Chapter 590: Extra 003 Successful Courtship (First Update)

“Xiaolang, please marry me again!”

With a thud, Yin Qin knelt on the ground.

The sound was quite loud.

Luo Xiaolang’s brows furrowed deeply.

The two looked at each other.

For a long time.

Luo Xiaolang said, “Are you possessed?”

Just moments ago, he had avoided her, now he suddenly wants her to marry him.

She really didn’t know what he was thinking.

“I’m very serious. Very, very serious.” Yin Qin faced Luo Xiaolang and was somewhat agitated. He was so excited that his words were slightly incoherent. Sweat could be seen on his forehead and he was kneeling straight in front of her.

Luo Xiaolang remained unmoved.

Yin Qin suddenly got up from the ground.

Luo Xiaolang knitted her brows even tighter, not knowing what he was about to do.

After standing up, Yin Qin seemed to take a deep breath.

He felt that now he couldn’t manage to speak clearly. Rather, he should express himself through his actions.

Without hesitation, he stepped forward and embraced Luo Xiaolang.

Then he kissed her.

Luo Xiaolang was taken aback.

At times, she truly couldn’t understand Yin Qin’s thought process. She really didn’t understand why he had suddenly changed completely.

All she could feel was his urgent kisses on her lips, somewhat frantic.

It was as if he was trying to express something, yet he also seemed afraid of rejection.

Then, Luo Xiaolang pushed him away.

She used a lot of force.

With a thump, Yin Qin crashed into the door.

Hearing the commotion, Aunt Wu rushed out from the room. The moment she saw the peculiar vibes between the master and Xiaolang, she knew something was up. She quickly said, “I didn’t see anything, I am going to keep Tiger company, you two carry on…continue…”

Saying that, Aunt Wu hurried off.

Luo Xiaolang glanced at Aunt Wu and decided not to pay attention to Yin Qin.

She always had the feeling that he might really be losing his mind.

Watching Luo Xiaolang’s departing footsteps, Yin Qin’s voice rang out loud, “Luo Xiaolang, I’m really scared that after today I will revert to my cowardly self. I fear that after today, I won’t have the courage to approach you again.”

Luo Xiaolang paused her steps, lightly pursing her lips.

Yin Qin looked at Luo Xiaolang’s back and said deeply, “I met with Joe today, he said you two have broken up.”

Luo Xiaolang didn’t turn around.

Yin Qin said, “I admit I felt extremely malicious happiness. I didn’t know why you two broke up, I didn’t know whether it was he who wronged you or you who wronged him. But I feel this news is the best thing I’ve ever heard in my life. I’ve never been so elated, so excited. At that moment, my mind went blank, and I felt my head was still buzzing, as if I couldn’t react to such explosive news…”

“Xiaolang, I truly regret it, I’m dreaming of regretting leaving you alone at our wedding. I never told you, even though it was all over the media, I never told you myself that I got back together with Ji Baixing because of guilt. I know it’s useless to say all this now, it won’t lessen my past cruelty to you, but I still want to tell you the truth. Not because I want forgiveness but because you have the right to know.”

Luo Xiaolang remained silent.

She had her back to Yin Qin, so he couldn’t see her emotions.

He continued to speak quietly, he was really afraid he would shrink back into his shell after today. He could only pour out all his thoughts with the adrenaline at this moment, “At that time, Weng Cheng threatened me by staining Ji Baixing’s reputation. When I went to save Ji Baixing, she was completely broken. I really thought about coming back and marrying you then, but Ji Baixing’s suicide attempt made me feel that I shouldn’t leave her.”

Later, Luo Xiaolang had a vague idea of why Yin Qin had left her. She had seen some news reports.

In her mind, she didn’t think that what Yin Qin had done for Ji Baixing was just out guilt. She always felt that no matter what happened to Ji Baixing, Yin Qin would go back to her as long as Ji Baixing called for him. She really believed that Yin Qin loved Ji Baixing very much. That it had nothing to do with what had happened to Ji Baixing, all it took was a word from her.

At this moment, hearing Yin Qin say that he was with Ji Baixing merely out of guilt, she didn’t know why but she believed him.

It seemed like.

She was always very easy to trust people.

“After getting together with Ji Baixing, I actually realized that I no longer liked her. I maybe still had an attachment to her but it was not love. I chose to be with her, thinking I would take care of her for the rest of my life, even if the feelings were gone, out of guilt, I thought that I would continue to look after her. So even after understanding my feelings, I chose to be with her until… until she really crossed my bottom line.”

The bottom line being Tiger, right?

“She violated, the line that would hurt you the most.” Yin Qin uttered each word with gravity.

Luo Xiaolang’s heart stirred a little.

“When Ji Baixing wanted to jump off the building, holding Tiger, I really wanted to die right in front of you. I truly felt I was not a good man or a good father. I kept on thinking, what if something happened to Tiger? What would you do, what would you do…”

Luo Xiaolang tried to suppress her emotions.

Thinking about that day, the scenes still played out vividly in her mind.

I still feel terrified when I think back.

“Ji Baixing was sent to prison, and we broke up completely. My guilt towards her totally dissipated when she continually did things in front of me that I couldn’t accept. So, I will no longer harbor any feelings nor entangle myself with Ji Baixing again. At that moment, I was desperate to get you back, to start over with you. Then, I did many childish things. I tried to disrupt your relationship with Joe, I actually tried to snatch you away from him selfishly… ”

“I was absolutely determined, even if it means being despised for having no shame, and even if the whole world couldn’t understand me, I still wanted to take you back. I even thought of snatching you away on your wedding day, I really had considered everything, all I wanted was for you to return to me. But… but in the end, I chose to withdraw.”

Yes.

In the end, why did I choose to withdraw?

Luo Xiaolang suddenly turned around.

She turned to face Yin Qin.

Yin Qin really likes to cry.

Of all the men, no, including women I’ve met, he’s the one who cries the most.

And his crying is different from average people — he occasionally howls with abandon, like a child, losing all composed demeanor.

At this moment, his eyes are already red, and his face is full of tear stains.

He said, “In that forest, on the edge of life and death, because of my incompetence, you were constantly lingering on the edge of death. I then realized that being with me, my desperate attempt to be with you, was genuinely a disaster for you. If it weren’t for me, you could easily avoid everyone, you wouldn’t have had to suffer such great physical harm, it really scared me. I was absolutely terrified that my incompetence would cause your death. When I saw you lying motionless in the intensive care unit, I swore to myself that as long as you recovered, as long as you survived, I would never come near you again, I would stay far away from you.”

He had been sincerely praying to heaven for mercy.

He was absolutely determined that as long as Luo Xiaolang could wake up, he wouldn’t appear in front of her again!

“So why are you here now?” Luo Xiaolang asked him.

Compared to his agitation, she was much calmer.

Yin Qin felt a pain in his heart.

He was staring straight at Luo Xiaolang.

His vision was blurry.

He looked at Luo Xiaolang’s calm face, void of any emotional fluctuation.

Yes.

What is he doing now?

Because of a single comment from Joe, he completely lost all sense of propriety, forgot all the promises he had ever made.

He is still just a jerk.

He wiped his tears.

His hand continuously swept away the tear stains on his face.

For a long while.

It seemed like he was trying to calm his emotions.

He said, with self-mockery, “I keep slapping myself in the face.”

Luo Xiaolang looked at him but didn’t reply.

“What I just said… ” Yin Qin’s throat trembled, seemingly unable to suppress his inner pain.

Luo Xiaolang watched his eyes redden again.

They were red like a rabbit’s.

“Just forget what I said. I am just a lunatic.” Yin Qin laughed and forced himself to carry on with a smile.

As he spoke, he kept backing away.

How could he expect Luo Xiaolang to forgive him again?

How could he shamelessly ask Luo Xiaolang to marry him again?

Perhaps Luo Xiaolang and Joe just had a small quarrel and a temporary breakup. Even if they really broke up, why did he think Luo Xiaolang would accept him?

He had been so bad, so despicable.

Why should he expect others to forgive or even accept him?

He really thought too highly of himself…

He really had no shame…

He kept backing away, step by step…

His heart was filled with unbearable pain…

His vision became blurrier and blurrier…

He just watched as Luo Xiaolang stood there impassively in front of him.

It was his own fault.

He brought it upon himself.

He deserved this outcome.

He still wore a forced smile on his face and said, “I’m sorry, Xiaolang, I apologize for being so impulsive tonight. I didn’t mean to disturb you this way. I’ll go now…”

And he left.

At the moment when he turned to leave.

He thought he heard a voice.

He heard Luo Xiaolang say, “From the beginning till now, I’ve never heard you say, ‘I like you.'”

Yin Qin’s body stiffened.

Totally frozen.

Did he just hallucinate?

Was his pain playing tricks on him?

He turned around.

It took a great deal of courage for him to turn around and look at Luo Xiaolang.

There she was, still standing there, motionless.

“I recall you saying, ‘I truly love you.'”, Luo Xiaolang repeated.

Yin Qin bit his lip, trying to control the trembling of his body.

Yes.

She remembered.

She remembered when they were in danger, Yin Qin holding her tight, whispering in her ear, “I truly love you!”

She didn’t know why.

That phrase kept echoing in her ear, whether when she was unconscious or when she awoke.

She would hear Yin Qin’s words echoing in her ears, his last words while holding her amidst the flames.

The truth is.

From the moment Yin Qin chose to leave her at her wedding, no matter the reason, she had never thought of forgiving him. She truly liked Yin Qin. She didn’t know why she fell for him, but the fact was she did. But she wasn’t someone who dwelled on emotional pursuits, so she chose to let go completely. She really thought that their parting was a clear separation, two parallel lines that would never intersect again.

But she started to question her decision when they were trapped in the woods.

Even though Yin Qin was hindering their escape most of the time, she was strangely moved by him.

It wasn’t just the last moment, when he held her as they were facing death. It was also his unwavering encouragement throughout the ordeal, his tantrums when they were almost falling off the cliff, and the time when her master left her behind and Yin Qin found her. She was barely alive at that moment, but Yin Qin’s voice made her fight to live.

Yin Qin kept saying to her, “Xiaolang, live on, you must live…”

“Xiaolang, as long as you’re alive, I will disappear if you ask, I will go as far as you tell me to…”

“Xiaolang, you can’t die, if you die, what will I do…”

“Xiaolang, even if I have to crawl, I will get you out of this forest…”

Luo Xiaolang was in fact very clear about Yin Qin’s physical condition at the time.

He had a severe injury to his leg, but he carried her on his back.

Yin Qin, always so intolerant of pain, endured it all along.

Up until now.

She couldn’t believe she had compromised so easily.

Had compromised enough to think of starting anew with Yin Qin.

Forsaking everything from the past, starting over with him.

However.

The moment she woke up, she saw Joe, his face filled with worry as he looked after her.

She felt a pang of disappointment.

She thought that the moment she opened her eyes, she would see Yin Qin, his eyes filled with shining tears, and his unsightly crying face.

But then.

She never saw him again.

As if he was deliberately avoiding her, as if he was really trying to set her free.

She thought, since Yin Qin had come to a realization, they can just miss each other this way.

She also thought about being with Joe. Joe was very good to her, they could perhaps live a good life together.

But when Joe proposed to her for the first time, she knew she wouldn’t choose Joe.

Because then.

Then, all she could see was Yin Qin’s proposal to her.

She suddenly realized that the Yin Qin from that time might have been genuinely sincere.

It just that many things happened afterwards that were beyond their control…

In the end.

She started to miss Yin Qin a bit.

Missed that man who would start crying when distressed, felt butterflies in her stomach when thinking of him.

But for Joe, she only felt gratitude.

She was only obliged to Joe.

So she wanted to win the world championship for Joe, she wanted to make his dream come true.

After fulfilling the dream, she would break up with Joe.

The reason she didn’t say anything before was simply not to influence Joe’s preparation for the game.

She was always thinking that once the gold medal was won, Joe’s pain may lessen a bit.

Those were all her assumptions.

She understood very well how upset Joe was.

But she chose to reject him anyway.

Simply because… simply because she hadn’t let go of Yin Qin.

At this moment.

Yin Qin just stood there like a fool, looking at her.

Looking at her, his tears flowing down his face without stop.

He asked with a trembling voice, “Xiaolong, did I hear you wrong?”

Luo Xiaolang did not reply.

“Did I misinterpret what you meant?”

Luo Xiaolang remained silent.

“Even if I did misinterpret, nothing will change.” Yin Qin said suddenly.

Suddenly, he took a big step and held her in his arms.

This time, this time.

Luo Xiaolang didn’t push him away.

She could only feel Yin Qin’s trembling body, holding her tight as if scared she would leave, keeping her in his arms.

Luo Xiaolang’s heart was beating fast.

Her eyes started to get teary.

She never thought that one day, she would find warmth in Yin Qin’s arms…

The two people, they didn’t know how long they were locked in the embrace.

Only until Yin Qin relaxed his grip a bit, confirming that this was not just a dream, that he dared to let go of her.

The moment he let go of her.

He moved his face close to hers again.

Luo Xiaolang frowned.

Are all men… this forward?

Without noticing Luo Xiaolang’s emotions, Yin Qin’s lips kissed hers again.

Luo Xiaolang looked at him.

She looked at how he was so passionately kissing her.

Trying to push him away again and again but compromising again and again…

Until she found herself compromised, Yin Qin was pressing her on the bed.

She looked at Yin Qin.

Yin Qin looked at her.

Then…

Everything just naturally fell into place.

Maybe it was at that very moment that Luo Xiaolang deeply realised why she loved Yin Qin.

There were times when Joe did the same things to her, she may not have resisted, but her heart was repulsive…

But towards Yin Qin, there was none.

None…

In the room, dazzling flowers bloomed, like a dreamy illusion.