI think itâs time for us to have another joint appointment, Mom.â
âOhâ¦of course. He did mention that heâd like to see you again.â
Probably because he suspects youâre not being forthcoming. I changed the subject. âI really like my new job.â
âThatâs wonderful, Eva! Is your boss treating you well?â
âYes, heâs great. I couldnât ask for anyone better.â
âIs he handsome?â
I smiled. âYes, very. And heâs taken.â
âDamn it. The good ones always are.â She laughed and my smile widened.
I loved it when she was happy. I wished she were happy more often. âI canât wait to see you tomorrow at the advocacy dinner.â
Monica Tramell Barker Mitchell Stanton was in her element at society functions, a gilded shining beauty whoâd never lacked male attention in her life.
âLetâs make a day of it,â my mom said breathlessly. âYou, me, and Cary. Weâll go to the spa, get pretty and polished. Iâm sure you could use a massage after working so hard.â
âI wonât turn one down, thatâs for sure. And I know Cary will love it.â
âOh, Iâm excited! Iâll send a car by your place around eleven?â
âWeâll be ready.â
After I hung up, I leaned back in my chair and exhaled, needing a hot bath and an orgasm. If Gideon Cross somehow found out I masturbated while thinking about him, I didnât care. Being sexually frustrated was weakening my position, a weakness I knew he wouldnât be sharing. No doubt heâd have a preapproved orifice lined up before dayâs end.
As I swapped out my heels for my walking shoes, my phone rang again. My mother was rarely distracted for long. The five minutes since weâd ended our call was just about the right length of time for her to realize the cell phone issue hadnât been resolved. Once again, I debated ignoring the phone, but I didnât want to take any of the dayâs crap home with me.
I answered with my usual greeting, but it lacked its usual punch.
âIâm still thinking about you.â
The velvet rasp of Crossâs voice flooded me with such relief I realized Iâd been hoping to hear it again. Today.
God. The craving was so acute I knew heâd become a drug to my body, the prime source of some very intense highs.
âI can still feel you, Eva. Still taste you. Iâve been hard since you left, through two meetings and one teleconference. Youâve got the advantage, state your demands.â
âAh,â I murmured. âLemme think.â
I let him wait, smiling as I remembered Caryâs comment about blue balls. âHmmâ¦Nothing is coming to mind. But I do have some friendly advice. Go spend time with a woman who salivates at your feet and makes you feel like a god. Fuck her until neither of you can walk. When you see me on Monday youâll be totally over it and your life will return to its usual obsessive-compulsive order.â
The creak of leather sounded over the phone and I imagined him leaning back in his desk chair. âThat was your one free pass, Eva. The next time you insult my intelligence, Iâll take you over my knee.â
âI donât like that sort of thing.â And yet the warning, given in that voice, aroused me. Dark and Dangerous for sure.
âWeâll discuss. In the interim, tell me what you do like.â
I stood. âYou definitely have the voice for phone sex, but Iâve got to go. I have a date with my vibrator.â
I shouldâve hung up then, to gain the full effect of the brush-off, but I couldnât resist learning if heâd gloat like I had imagined he would. Plus, I was having fun with him.
âOh, Eva.â Cross spoke my name in a decadent purr. âYouâre determined to drive me to my knees, arenât you? What will it take to talk you into a threesome with B.O.B.?â
I ignored both questions as I slung my bag and purse over my shoulder, grateful he couldnât see how my hand shook. I was not discussing Battery Operated Boyfriends with Gideon Cross. Iâd never discussed masturbation openly with a man, let alone a man who was for all intents and purposes a stranger to me. âB.O.B. and I have a longtime understandingâwhen weâre done with each other, we know exactly which one of us has been used, and it isnât me. Good night, Gideon.â
I hung up and took the stairs, deciding the twenty-floor descent would serve double-duty as both an avoidance technique and a replacement for a visit to the gym.
I was so grateful to be home after the day Iâd had that I practically danced through my apartmentâs front door. My heartfelt âGod, itâs good to be home!â and accompanying spin was vehement enough to startle the couple on the couch.
âOh,â I said, wincing at my own silliness. Cary wasnât in a compromising position with his guest when I barged in, but theyâd been sitting close enough to suggest intimacy.
Grudgingly, I thought of Gideon Cross, who preferred to strip all intimacy out of the most intimate act I could imagine. Iâd had one-night stands and friends with benefits, and no one knew better than I that sex and making love were two very different things, but I didnât think Iâd ever be able to view sex like a handshake. I thought it was sad that Cross did, even though he wasnât a man who inspired pity or sympathy.
âHey, baby girl,â Cary called out, pushing to his feet. âI was hoping youâd make it back before Trey had to leave.â
âI have class in an hour,â Trey explained, rounding the coffee table as I dropped my bag on the floor and put my purse on a barstool at the breakfast bar. âBut Iâm glad I got to meet you before I left.â
âMe, too.â I shook the hand he extended to me, taking him in with a quick glance. He was about my age, I guessed. Average height and nicely muscular. He had unruly blond hair, soft hazel eyes, and a nose that had clearly been broken at some point.
âMind if I grab a glass of wine?â I asked. âItâs been a long day.â
âGo for it,â Trey replied.
âIâll take one, too.â Cary joined us by the breakfast bar. He was wearing loose-fitting black jeans and an off-the-shoulder black sweater. The look was casual and elegant, and did a phenomenal job of offsetting his dark brown hair and emerald eyes.
I went to the wine fridge and pulled out a random bottle.
Trey shoved his hands in the pockets of his jeans and rocked back on his heels, talking quietly with Cary as I uncorked and poured.
The phone rang and I grabbed the handset off the wall. âHello?â
âHey, Eva? Itâs Parker Smith.â
âParker, hi.â I leaned my hip into the counter. âHow are you?â
âI hope you donât mind my calling. Your stepdad gave me your number.â
Gah. Iâd had enough of Stanton for one day. âNot at all. Whatâs up?â
âHonestly? Everythingâs looking up right now. Your stepdad is like my fairy godfather. Heâs funding a few safety improvements to the studio and some much-needed upgrades. Thatâs why Iâm calling. The studioâs going to be out of commission for the rest of the week. Classes will resume next Monday.â
I closed my eyes, struggling to tamp down a flare of exasperation. It wasnât Parkerâs fault that Stanton and my mom were overprotective control freaks. Clearly they didnât see the irony of defending me while I was surrounded by people trained to do that very thing. âSounds good. I canât wait. Iâm really excited to be training with you.â
âIâm excited, too. Iâm going to work you hard, Eva. Your parents are going to get their moneyâs worth.â
I set a filled glass in front of Cary and took a big gulp out of my own. It never ceased to amaze me how much cooperation money could buy. But again, that wasnât Parkerâs fault. âNo complaints here.â
âWeâll get started first thing next week. Your driver has the schedule.â
âGreat. See you then.â I hung up and caught the glance Trey shot Cary when he thought neither of us was looking. It was soft and filled with a sweet yearning, and it reminded me that my problems could wait. âIâm sorry I caught you on the way out, Trey. Do you have time for pizza Wednesday night? Iâd love to do more than say hi and bye.â
âI have class.â He gave me a regretful smile and shot another side-glance at Cary. âBut I could come by on Tuesday.â
âThatâd be great.â I smiled. âWe could order in and have a movie night.â
âIâd like that.â
I was rewarded with the kiss Cary blew me as he headed to the door to show Trey out. When he returned to the kitchen he grabbed his wine and said, âAll right. Spill it, Eva. You looked stressed.â
âI am,â I agreed, grabbing the bottle and moving into the living room.
âItâs Gideon Cross, isnât it?â
âOh, yeah. But I donât want to talk about him.â Although Gideonâs pursuit was exhilarating, his goal sucked. âLetâs talk about you and Trey instead. How did you two meet?â
âI ran across him on a job. Heâs working part time as a photographerâs assistant. Sexy, isnât he?â His eyes were bright and happy. âAnd a real gentleman. In an old-school way.â
âWho knew there were any of those left?â I muttered before polishing off my first glass.
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âNothing. Iâm sorry, Cary. He seemed great, and he obviously digs you. Is he studying photography?â
âVeterinary medicine.â
âWow. Thatâs awesome.â
âI think so, too. But forget about Trey for a minute. Talk about whatâs bugging you. Get it out.â
I sighed. âMy mom. She found out about my interest in Parkerâs studio and now sheâs freaking out.â
âWhat? Howâd she find out? I swear I havenât told anyone.â
âI know you didnât. Never even crossed my mind.â Grabbing the bottle off the table, I refilled my glass. âGet this. Sheâs been tracking my cell phone.â
Caryâs brows rose. âSeriously? Thatâsâ¦creepy.â
âI know, right? Thatâs what I told Stanton, but he doesnât want to hear it.â
âWell, hell.â He ran a hand through his long bangs. âSo what do you do?â
âGet a new phone. And meet with Dr. Petersen to see if he canât talk some sense into her.â
âGood move. Turn it over to her shrink. Soâ¦is everything okay with your job? Do you still love it?â
âTotally.â My head fell back into the sofa cushions and my eyes closed. âMy work and you are my lifesavers right now.â
âWhat about the young hottie bazillionaire who wants to nail you? Come on, Eva. You know Iâm dying here. What happened?â
I told him, of course. I wanted his take on it all. But when I finished, he was quiet. I lifted my head to look at him, and found him bright-eyed and biting his lip.
âCary? What are you thinking?â
âIâm feeling kind of hot from that story.â He laughed and the warm, richly masculine sound swept a lot of my irritation away. âHeâs got to be so confused right now. I wouldâve paid money to see his face when you hit him with that bit he wanted to spank you over.â
âI canât believe he said that.â Just remembering Crossâs voice when he made that threat had my palms damp enough to leave steam on my glass. âWhat the hell is he into?â
âSpankingâs not deviant. Besides, he was going for missionary on the couch, so heâs not averse to the basics.â He fell into the couch, a brilliant smile lighting up his handsome face. âYouâre a huge challenge to a guy who obviously thrives on them. And heâs willing to make concessions to have you, which Iâd bet heâs not used to. Just tell him what you want.â
I split the last of the wine between us, feeling marginally better with a bit of alcohol in my veins. What did I want? Aside from the obvious? âWeâre totally incompatible.â
âIs that what you call what happened on his couch?â
âCary, come on. Boil it down. He picked me up off the lobby floor, and then asked me to fuck. Thatâs really it. Even a guy I take home from a bar has more going for him than that. Hey, whatâs your name? Come here often? Whoâs your friend? What are you drinking? Like to dance? Do you work around here?â
âAll right, all right. I get it.â He set his glass down on the table. âLetâs go out. Hit a bar. Dance âtil we drop. Maybe meet some guys whoâll talk you up some.â
âOr at least buy me a drink.â
âHey, Cross offered you one of those in his office.â
I shook my head and stood. âWhatever. Let me take a shower and weâll go.â
I threw myself into clubbing like it was going out of style. Cary and I bounced all over downtown clubs from Tribeca to the East Village, wasting stupid money on cover charges and having a fabulous time. I danced until my feet felt like they were going to fall off, but I toughed it out until Cary complained about his heeled boots first.
Weâd just stumbled out of a techno-pop club with a plan to buy me flip-flops at a nearby Walgreens when we ran across a hawker promoting a lounge a few blocks away.
âGreat place to get off your feet for a while,â he said, without the usual flashy smile or exaggerated hype most of the hawkers employed. His clothesâblack jeans and turtleneckâwere more upscale, which intrigued me. And he didnât have fliers or postcards. What he handed me was a business card made from papyrus paper and printed with a gilded font that caught the light of the electric signage around us. I made a mental note to hang on to it as a great piece of print advertising.
A stream of quickly moving pedestrians flowed around us. Cary squinted down at the lettering, having a few more drinks in him than I had. âLooks swank.â
âShow them that card,â the hawker urged. âYouâll skip the cover.â
âSweet.â Cary linked arms with me and dragged me along. âLetâs go. You might find a quality guy in a swanky joint.â
My feet were seriously killing me by the time we found the place, but I quit bitching when I saw the charming entrance. The line to get in was long, extending down the street and around the corner. Amy Winehouseâs soulful voice drifted out of the open door, as did well-dressed customers who exited with big smiles.
True to the hawkerâs word, the business card was a magic key that granted us immediate and free entrance. A gorgeous hostess led us upstairs to a quieter VIP bar that overlooked the stage and dance floor below. We were shown to a small seating area by the balcony and settled at a table hugged by two half-moon velvet sofas. She propped a beverage menu in the center and said, âYour drinks are on the house. Enjoy your evening.â
âWow.â Cary whistled. âWe scored.â
âI think that hawker recognized you from an ad.â
âWouldnât that rock?â He grinned. âGod, itâs a great night. Hanging out with my best girl and crushing on a new hunk in my life.â
âOh?â
âI think Iâve decided to see where things go with Trey.â
That made me happy. It felt like Iâd been waiting forever for him to find someone whoâd treat him right. âHas he asked you out yet?â
âNo, but I donât think itâs because he doesnât want to.â He shrugged and smoothed his artfully ripped T-shirt. Paired with black leather pants and spiked wristlets, he looked sexy and wild. âI just think heâs trying to figure out the situation with you first. He wigged when I told him I lived with a woman and that Iâd moved across the country to be with you. Heâs worried I might be bi-curious and secretly hung up on you. Thatâs why I wanted you two to meet today, so he could see how you and I are together.â
âIâm sorry, Cary. Iâll try to put him at ease about it.â
âItâs not your fault. Donât worry about it. Itâll work out if itâs supposed to.â
His assurances didnât make me feel better. I tried to think if there was a way I could help.
Two guys stopped by our table. âOkay if we join you?â the taller one asked.
I glanced at Cary, and then back at the guys. They looked like brothers and they were very attractive. Both were smiling and confident, their stances loose and easy.
I was about to say, Sure, when a warm hand settled on my bare shoulder and squeezed firmly. âThis oneâs taken.â
Across from me, Cary gaped as Gideon Cross rounded the sofa and extended his hand to him. âTaylor. Gideon Cross.â
âCary Taylor.â He shook Gideonâs hand with a wide smile. âBut you knew that. Nice to meet you. Iâve heard a lot about you.â
I couldâve killed him. I seriously thought about it.
âGood to know.â Gideon settled on the seat beside me, his arm draped behind me so that his fingertips could brush casually and possessively up and down my arm. âMaybe thereâs hope for me yet.â
Twisting at the waist, I faced him and whispered fiercely, âWhat are you doing?â
He shot me a hard glance. âWhatever it takes.â
âIâm going to dance.â Cary stood with a mischievous grin. âBe back in a bit.â
Ignoring my pleading glance, my best friend blew me a kiss and the guys followed him. I watched them all go, my heart racing. After another minute, ignoring Gideon became ridiculous, as well as impossible.
My gaze slid over him. He wore dress slacks in graphite gray and a black V-neck sweater, the overall effect being one of careless sophistication. I loved the look on him and was attracted to the softness it gave him, even though I knew it was only an illusion. He was a hard man in a lot of ways.
I took a deep breath, feeling like I needed to make an effort to socialize with him. After all, wasnât that my big complaint? That he wanted to skip past the getting-to-know-you stage and jump straight into bed?
âYou lookâ¦â I paused. Fantastic. Wonderful. Amazing. So damn sexyâ¦In the end, I went with the lame, âI like the way you look.â
His brow arched. âAh, something you like about me. Is that a general like of the overall package? Or just the clothes? Only the sweater? Or maybe itâs the pants?â
The edge to his tone rubbed me the wrong way. âAnd if I say itâs just the sweater?â
âIâll buy a dozen and wear them every damn day.â
âThat would be a shame.â
âYou donât like the sweater?â He was pissy, his words coming clipped and fast.
My hands flexed restlessly in my lap. âI love the sweater, but I also like the suits.â
He stared at me a minute, and then nodded. âHow was your date with B.O.B.?â
Oh hell. I looked away. It was a lot easier talking about masturbation over the phone. Doing it while squirming under that piercing blue stare was mortifying. âI donât kiss and tell.â
He brushed the backs of his fingers over my cheek and murmured, âYouâre blushing.â
I heard the amusement in his voice and swiftly changed topics. âDo you come here often?â
Shit. Where did that clichéd line come from?
His hand dropped to my lap and caught one of mine, his fingers curling into my palm. âWhen necessary.â
A quick stab of jealousy made me stiffen. I glared at him, even though I was mad at myself for caring either way. âWhat does that mean? When youâre on the prowl?â
Gideonâs mouth curved into a genuine smile that hit me hard. âWhen expensive decisions need to be made. I own this club, Eva.â
Of course he did. Jeez.
A pretty waitress set two pinkish-colored iced drinks in square tumblers on the table. She looked at Gideon and gave him a flirtatious smile. âHere you go, Mr. Cross. Two Stoli Elites and cranberry. Can I get you anything else?â
âThatâll be all for now. Thanks.â
I could totally see that she wanted to get on the preapproved list and I bristled at that; then I was distracted by what weâd been served. It was my beverage of choice when clubbing and what Iâd been drinking all night. My nerves tingled. I watched him take a drink, swirl it around in his mouth like a fine wine, and then swallow it. The working of his throat made me hot, but that was nothing compared to what the intensity of his stare did to me.
âNot bad,â he murmured. âTell me if we made it right.â
He kissed me. He moved in fast, but I saw it coming and didnât turn away. His mouth was cold and flavored with alcohol-laced cranberry. Delicious. All the chaotic emotion and energy that had been writhing around inside me abruptly became too much to contain. I shoved a hand in his glorious hair and clenched it tight, holding him still as I sucked on his tongue. His groan was the most erotic sound Iâd ever heard, making the flesh between my legs tighten viciously.
Shocked by the fury of my reaction, I wrenched away, gasping.
Gideon followed, nuzzling the side of my face, his lips brushing over my ear. He was breathing hard, too, and the sound of the ice in his tumbler clinking against the glass skittered across my inflamed senses.
âI need to be inside you, Eva,â he whispered roughly. âIâm aching for you.â
My gaze fell to my drink on the table, my thoughts swirling around in my head, a clusterfuck of impressions and recollections and confusion. âHow did you know?â
His tongue traced the shell of my ear and I shivered. It felt like every cell in my body was straining toward his. Resisting him took an impossible amount of energy, draining me and making me feel tired.
âKnow what?â he asked.
âWhat I like to drink? What Caryâs name is?â
He inhaled deeply, and then pulled away. Setting his drink down, he shifted on the sofa and drew a knee up onto the cushion between us so that he faced me directly. His arm once again draped over the sofa back, his fingertips drawing circles on the curve of my shoulder. âYou visited another of my clubs earlier. Your credit card popped and your drinks were recorded. And Cary Taylor is listed on the rental agreement for your apartment.â
The room spun. No wayâ¦My cell phone. My credit card. My fucking apartment. I couldnât breathe. Between my mother and Gideon, I felt claustrophobic.
âEva. Jesus. Youâre white as a ghost.â He shoved a glass into my hand. âDrink.â
It was the Stoli and cranberry. I pounded it, draining the tumbler. My stomach churned for a moment, then settled. âYou own the building I live in?â I gasped.
âOddly enough, yes.â He moved to sit on the table, facing me, his legs on either side of mine. He took my glass and set it aside; then warmed my chilled hands with his.
âAre you crazy, Gideon?â
His mouth thinned. âIs that a serious question?â
âYes. Yes, it is. My mom stalks me, too, and she sees a shrink. Do you have a shrink?â
âNot presently, but youâre driving me crazy enough to make that a possibility.â
âSo this behavior isnât normal for you?â My heart was pounding. I could hear the blood rushing past my eardrums. âOr is it?â
He shoved a hand through his hair, restoring order to the strands Iâd mussed when weâd kissed. âI accessed information you voluntarily made available to me.â
âNot to you! Not for what you used it for! That has to violate some kind of privacy law.â I stared at him, more confused than ever. âWhy would you do that?â
He had the grace to look disgruntled at least. âSo I can figure you out, damn it.â
âWhy donât you just ask me, Gideon? Is that so fucking hard for people to do nowadays?â
âIt is with you.â He grabbed his drink off the table and tossed back most of it. âI canât get you alone for more than a few minutes at a time.â
âBecause the only thing you want to talk about is what you have to do to get laid!â
âChrist, Eva,â he hissed, squeezing my hand. âKeep your voice down!â
I studied him, taking in every line and plane of his face. Unfortunately, cataloging the details didnât lessen my awe even a tiny bit. I was beginning to suspect Iâd never get over being dazzled by his looks.
And I wasnât alone; Iâd seen how other women reacted around him. And he was crazy rich, which made even old, bald, and paunchy guys attractive. It was no wonder he was used to snapping his fingers and scoring an orgasm.
His gaze darted over my face. âWhy are you looking at me like that?â
âIâm thinking.â
âAbout what?â His jaw tightened. âAnd Iâm warning you, if you say anything about orifices, preapprovals, or seminal emissions, I wonât be held accountable for my actions.â
That almost made me smile. âI want to understand a few things, because I think itâs possible Iâm not giving you enough credit.â
âIâd like to understand a few things myself,â he muttered.
âIâm guessing the âI want to fuck youâ approach has a high success rate for you.â
Gideonâs face smoothed into unreadable impassivity. âIâm not touching that one, Eva.â
âOkay. You want to figure out what itâs going to take to get me into bed. Is that why youâre here in this club right now? Because of me? And donât say what you think I want to hear.â
His gaze was clear and steady. âIâm here for you, yes. I arranged it.â
Suddenly the threads the street hawker had been wearing made sense. Weâd been hustled by someone on Cross Industriesâs payroll. âDid you figure that getting me here would get you laid?â
His mouth twitched with suppressed amusement. âThereâs always the hope, but I expected it would take more work than a chance meeting over drinks.â
âYouâre right. So why do it? Why not wait until Monday lunch?â
âBecause youâre out trolling. I canât do anything about B.O.B., but I can stop you from picking up some asshole in a bar. You want to score, Eva, Iâm right here.â
âIâm not trolling. Iâm burning off tension after a stressful day.â
âYouâre not the only one.â He fingered one of my silver chandelier earrings. âSo you drink and dance when youâre tense. I work on the problem thatâs making me tense in the first place.â
His voice had softened, and it stirred an alarming yearning. âIs that what I am? A problem?â
âAbsolutely.â But there was a hint of a smile around his lips.
I knew that was a lot of the appeal for him. Gideon Cross wouldnât be where he was, at such a young age, if he took ânoâ gracefully. âWhatâs your definition of dating?â
A frown marred the space between his brows. âLengthy social time spent with a woman during which weâre not actively fucking.â
âDonât you enjoy the company of women?â
The frown turned into a scowl. âSure, as long as there arenât any exaggerated expectations or excessive demands on my time. Iâve found the best way to steer clear of those is to have mutually exclusive sexual relationships and friendships.â
There were those pesky âexaggerated expectationsâ again. Clearly, those were a sticking point with him. âSo, you do have female friends?â
âOf course.â His legs tightened around mine, capturing me. âWhere are you going with this?â
âYou segregate sex from the rest of your life. You separate it from friendship, workâ¦everything.â
âIâve got good reasons for doing that.â
âIâm sure you do. Okay, here are my thoughts.â It was difficult concentrating when I was so close to Gideon. âI told you I donât want to date and I donât. My job is priority number one and my personal lifeâas a single womanâis a close second. I donât want to sacrifice any of that time on a relationship and thereâs really not enough left over to squeeze in anything steady.â
âIâm right there with you.â
âBut I like sex.â
âGood. Have it with me.â His smile was an erotic invitation.
I shoved his shoulder. âI need a personal connection with the men I sleep with. It doesnât have to be intense or deep, but sex needs to be more than an emotionless transaction for me.â
âWhy?â
I could tell he wasnât being flippant. As bizarre as this conversation must be for him, Gideon was taking it seriously. âCall it one of my quirks, and Iâm not saying that lightly. It pisses me off to feel used for sex. I feel devalued.â
âCanât you look at it as you using me for sex?â
âNot with you.â He was too forceful, too demanding.
A sizzling, predatory glimmer sparked in his eyes as I bared my weakness for him.
âBesides,â I went on quickly, âthatâs semantics. I need an equal exchange in my sexual relationships. Or to have the upper hand.â
âOkay.â
âOkay? You said that really quickly considering Iâm telling you I need to combine two things you work so hard to avoid putting together.â
âIâm not comfortable with it and I donât claim to understand, but Iâm hearing youâitâs an issue. Tell me how to get around it.â
My breath left me in a rush. I hadnât expected that. He was a man who wanted no complications with his sex and I was a woman who found sex complicated, but he wasnât giving up. Yet.
âWe need to be friendly, Gideon. Not best buds or confidants, but two people who know more about each other than their anatomy. To me, that means we have to spend time together when weâre not actively fucking. And Iâm afraid weâll have to spend time not actively fucking in places where weâre forced to restrain ourselves.â
âIsnât that what weâre doing now?â
âYes. And see, thatâs what I mean. I wasnât giving you credit for that. You shouldâve done it in a less creepy mannerââI covered his lips with my fingers when he tried to cut me offââbut I admit you did try to set up a time to talk and I wasnât helpful.â
He nipped my fingers with his teeth, making me yelp and yank my hand away.
âHey. What was that for?â
He lifted my abused hand to his mouth and kissed the hurt, his tongue darting out to soothe. And incite.
In self-defense, I tugged my hand back to my lap. I still wasnât completely confident that weâd worked things out. âJust so you know there are no exaggerated expectationsâwhen you and I spend time together not actively fucking, I wonât think itâs a date. All right?â
âThat covers it.â Gideon smiled and my decision to be with him solidified for me. His smile was like lightning in the darkness, blinding and beautiful and mysterious, and I wanted him so badly it was physically painful.
His hands slid down to cup the backs of my thighs. Squeezing gently, he tugged me just a little bit closer. The hem of my short black halter dress slipped almost indecently high and his gaze was riveted to the flesh heâd exposed. His tongue wet his lips in an action so carnal and suggestive I could almost feel the caress on my skin.
Duffy began begging for mercy, her voice drifting up from the dance floor below. An unwelcome ache developed in my chest and I rubbed at it.
Iâd already had enough, but I heard myself saying, âI need another drink.â