why ?

Why did I choose him ?

I should've let him go

So i wouldn't have been acting like a

emotionally drained teen in a show

I let my self respect die

to make him mine

Why did I even try ?

And now why am I trying to be fine ?

When I can't even see straight in eye

I was meant to be a star that would shine

But how did he manipulate me in his lie ?

The more I think

The more I feel devastated

Things are hard ,o' gimme a drink

Let me immerse  my emotions that have been wasted

Near ocean's brink .