Chapter 498: 497: He Actually, Discovered Feelings for Xiaolang (One Update)

Song Zhizhi was increasingly finding Ji Baixin, this woman, to have issues.

The first time she met Ji Baixin, though she thought the woman was cold and haughty, she didn’t find her as irritating as she does now!

Especially when she saw Ji Baixin talking nonsense about Xiaolang in the media, she nearly lost her temper. Yet, Ji Baijian asked to give Ji Baixin some time to adjust herself, to temporarily refrain from pursuing the matter any further. Intriguingly, Ji Baijian was also giving Ji Baixin time to calmly deal with her past wounds.

She had always wondered, when Yin Qin didn’t show up at their wedding all of a sudden. Even though he genuinely loved Ji Baixin, most likely seduced by her, she couldn’t help but feel that Yin Qin would never intentionally hurt someone for fun. Since he decided to marry Luo Xiaolang, he wouldn’t have thought about abandoning Xiaolang at the wedding and disappearing. She was always thinking, could something have happened? Perhaps something happened to Ji Baixin that forced Yin Qin to take responsibility.

Later, the incident of Ji Baixin being violated by Weng Cheng’s men was exposed, and she understood everything.

That silly Yin Qin, felt that everything happened because of him, thus, he developed a massive sense of guilt towards Ji Baixin. Accompanied by his deeply ingrained fondness for Ji Baixin, he was forced to break up with Luo Xiaolang under such circumstances.

She always felt, the feelings Yin Qin held for Ji Baixin were no longer pure.

Based on her understanding of Yin Qin, he absolutely couldn’t tolerate Ji Baixin bad-mouthing Luo Xiaolang in the media. His character was clear about love and hate. But the fact that Ji Baixin was talking about Xiaolang like that and Yin Qin never once refuted her in the media or even chosen to remain silent when he was present, showed that he was just tolerating and enduring Ji Baixin, taking out all his patience. This was just acceptance, not love.

If it were love, he would want his partner to be like him, he would have expectations of his partner! It was because of insufficient love that he chose to tolerate without any boundaries, accepting her as she is.

Song Zhizhi sighed a little when she thought about this, saying, “Perhaps Yin Qin doesn’t like Ji Baixin that much anymore.”

“He does.” Luo Xiaolang answered seriously.

“How do you know?” Song Zhizhi laughed.

This silly Xiaolang, does he know what liking someone implies?

“I saw Yin Qin and Baixin kissing when I went to return the money.”

“…” That damn him.

Luo Xiaolang said, “Isn’t it said only those in love do such things?”

That dog of a man, Yin Qin!

“Throughout my relationship with Yin Qin, he only took the initiative once truly, and that was his proposal. He never did afterward. I didn’t use to find kissing a big deal earlier, but that particular time made me realize, only two people really in love would do it.” Luo Xiaolang casually said.

It seems that when one is genuinely touched, they will have such feelings, right?

Xiaolang indeed liked Yin Qin, once upon a time he really liked him.

But despite liking him so much, he still endured all the hurt caused by Yin Qin.

That man Yin Qin, it would still not be enough even if he died a thousand times!

“By the way, I heard you’re having a competition with someone?” Song Zhizhi didn’t want to tie Yin Qin to Luo Xiaolang anymore. Let Yin Qin goes after his first love and ventures further down the path of recklessness. He deserved it. Now, she just wants to care for Xiaolang and know whether he will be able to face the world alone. In the upcoming long period, many unpredictable factors may arise, and she may not have the time to look after Xiaolang.

“Uh, it’s Joe. I heard he is a top anchor and is stupendously good at gaming.” Luo Xiaolang replies, having seen it on the bullet screen (live chat).

“Haven’t you seen him operate?”

“Not interested.”

“If you know yourself as well as your enemy, you can win hundred battles with no danger.”

“I don’t care much about winning or losing. If I can play, I will. If not, then it doesn’t matter.” Luo Xiaolang seemed indifferent.

This kind of personality, this kind of attitude towards anything where she can go with the flow, is it good or bad!

Some say that unhappiness comes from dissatisfaction.

Is it truly a good thing to be too easily satisfied?

Song Zhizhi said nothing at that moment. She was worried that Xiaolang’s personality might leave her vulnerable to harm, but having such a personality in this world was indeed precious.

The two casually chatted for a while.

Little tiger hadn’t woken up yet and Song Zhizhi didn’t stay much longer as she had work.

She went back home.

Ji Baijian was sitting on the huge bed in the room, reading some ancient texts.

As soon as Song Zhizhi returned, she couldn’t help but curse, “That damn Yin Qin!”

Ji Baijian gave a faint smile, “What did he do to upset you?”

“Is he even a man? The money Luo Xiaolang returned, he actually accepted it?” Song Zhizhi was disgruntled.

They shouldn’t insult Yin Qin too much in front of Xiaolang.

She always felt now that Luo Xiaolang didn’t even want to hear his name anymore, why bother bringing him up again.

“Maybe Luo Xiaolang was very resolute.”

“Even so, he shouldn’t have let Xiaolang see him kissing your sister!” Song Zhizhi complained.

“…” Isn’t that a normal action between lovers?

“All men are beasts!” Song Zhizhi fumed.

“My dear.” Ji Baijian put down the ancient text he was reading.

Song Zhizhi turned to face him.

“Don’t get too riled up over others, my dear. Not to mention, you might be unknowingly pregnant, it’s harmful.”

“Stop dreaming, I have accepted the fact that the little tyrant of your family is lost!”

“He will find his way home eventually.”

“I am also angry, I won’t open the door for him anymore.”

“My dear.”

“Don’t say a word. Just the thought of Yin Qin now infuriates me; don’t try to cheer me up.”

“Did my dear feel that opening the door for our son is something that can make you happy?” Someone said, with a handsome smile on his face.

“…” What did she just say!

Meanwhile.

Ji Baijian’s phone suddenly rang.

Ji Baijian looked at the caller ID, hesitating for two seconds.

“Who is it?” Song Zhizhi asked.

For some reason, she was in a state of high alert during this time.

Theoretically, now that Qian Guanshu was dead, they had one less formidable enemy and should have some momentary relief. However, for some unknown reason, she was still restless, constantly feeling like something major was about to happen.

Therefore, every time Ji Baijian’s phone rang, she would inexplicably feel her heartbeat increase, filled with anxiety.

“It’s Yin Qin.”

Song Zhizhi nearly spat up blood.

It’s that damn Yin Qin again, which nearly scared her to death.

She turned around, “I’ll go take a bath.”

Ji Baijian nodded, then answered the call.

“Yin Qin.”

“I hope I’m not interrupting your planning?”

“You will be soon.”

“…” When did Ji Baijian become so audacious.

Ji Baijian asked, “What’s it you want to talk about?”

“Um… I want to ask you out for a drink.”

“That’s not happening.”

“I thought so too.”

“Do you have some issues with Baixin?” Ji Baijian asked.

“Not that. It’s just…” Yin Qin stumbled.

Ji Baijian was starting to get impatient.

Yin Qin said, “Nevermind, it’s nothing. You should go work on your plan.”

“…”

“I’m hanging up now.”

With that, Yin Qin ended the call.

After hanging up, he stood on the balcony, smoking a cigarette.

He was actually feeling quite stifled.

That night, as Baixin had suggested, he went home and had dinner with her. The meal was cooked by Baixin herself. After dinner, Yin Qin did the dishes. In that moment, he felt a bit of the warmth of a small family. He thought that if things continued this way with Baixin, it wouldn’t necessarily be a bad thing.

After dinner, they took a break. Baixin peeled some fruit, they both had some, and then they each took a bath in turn.

Yin Qin entered Baixin’s room for the first time.

Some things are inevitable between two adults in a relationship.

That was also the case for them.

However…

In the end, it didn’t happen.

Baixin couldn’t overcome her inner hurdle. When he approached her, she rejected him. When he truly drew near her, she abruptly pushed him away. The two… remained in a standoff for quite a while. He heard Baixin say, “I’m sorry, Yin Qin. I can’t do it.”

Yin Qin nodded, silently.

He got up and went to the bathroom to take another shower.

It was not to calm his emotions, but… he was actually relieved that Baixin had pushed him away.

He actually… didn’t want to.

He really didn’t want to.

The moment he saw Baixin, all he could think of was Luo Xiaolang.

After his shower, he naturally didn’t go back to Baixin’s room. He felt very stifled.

He had always thought that he liked Baixin, had loved her for so many years. He had even managed to remain a virgin for a long time, just to save himself for her. He always thought about what would happen if one day the cold-hearted Baixin suddenly fell in love with him, if she regretted…

Now.

He suddenly realized that he no longer desired it at all.

He didn’t want to make love to Baixin one bit.

It definitely wasn’t because he scorned Baixin’s body, but because his mind was preoccupied with someone else.

How ridiculous.

At this time, he discovered his feelings for Luo Xiaolang.

He felt very uncomfortable.

He remained on the balcony smoking.

He was even a little panicked. He was truly scared to admit the fact that he no longer loved Baixin, whom he had loved for so many years, or at least not as much… He smoked a lot, but could never calm his emotions. He called Ji Baijian, truly stifled, wanting someone to accompany him for a drink, wanting someone to talk to.

However…

However, it was all of his own making, and he had to tough it out.

He heard Baixin’s voice from behind him, “Yin Qin.”

Yin Qin put out the half-smoked cigarette in his hand.

He turned to look at Baixin.

Fortunately, at this moment, Baixin thought his unhappiness was due to her rejection, so the two wouldn’t end up in a standoff because of Luo Xiaolang.

Baixin walked up to Yin Qin and leaned into his arms.

Yin Qin was silent for a few seconds before hugging her back.

“Give me some time, I was too hasty. I thought I had forgotten all about the past, but it turns out it’s all still fresh in my mind. It’s not that I’m rejecting you, I’m only rejecting the past me who was violated.” Baixin said, her eyes reddening.

Every time she thought about the harm done to her that night, all the sleeping sensory organs in the depths of her body were triggered into violent rejection.

She didn’t know how long it would take for her to overcome this psychological barrier.

She even thought Yin Qin could help her get over the shadow, but it turned out that she still couldn’t.

It was so hard to bear.

“It’s okay, don’t blame yourself, we have a long life ahead.” Yin Qin comforted.

He thought.

Indeed, life is so very long. He suddenly, lost interest.

“Can you sleep with me in the future?” Baixin asked Yin Qin, looking up at him.

Yin Qin was silent for a few seconds.

“I want to gradually get used to you.”

Yin Qin smiled.

He said, “I can’t guarantee I won’t lose control.”

Baixin looked at him.

He said, “Don’t push yourself so hard, give yourself more time.”

Baixin pursed her lips.

“I’m not in a hurry.”

Baixin looked at Yin Qin.

Not in a rush?

Why, when she pushed him away, did he show that expression, that look of great sorrow?

She even thought she had hurt Yin Qin, which is why he had been smoking on the balcony ever since he took the shower.

She also felt somewhat guilty.

If she had decided to be with Yin Qin, she should have let him enjoy the benefits.

But at this moment, he was telling her he was not in a hurry.

Was it just a form of protection for her?!