Chapter 15

NICK POV

Two days ago Simon got discharged and he's been home and the same silent treatment is going on despite the fact we sleep on same bed but that love feeling is gone deep down.

I love him still trust me but I am more mad at him but God I miss him.

I was laying on my bed and Simon was having a shower once he was done he walked out , Just so he doesn't feel uncomfortable I stood up to walk out.

"Nick." He whispered. God I have missed that voice so much. I stopped just couldn't turn back.

I didn't say aynthing just waiting for him to say.

"Its your room you don't have to leave and don't worry I'm moving out soon. And you don't have to stop living how you want and with whoever you want."

I turned around and looked at him.

"What are you saying?"

"Lets breakup." My eyes widened he bit his lower lip.

"What? Why?"

"Just." I walked towards him and stood there looking at him while he looked everywhere but me , he avoided my eyes.

"Don't you love me any m-more?" My voice cracked. That made him look into my eyes.

"I do."

"Then WHY?" I didn't mean to yell but it just happened. He flinched. That broke me.

"Because."

"Because what Simon." He looked into my eyes.

"You deserve better."

"What are you talking about?"

"Nick you deserve better." He repeated.

"And why do you decide who I deserve?"

"You should be with someone who is not dirty."

"Simon I don't understand."

"I'm dirty Nick I'm dirty and I'm used and you already showed me how dirty I am so lets end it here."

"Simon stop it you are not dirty and when did I show ?"

"when you ignored me."

"Simon you started first you pushed me away."

"Because I was scared." His tears fell.

"So was I scared but for you."

"Nick you made me believe I am just waste now."

"I never did anything like that Simon."

"Yes you did when you chose that Dylan guy."

"Where did Dylan come from?"

"You bought him between us." I lost it. I walked and punched the wall twice.

"NO ONE WAS IN BETWEEN US , YOU PUSHED ME , YOU GAVE ME THE SILENT TREATMENT AND NOW YOU WANT TO END US SO YOUR BLAMING A GUY THAT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH US." I yelled

"You spent days and hours with him and left me alone what about that?"

"You treated me like I was an outsider what about that?"

"Lets breakup."

"I WILL NOT."

"Why?"

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SIMON. I love you I can't imagine how life can be without you , If I had to choose between Your life and mine I will choose yours because mine is useless without you.

Simon I didn't know what to do when you were gone I was mentally losing it. If I was having a little hope then it was because I knew you are out there waiting for me to come get you.

And seeing you laying in blood I didn't know how to breath and then all the worst memories were back. And when you were at hospital unconscious I felt lonely I felt I had no one left.

When you pushed me then ignored me It did hit my male ego but deep down I was happy you were getting better even when you didn't need me anymore.

Simon you're my world now you're my everything I need you the most I can't lose you please Simon please Love." I fell on my knees and held his legs and cried and begged him.

Simon sat and wrapped him arms around me while sobbing.

"I love you too Nick I love you too. But I am too dirty. They used me made me feel so disgusted about myself." We held each other and after calming down I pulled back and cupped his face.

"Baby Simon you are not dirty got it I know what you went through and I will help you forget it but I'm never leaving you baby. You're mine and only mine." I closed the distance between our lips and kissed him. It was the best feeling.

We moved our lips in sync and Simon pulled back.

"What about?"

"What about what baby?"

"Dylan." He whispered.

"Whats this have to do with him?"

"Don't you like him?" I chuckled.

"Want Kate to kill me?"

"Who's Kate?"

"Dylan's Girlfriend." His eyes widened.

"We are just friends and met when our partners were at the hospital thats it." He looked embarrassed and his face was red.

"Sorry babe."

"I love when my baby is jealous." he playfully hit me I hissed. He looked down and saw my knuckle were bruised and we both looked at the wall I hit it had my blood on it. Simon hit me on my head.

"Why would you do that?"

"Well you said lets breakup and I lost it." I pouted. He went got first aid box and dressed my bruised knuckle.

After a while we laid on bed and I kissed his neck and sucked it he moaned. I moved and hovered him only for him to panic.

"Sshh I'm sorry baby."

"Sorry."

"Don't be." I held him in my arms.

"Lets try again." So we did and he panicked again. He was about to cry I kissed him.

"Let me try something ok and stop me if its too much." He nodded.

I moved down and removed his pant along his underwear. I got between his legs and kissed his thigh and sucked his inner thigh. I parted his legs and moved his legs up a little and moved his cheeks more apart and licked his hole he moaned. I sucked his hole and moved my tongue in and bought my hand on his member I spit my hand and moved it up and down while tongue thursting him.

My hand and tongue both moved faster He moaned and when he was near I moved my mouth and placed it on his hard member and he came deep in my throat I swallowed and sucked his head and pulled back laid next to him kissed his head and pulled blanket on us when he wanted to return the favor I said not now.

Days passed and Simon was getting better and our relationship was better than before. I stayed in touch with Dylan and Finn informed us about him getting married which is in few months and we had a lot to prepare everyone was busy in preparation.

The boys and I went to check for Tuxedos and after a long time we got what we were looking for.

The boys decided if we go have something since everyones been exhausted lately and now all are hungry so we walked to nearest restaurant. After being seating we ordered food and everyone ate silently seems like we had no energy to talk.

"Ok I am so full I feel to puke now." Justin hit Daniel on his head.

"We are still eating stop talking about puke."

"But you also just used the word 'puke'" Justin glared at him.

"Well you started first."

"So why copy me when you feel disgusted."

"Shut up guys." Ian rolled his eyes.

"Sometimes I forget that you are all grown up by the amount of time you guys still fight."

"Well Ian your brother starts every time."

"You know what I un-invite you from my wedding. You are ban."

"Hey there is no such word." Daniel raised his brow.

"And that's none of your business."

"I am your best man."

"Well now your not." Before anyone of them Say anything I stood.

"I'm done with the two of you. Lets go babe." I held Simon's hand and we said bye and walked out but not before I pay for the two of us.

"Where are we going?" we walked towards my car and held the passenger door open and once Simon got in I closed the door and walked to drivers seat.

"There is a place I want to show you." And I drove and in 20 minutes I slowed down and searched for parking.

"Is that the museum we have seen in videos?" One day he was scrolling through social media he showed me this museum and it looked really nice. Its far from our home so I thought since we are already here for our Tuxedos so why not stop here for a while.

"Yes baby it is the same one."

After we walk in I saw Simon's eyes lit I was happy seeing my baby happy. We just stayed around for like 2 hours just seeing everything in detail and it was kinda Museum date.