Part 28: One last time

I see where it's all going

I feel as if the sand beneath

My feet is slipping out

I'm feeling unstable again

The fear of not being

Good enough

Looms around my head

I try to tell her

Please stop tearing me down

I know you have no good intentions

Than to bring me on my knees

This time around

You tell me you love me

But I don't see it in your actions

For once please stop

Overpowering my life

Making me question

What's real and what's not

I've never been this happy

And I know I'm living with

All those blessings

Yes the blessings I've always

Prayed for

So please don't bring up the

Unknown future into this

And destroy me again

I know what you're capable of

At the same time I need you here

Cause you've guided me

When I was alone

And I know you don't mean to

But then you must understand

That it's been breaking me apart

Making me question

My own worth

I know why she gets defensive

She is just trying to

Protect me from possible pain

She has always warned me

Of things but

I was never one to listen

But can we believe

one last time

I ask her

And she said what if ?

What if you're

crying in my arms again ?

And what if things go wrong

She asks me

But that's the point of life

I say

It's all the uncertainty

That comes with it

What if things are way better

Than you could ever

imagine it to be

You never know

Or for the worse but

It ends with me

So does it even matter

After all the world runs

In hope and trust

So one last try ?

A leap of faith maybe ?

And she said yes