Chapter 9

NICK POV

Its been two days since I had Simon over and I haven't seen him in two days he was busy with job hunting and I was busy getting back at Dad's company.

Finn and I were the old us and hearing that Uncle Kai told us they all will come tonight for gathering.

I called Simon and he told me he will be here soon.

Right now its Finn , Justin , Luke , Simon and I are sitting in my room talking.

"I like it here more than NY for some reason." Luke said.

"Is it because NY is crowded?"

"Maybe and here gives a home vibes." He answered Justin.

"How is life in NY?" Finn asked Luke.

"Well its like you have people around you like a lot yet you feel lonely. Before Nick my daily routine was get up eat , work , eat , sleep and repeat and sometimes party. But after having Nick around all I could do is annoy the shit out of him and it was easy because he gave me a homie vibes." I glared at him.

Before anyone can say anything the door opened and someone jumped on my lap.

For the first time I felt awkward and it felt wrong. I looked at Simon he lowered his head. I pushed Adam gently.

"Hey." He leaned forward and kissed my cheek.

"Why haven't you picked my calls." Well I sort of ignored him he always call at wrong time and I'm someone who never call back.

Ian and Daniel walked in.

"I have been busy." I held Simon's hand and moved closer to him.

"Who are they?" Adam curiously looked at Luke and Simon.

"Thats Luke my friend from NY and this is Simon my boyfriend." And Adam did something that for the first time I felt like slapping him. He chuckled and laughed. The air was heavy in room Daniel and Ian looked ashmed because of ones brother and others bestfriend.

Finn , Luke and Justin were looking mad at Adam and I was furious whereas Simon looked embarrassed and insecure.

"Sorry sorry but nice joke like couldn't you make him your boyfriend to get to us." He pointed at Luke.

"Adam will you shutup." Daniel scolded his brother. Thats when Adam looked at everyones face and realized I wasn't joking around.

"Wait seriously? He is your boyfriend?" He looked disgusted pointing at Simon.

"Get out Adam and I don't want you in my room till you genuinely apologize to my boyfriend." I glared at him. He nodded his head and looked at Simon.

"I'm sorry I wasn't making fun I was laughing because I never thought he will be into boys. Sorry."

"Its ok." Simon looked at him and smile that smile didn't reach his eyes.

And Adam I still didn't feel like he was genuine but atleast he apologized. I stood and held Simon's hand and we walked out. I stood front of him.

"I'm sorry baby for Adam's behavior he isn't like this usually."

"Its ok." I kissed him and we walked down and all met Simon and Luke everything was going perfect. Everyone seemed to include Simon and Luke in conversation and Uncle Kai and Simon got along pretty well.

After a while Daniel and I were talking when and I noticed all are here except for Simon and Adam.

I went searching for Simon and saw them talking in kitchen I walked in and they both smiled at me and I was glad that they both were getting along.

They told me they will join us in a while I kissed Simon and walked away and I heard hiss sound went back and saw Adam crying in pain He slipped and without thinking I ran and picked him up.

I sat him on the chair and held his ankle looking for the pain and saw small cut on his foot so I cleaned the wound and once I was done helped him walk but he couldn't walk so I picked him and took him in living room his father came forward. But he was crying and held my hand so I sat with him and he was tired from crying so I took him in my room and he slept there.

I walked out I felt exhausted I sat on couch and Luke sat next to me and he told me that Simon had to leave I nodded my head and closed my eyes and fell asleep.

The next few days been pain in the ass with work and I haven't gotten chance to talk to Simon but I did text him once or twice he just replied with an ok.

Days kept running , work was getting to much my heart was aching for my baby I missed him so I decided to drop by today. I was having shower when I left , Adam was laying on my bed did I mention that his been hanging around a lot lately? And for some reason this doesn't feel good.

I ignored him and walked towards my closet before I change he came towards me and I was just in towel wrapped around me and he turned me around and held me in his arms I felt disgusted I pushed him but he tightened his grip and he pressed his lower half to mine and moaned I tried pushing him again but he removed my towel and got on his knees and everything happened so fast that I couldn't process and I realized when I moaned he wrapped his lips around my member and he sucked me off so fast , if it was before my relationship I would enjoy it but right now all I could think of is my Simon so I pushed Adam so hard and wrapped the towel around me I held him by his collar and threw him out of my room.

I dressed up so fast and took my phone and key and ran out and ignored Adam who was still on the floor. I got in my car and drove to Simon's place after reaching I ran to his apartment but the door was locked so when I called him I could hear his ringtone.

"Baby its me open the door." I knocked the door but no response maybe he is sleeping. So I called again its been 15 minutes and I was impatient so all I could do is break the door and I did.

I saw my baby on his bed but something didn't feel right so I walked slowly towards him and what I saw broke my heart , made it hard for me to breath , I

felt like my soul left my body.

I fell on my knees.

"No baby no you can't do that. NO." he was laying on his bed with his wrist bleeding. And there were pills nearby and some empty pills bottle I didn't know what to do I took a breath and my hands were shaking I took my phone and called Dad.

As soon as Dad picked.

"D-dad p-please h-help me , Dad." I heard movement.

"Whats wrong son where are you?"

"S-simon is laying l-lifeless D-dad please h-help me." I sobbed.

I don't know how long I was here crying suddenly arms held me I cried on Papa's chest and there were ambulance they took my baby. I was grateful that at least Luke and Finn knew where is Simon's place because I didn't know how to call ambulance without breaking down.

"He will be fine baby just stop crying lets go." Papa whispered I felt numb while getting up I saw a paper under his phone so I picked them both and we walked out Dad came and hugged me I broke down again.

In car I sat between Papa and Finn and both held me. Luke and Justin were in other car behind us.

"W-why would he do t-that?" I cried loud.

After reaching the hospital Dad and Papa were talking to the doctor while Finn , Luke and Justin kept me calm I was trying to understand what happened.

"The doctors still not saying anything but son just calm down I know what your feeling but just calm down ok?" I looked at Dad I remembered they told us the story of Papa being in hospital and it was hard for Dad.

"How did you do it Dad?" I whispered I had no energy to talk even when Dad hugged me.

"Have faith in him he will be fine." I nodded my head I pulled back Dad wiped my face.

Uncle Kai , Uncle Derek , Uncle Nolan and Uncle Aiden walked in together and everything was happening around me I felt distant I wasn't in right state of mind.

Someone's phone rang and I remembered the letter so I stood up and walked to washroom I got in a stall and sat there took deep breath I pulled the letter and it was his beautiful handwriting my tears fell yet again I wiped them off.

"I am sorry that you have to see me like this but somethings comes to an end but thats not the end for you just the end of me and our relationship. Being with you was one of the best decisions I ever made. Having you made me less insecure and less lonely. Meeting your family made me feel like I have my own family. You have no idea how badly I wanted to call your fathers Dad and Papa but I knew I had no rights to. Your Papa is an angel your so lucky baby and your Dad is a amazing and Finn he is the brother I NEVER had. Justin and Luke I'm gonna miss the two of you so much , Luke thank you for being my first friend. I'll never get to tell you this Nick but I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I wanted a future with you but I wasn't sure if you see yours with me or no because of the events happened recently but its ok at least I love you and thats enough for both of us. You made me the happiest but HE is right , you deserve someone better , someone good looking , someone who isn't insecure and someone fit. With me you will be a laughingstock but with HIM people will call you cute couple. I hate this goodbye but have to do it. I'll always love you and I know when you see me it will already be late. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NICOLAS MATTHEW EDWARDS-WILSON." I sobbed so loud.

"WHY BABY WHY?" I yelled. After I took deep breath I remembered something. 'HE' and 'HIM'. For some reason I pulled his phone and the lockscreen was our picture I kissed it and when I unlocked it was my picture looks like I was sleeping. I tried finding something or any clue but there was nothing until I saw his archived message and my blood boiled.

I read the messages and saw the pictures.

I left the stall one hand I held the letter in other the phone.

I ran till I reached the ICU dept I looked around all were looking at me including Daniel , Ian and Adam and I saw the culprit.

"YOU FUCKING BASTARD." I walked towards him and punched him with the fist I held the phone he fell down. I kicked his leg and Dad held me back.

"Leave me I want to kill him." Uncle Kai and Uncle Derek held him and helped him stand.

"Son calm down." I looked at Dad and my blurry eyes blocked my vision.

"How Dad? How?" I gave the letter to Dad and the phone to Uncle Kai.

Everything was pin drop silent I glared at that bastard but his head was lowered.

Dad sighed and Uncle Kai looked mad Dad walked to him and took the phone while Uncle Kai read the letter after a while.

"Kai take your son and leave now." Uncle Kai nodded his head and he looked at me with guilt he was about to pat my head I moved back he pulled his hand back and looked at his son.

And the echo sound of someone being slapped was loud enough Uncle Kai held his arm and pulled Adam out followed by Uncle Derek.

Daniel stayed.

Seems like everyone saw the letter and the messages.

Baby get up please I need you I'm sorry I kept work before you please baby.

I need you.