Chapter 23

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NICK POV

Its been a month since am back home and weeks since the trip , things are already much better.

If four years ago Simon and I would've been married then next month would be our 4th anniversary so that's what Simon came up with.

For us to marry on same day we were supposed to.

Who am I to say no?

So next month is our wedding finally.

Today I woke up early and cooked breakfast for everyone and I asked Justin and Finn if I can take Kev out.

In a month we did bond but I wanted to have time with him and get to know my nephew more.

And his parents said and I quote 'he is your nephew , you don't need permission to take him out' so here we are.

"Uncle Ny." He was seated at the back.

I asked Simon to join us but he said I needed this time alone with Kev.

"Yes Kev?"

"Where going?" I smiled at him.

"First zoo then park." He cheered and clapped his hands.

Reaching zoo I carried Kev and paid for our tickets and we walked in I let him walk and explore around.

Almost every animal he saw in the zoo yet he was energetic little angel. I carried him

and kissed him on his cheeks.

"Had fun ?"

"Yes Uncle Ny." And he wrapped his little arms around my neck.

I took him to cafeteria and asked him what he wants to eat he said nuggets so I got him chicken nuggets with apple juice and for myself I got chicken burger and soda.

"Now time for park." He cheered again.

No wonder kids have so energy for everything. Seeing Kev being energetic and playing around the park makes me happy that he trusts me , that he loved spending time with me.

It was almost getting dark At the park so I thought we better go back home.

"Kev its time to go home."

"No." He pouted. Aww

"Its getting late. Papa and Dada will be worried." He was still pouting.

"We will have more and more outing later on." The Pout didn't disappear.

"Ok you stay here I will go home but before that I will go eat ice cream bye." I walked just a step he held my leg.

"I want ice cream too."

"Then straight home ok?"

"Yes." I picked him up And he gave me a kiss on my cheeks. I smile and drove to ice cream parlor and after that we head to home and he ran to his fathers.

"How was your day with Uncle Ny?"

"Happy I love Uncle Ny." I walked to him and ruffled his hairs.

"I love you too Kev." Kev was repeating everything we did today to his fathers and they were listening with full concentration. I want that too. I want my own family.

I could've had my own family if things wouldn't have gone wrong.

I would have been a married man.

I would have been a father by now.

But things always had to go wrong for me. Am I that unlucky?

All I ever wanted was to be happy but that never works and I am so scared that again I will lose my family for the Third time.

Am so scared that I feel like I cannot breath.

"-athe Nick breathe."

"Nick son breathe."

Everything seems blurry and I hear voice which are not clear. Suddenly I feel am in someones embrace. Once I calm down everything gets clear.

Dad held me in his arms and Papa , Simon , Justin are surrounding me looking worried and Finn is holding Kev in his arms.

Seems like my emotions got me and I had a panic attack. Once I was Calm Dad wiped my tears but more tears fell I pulled back and ran from there for some reason I felt claustrophobic.

I ran till I was at the backyard got on my knees and screamed so loud and cried.

"Its ok son take it out." Dad wrapped his arms around me.

"We are here son we are here." After a while my cries died but I was sniffing.

"Why Dad w-why always m-me?" My voice cracked.

"So-" I cut Dad.

"First t-the issue w-with Finn and I l-leave for 2 years then t-this and I-I miss 4 years why me Dad? Why can't I be happy?"

"Its ok son everything will be fine I promise. Now we will never let you down." We stayed quiet and Dad held me just like when I was kid. It felt good.

"I h-hated the look on you and Papa that night." I whispered.

"I am sorry baby." Papa came and Dad held us both. I was sandwiched in between.

"You never disappoint us son that night I didn't know what I was feeling may be because I never thought you would do that to Simon."

"I would never do that to Simon Dad."

"We know baby its just the situation got us."

"I couldn't forget your face Dad , your disappointed face and Papa when you ignored my existence I felt I lost my world and Simon returning the ring was the last straw. All I could think of before jumping off cliff was your faces." I whispered.

"I-I am so sorry baby." Papa's voice held sadness and guilt.

"Son promise us you would never do something like that again."

"I promise."

"And please son forgive us for how we handled the situation that night. We would change it if we could all of us would."

"I know." After that we stayed quiet and being held by parents was something I craved for it.

After that we went in I heard small footsteps and Kev wrapped his arms around my legs. I got on my knees and held him in my arms.

"Are you ok Uncle Ny?"

"I am." I kissed his head. He pulled back.

"No crying please." And gave me a puppy eyes.

"Sure." I wiped my face to show him I am not crying.

"Kev lets go watch cartoon." His eyes lit.

"Yay lets go Nona." Papa took his hand and he went but Kev stopped and looked at Dad.

"Nana come." Dad shook his head in playful manner but tagged along them.

"You ok Nick?" Finn held my shoulder.

"Ya."

"You can talk to me." I shrugged.

"Am good now." He nodded his head. Justin pat my head and left with his husband.

I was about to leave but saw Simon standing with a sad smile. He walked to me and wrapped his arms around me.

"I know I have said this many time but I am sorry I still feel its all my fault."

"No baby I was just thinking and got panic attack and I already forgave you though it wasn't your fault." I held him tight.

"It was."

"No."

"I love you Nick." He cried.

"Shh I love you too Simon."

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The next few days were better than the previous and we all were busy with preparation of the wedding.

The person who is more excited than Simon and I is Kev.

He was happy that his both Uncle's are getting married. He doesn't understand what is marriage but thanks to Luke who put an idea in his head that once Simon and I are married he will get a cousin.

And now daily he asks us when are we getting married even when we tell him daily but he is a impatient boy.

Justin , Luke and Dan took me out for bachelors party though I said I am not interested were as Ian and Finn took Simon for shopping well thats what they told us.

Simon and I did go for tasting the cake and god every cake tastes better than the other well we took Kev too and he disliked a lot of them but chose red velvet cake so we agreed to it because it was nice.

Kev even suggested why not put Ice cream instead of cake. Kids will be kids but then we thought why not add ice cream in venue for kids well adults can eat it too so we chose few flavors and ordered.

Can't wait to marry the love of my life.

I even invited Ryan and his grandparents without them I wouldn't be here anymore and I even contacted Dylan the guy I met at the hospital while Simon was admitted and invited him and his girlfriend Kate which now I learnt is his wife and they have a beautiful daughter who is 2 he shared her picture her name is Ashley.

In these 4 years that I missed I learnt that my grandparents that I haven't seen since I was 20 passed away and Dad's Dad also passed away but when I was 14. I wish they were here to attend my wedding. they showered Finn and I with love when we were born even if we used to see them just during the holidays.

We haven't had time to rest properly and the wedding was almost 3 days later and every single person seems to be busy with something.

3 days turned to 2 then 1 and finally was few hours and Papa made sure Simon and I don't see each other and asked Kev to make sure we don't meet.

And finally the day arrived were Simon and I said I DO..

As soon as we got married in 2 hours we were at the flight and traveled to paris for our honeymoon.

You may think why France ? Right but why not? Isn't it romantic I mean a date with my husband at the Eiffel Tower.

Despite the ups and down in our life we were finally happy. And Married.

This isn't our happy ending

But

Its our HAPPY BEGINNING.....

THE END...

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THERE IS EPILOG SOON

THANK YOU FOR LOVING SINCE I LAID MY EYES ON YOU

AND

ITS SEQEL DAMN, HIS EYES

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