• Desire •

Layla's POV

Then I saw Sinn's hands forming tight fists and his face full of a kind of rage I'd never seen before.

After finishing telling him everything I sat in an awkward silence as Sinn didn't utter a word and I just looked at his tightened jaw.

"I'll help you kill that motherfucker."

His voice was low but contained immense hatred that even I would be afraid, but the man it is directed towards deserves every bit of it.

I finally feel like someone is sharing this emotion of hatred towards my father as I do.

He looked at me, his eyes furious, "'ll do whatever it takes to end him. You have my word."

I smiled, I know you will.

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It's been more than 7 months since I told Sinn about everything my father did and since he gave me his words to help me in ending him.

And since then as he promised, he went to work the next day and has been collecting whatever information he can on him. But it's not as easy as it seems.

It seems like my dear father asked for Papa Don's aid and has been hiding behind him like some fucking pussy.

And since the unit I'm in and everyone including the Three Devils, we're all under Papa Don as he's the head, we can't go against him if we want to be called traitors and get our heads off.

But.

But, my dear Sinn told me something he's been working on for a long time. He's attempting to overthrow Papa Don's rule in the mafia and has been working over this single motive most of his life.

He gave me one more specific detail that this unit I'm under, was his plan since before they started electing to choose members who would initially be loyal not to the mafia but to them; the Three Devils.

And he doesn't need to say it, he has my everything.

The other two, Theo and Luca are also included in the plan since they've proven to be loyal throughout their stay and it's been more than a year since we came here.

After training and working out stuff on how to murder my father all day, I finally went up the stairs to Sinn's portion and chugged down a whole ass water bottle.

I sat in the living room eating some fruits which I found in the fridge that Sinn cut for me every day saying I need to take care of my health.

I can skip them but he's rather strict. He checks if I ate them or not and I can rebel but I don't want to waste his efforts when all he's doing is for my own well-being.

I watched some TV, waiting for Sinn. He's getting back late these past few weeks of course being caught up in work and working up stuff on my father putting up more load on him, I'm not in a place to complain.

Sitting there for 2 hours, I know it was cause instead of watching TV I had my eyes fixed on the clock.

I didn't know when my eyes felt heavy and I dozed off on the sofa.

I felt a warmth surrounding me when I opened my eyes.

I adjusted my eyes in the moonlit room and noticed I was in Sinn's bedroom. And the warmth surrounding me belonged to someone's body.

"You didn't wait for me again." Sinn's deep voice teased and an instant smile formed on my lips. He doesn't mean for me to wait for him but still teases me for it.

"And you're late again," I replied, snuggling deeper into his warmth, my back against his front but I felt him stiffen by my movement.

Realization struck me that I had unconsciously grinded against him and I felt a blush rise from my neck.

He didn't say anything to me nor did he move away. He stayed the way he was.

It's been 7 months since the last time we were intimate. Yes I've been keeping count.

I'll admit he and I, but mostly him has been extremely busy that some days I didn't even get to see him for almost a whole day on repeat and only see a glimpse of him walking by the corridor.

But when is that enough?

So forget him pitting his hands on me. I am almost close to begging him to touch me but I'm scared that he might not be in the mood because of all the work piling up and I might be forcing him to do it.

And he's such a gentleman, he won't even stop.

So everything has led me to be deprived for almost 7 months.

I repeat, 7 months. That's how long I've yesrned for his touch.

I feel the wind rush the curtain with them.

It's windy outside but my whole body feels hot with desire and silence of his isn't giving me any signals, so I buckle up my courage and not being able to control my desire, to do something.

I tell my brain what worst could happen.

He'll just stop me and say he's not in the mood and is tired. It'll be embarrassing but I have to be understanding.

I lean against him further but he puts his hand on my forearm to stop me.

My heart sinks in my stomach as I feel embarrassed and yet a part of me is sad that he stopped me.

A negative thought occurred to me which has been silently whispering for the past months but this time it was a bit loud; 'he doesn't want you anymore.'

I fell into my negative thoughts and felt dread suck me when his next words sucked me out of the darkness I had let myself be consumed with.

"I don't think you should force yourself."

I flipped on my other side in a swift motion facing his face and he was a bit surprised by my movement.

"Just asking to know so we're both on the same page, have you not touched me these past months cause you think I don't want to?" I ask him, my heart beating loudly in anticipation.

He looks down and I know from his face that I'm fucking correct.

"After all you went through, I thought you needed time and I didn't want to force you into anything."

I closed my eyes sighing loudly and open them back up meeting with a confused Sinn looking back at me.

Ugh lord, he looks so cute that I'm getting turned on.

"I thought you were tired of working all day and won't be in the mood so I didn't force you."

Sinn's eyes widened with realization and he let out a breath that seemed like he has been holding for those 7 months.

"I couldn't bring myself to be around you when I wanted you so bad. I was afraid you'd be forced to fulfill my desires."

We both looked at each other and the lack of communication between us that we laughed.

And yes we, Sinn laughed.

"Now that we're on the same page, may I?" I asked for his consent and he looked at me with uncertainty in his eyes but I could find the desire in them too which he was trying to suppress.

"Are you sure-"

"I have been burning for you these past 7 fucking months. Wanting your touch. Does it answer you?" I tell him my voice desperate cause I am.

I am desperate for him.

This time I saw a smirk forming on his face as he turned me around to our previous position, my back facing his front

I wrapped my arms around him embracing him. Our bodies against one another. I smiled, my mouth was just against his ear.

"I love you."

He turned his face and rested it to look at me while still being over me and not letting me get suffocated by his body weight.

He returned my smile.

"I love you more."

He didn't wait another instance after these words left his mouth as his lips were against mine, our body bare of any clothing stopping it from feeling the warmth of our skin colliding against the other.

Sinn's hand unraveled places only he's explored of my body. Leaving me with sweet pleasure as his mouth left soft wet kisses all over it.

He proceeded to fetch a condom from his side drawer when I grabbed his bare arm.

His darkened eyes gazed at me with intensity as the words escaped from between my lips.

"I want you. Now."

His eyes narrowed down at me when a small playful smile contorted his face.

"I'll be a moment." He leaned towards his dressing drawer when I pulled his body towards on me.

My palm making contact with his glistened skin. My front pressed under his.

I could make out his heartbeat from how close he was.

Our nose grazed as his ice gaze didn't leave mine for even a second.

I left lazy kisses over his jaw when I stop, hovering over his ears.

My lips touch the end of his lobe.

"I want to feel you in me."

It didn't take me twice to voice my needs.

With one glance over me he had me pinned under his body, his lips owning mine in a passionate hold.

The coolness of his rings pierced through my flaming skin when I was filled with him and my body released itself.

Making up for the past months in one night.