Chapter 20

LUKE POV

A year later in Canada Nick's body healed. His lungs were treated. It was matter of time till he wakes up but it took another two years till he opened his eyes.

Yes 3 years later and my bestfriend is now awake and eating hospital's food.

The time Dan , Ian and I came to Canada they stayed with me here for 3 months and after they leave I didn't see them till next year that when I went to visit them and stayed for a month and this third year we haven't seen each other but we do have video call everyday.

Who says long distance doesn't work? If you love someone so much and willing to wait for them then you can survive the long distance.

A week ago Ryan told me they will remove the wires from Nick because this is just torture for his soul and after I spoke to Ian and Danny they convinced me to Let go and I still wasn't ready but I did wanted Dad and Papa to make the Decision and I was about to call them but before that I heard the beep sound of machines and guess what.

He made it my strong bestfriend made it.

"Can you now at least tell me how long I have been out?" His voice was raspy.

"4 years."

"What? And yet you didn't give up?" My eyes teared up.

"How could I? You were my first Family I couldn't just let you go." I wiped my tears.

"Where is everyone?"

"No one other than Ian and Dan knows I found you." I noticed how his face fell.

"Hows he?" He whispered.

"I don't know I haven't been in touch with anyone else but how much I heard from Ian and Dan that everyone sort of moved on well except Papa gone into depression and I haven't had the guts to face them after I lashed out at them 4 years ago."

"When we going back?"

"After you're discharged."

After that he asked how I found him and I told him everything and he cried hugging me.

Lets hope everything gets better.

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SIMON POV

Have you ever felt like you are just an extra in the world? I have.

Have you ever hated your self so much that you wished you wanna end your life? I have.

Have you ever spent the last four years of your life cursing your self? I have.

The last 4 years been the worst years of my life worst than when I was in orphan , worst than being bullied.

I miss him so much that I hate myself for not trusting the love of my life.

Just once I want to see him and beg him for forgiveness and I wont be surprised if he never forgive me. Even if his soul comes down and tells me he doesn't forgive me I will be fine just wanna see him once.

I always sleep in a hope that I will see him in my dream but I am being punished for treating him how I did when all I had to do was listen to him.

The last four years I tried moving on but its not easy if it wasn't for Papa and Dad I wouldn't be the manager of The Blue Restaurant. I have been working here since 3 years and I got promoted as Manager.

My coworker Paul have been asking me out since a year and I always turn him down until a month ago Finn and Justin told me its time to move on I don't want to because I still love someone that I can't replace him ever but then also I agreed with Paul just one date.

I told him everything about Nick and how I still love him. Paul told me he wont replace Nick but he wants me to be happy. Do I wanna be happy? Yes but with my Nick.

I was now ready in simple casual dress I saw my reflection in mirror. I look the same but yet still I feel something is missing in my life. I bring my hand near my lips and kiss my ring. My eyes tears up.

"Hey you need to let it go." Finn whispered.

"I can't Finn he will always be in my heart no matter what."

"He will be in our heart but I am sure he wants you to be happy." I sniff and kiss the ring once again.

Ever since I took it back from Luke I never removed it. Only if I didn't remove it before. I sob.

"Sshh don't cry you will look ugly." I playfully punch Justin.

"Lets get this one date over with." Just on time I heard car honk.

I said bye to the guys after receiving 'Good luck'.

I walked out of the house with my heart beat going crazy.

Does this feel normal or wrong?

I never looked at any guy before or after Nick and now 4 years later I am going on a date with a guy. He is handsome indeed but my Nick? He was just one gem he was my angel on earth.

With a deep breathe I walk towards the car and Paul being the gentleman opens the car door for me to enter.

"You look handsome." He kissed my cheek. I felt my cheeks turning red.

"So do you." I whispered. And took a seat.

He walks towards the drivers seat and start the car.

The ride to the Restaurant was small so we sat comfortably in silent. He parked out of Italian Restaurant and Oh boy this restaurant looks so beautiful.

We walked in and he had reservation so once we seated and ordered we had small talks till the food was served.

After the restaurant he drove us to the beach and it was nice weather.

We walked a little then sat at the sand and watched people around and kids playing. Everything reminds me of him.

"So?"

"So." We chuckled.

"Thank you Simon for agreeing to this."

"No thank you Paul for this I guess I needed it."

"I don't know if we will get this again or no but I would love to go out with you again and no pressure." I smiled.

"This feels good at some point but I don't know if I'm ready yet. I don't know if I will ever be ready to be honest. I want to move on I try but I can't. He was my whole world Paul. He was my first at everything whether its a date or kiss or boyfriend or first to hold my hand. I never thought I would like someone let alone love someone but then he walked into my life and things changed for me.

Though I thought he had a boyfriend but I couldn't stop wanting to see him or hear him or just breath in his existence. He was the light to my dark life and yet I fucked up. I fucked up a big time I was few days away to being his husband but my shit got me and I ruined my own house and I will never forgive my self never." Paul wrapped his arms around me and I sobbed. I broke down.

"Sshh it wasn't your fault. You got insecure."

"No I messed everything up so it is my fault. Just like now it's supposed to be our date and here I am crying." I felt Paul's lips on my forehead.

"Its ok." I looked up staring into Paul's eyes. Maybe this is it for me maybe this is time to finally move on. I felt Paul's breathe on my lips he was leaning towards me and I felt my heartbeat go faster and faster. I don't want to freak out but I am scared.

What do I do? Kiss him or push him away?

Isn't it like I will be cheating on Nick?

But Nick's gone right?

I don't know what to do but Paul's lips were coming towards mine in slow mo.

I closed my eyes and I let the fate decide.

And I felt his lips go higher and kiss the tip of my nose. Just like Nick.

How can I move on when in every move of Paul will remind me of Nick?

Before I open my eyes I felt his lips on mine.

His soft lips are just like Nick's. But Nick's kisses always took me to heaven will Paul's do the same?

When I was about to respond to the kiss Paul moved back.

"I don't want to scare you." He whispered. And I remembered that I let someone else kiss me and that freaked me out but I tried breathing so I don't make a fool out of myself.

"Hey hey take a deep breathe its ok you're fine just breathe in ya good now breathe out. Very good." He held me in his arms.

"I'm fine." I whispered.

"Was it too much?" I heard his concern.

"I don't know."

"I am sorry I shouldn't have done it too soon." I pulled back and sniffed wiping my tears.

"Sorry."

"Don't be. It was my fault Simon. Now come on will go one place before we call it a day."

We drove to one place that teared up my eyes for the nth time in a day.

We walked in The diner which I worked back then when I first met Nick. The place Nick and I always came to.

"Hey are you ok?" I nodded my head.

Paul went to order and he came with strawberry milk shake and Oreo milk shake seeing his drink reminded me of Nick. I bite my lower lip but my eyes betrayed me and tears fell.

"What happened?" Paul cupped my face. After keeping the drinks on the table near us.

"Memories." I whispered I felt being watched but I was so occupied and Paul pecked my forehead and wrapped his arms around me and I hugged him back and when we pulled after I calm down.

I turn to see who is watching me and I feel my self forgetting how to breathe.

Thats not possible right?

He can't be here right?

He's dead isn't it?

And slowly that guy here backed away and left I was to stunned to talk.

"Paul did you see the guy standing there?"

"Yes what about him?"

"Was he really here?"

"Who?"

"That boy?"

"Ya I saw a boy standing but why? Do you know him?" Without answering him I ran out I searched for him and I heard Paul calling me but I ignored him until I saw him sitting behind the diner where I always sat.

"Nick? Is that really you?" He looked up and his eyes were unshed tears. He stood up and he nodded his head.

"Simon." He whispered and I felt my heart skip a beat.

"Simon?" I heard Paul behind me.

Front of me was the love of my life that I lost 4 years ago who I thought was dead and behind me was the guy who tried making me happy and took me out for a date which was nice and who took care of me while I was having a panic attack.

What Do I do? Simple.

I run into his arms and kissed him in full force. His hand snaked around my waist the kiss was exactly how it was four years ago.

I sobbed after pulling back and hugged him but after the hug all I wanted to do is slap him so I did.

"Ouch what was that for?" I missed that voice.

"How dare you leave me for four fucking years?" I yelled at him. And sobbed again. He wrapped his arms around me.

"I thought I lost you completely when you returned me the ring and I didn't want to live without you."

"Don't you ever leave me again." I pulled back.

"I wont." he promised and we hugged and kiss again.

"Simon?" I turned around.

"Luke?" I pulled from Nick and went and hugged Luke.

"Do you see what I am seeing Luke? Nick is back our Nick is back. You did it Luke you actually kept your promise."

"How could I not? I couldn't let my bestfriend go and I wanted our family to be completed again." I turned to Nick.

"Nick promise me you're here and wont leave me again?"

"I promise you baby." Baby I closed my eyes.

"Lets go home I asked Dan and Ian to ask everyone to be at home." I nodded my head I saw Paul standing with a smile.

"Paul I am sorry. You know how much effected I was with Nick not being here and you're a good person and you deserve someone who can be with you and love you its just not me I can't be that person but I must say I had an amazing day. I will forever be grateful to you So thankyou." I went to him and kissed his cheek and kept my lips a little longer on his cheek and I swear I heard a growl.

"Did you just growl wolfie boy." Nick just shrugged.

"Its ok Simon all I wanted was to see you happy and now that your happiness is back I think my mission is completed and sorry Nick." Paul cupped my face and kissed my forehead and gave me a loving smile and he left.

Nick came and aggressively wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me to him self.

"Mine." He had a cute frown on his face I chuckled and pecked his cheek he smiled.

"Relax Mr Alpha."

After a while the three of us returned home.