CH 48

As Yu Zhou’s breathing gradually steadied, the hand that had been stroking her hair came to a stop at the nape of her neck.

Usually, such a cathartic finale would leave one feeling embarrassed, and the degree of embarrassment would be inversely proportional to the depth of one’s sadness.

The emotional outburst had passed and then the face that had left home in a fit of pique was now tear-stained and trembling returned.

Yu Zhou couldn’t help but feel a sense of shame. Just like a drama, a few episodes ago she had told Xiang Wan that she didn’t want Su Chang to recall her as a shrew.

And yet now she had suddenly put on a performance of a woman scorned.

The crux of the matter was that she was playing the part of a woman scorned without having an actual target for her bitterness. It was she who had initiated the breakup, had never refused to work with Su Chang, and had even suggested desensitization as an approach, while Su Chang didn’t always hover around her.

However, even though Su Chang hadn’t done anything wrong, it didn’t mean she wasn’t bad. Her terribleness lay in the fact that she naturally drew people’s attention to her.

Yu Zhou buried her head in Xiang Wan’s shoulder, unable to find a suitable expression due to her embarrassment.

She decided to pretend to be an ostrich for three more minutes.

Due to her recent crying fit, her body temperature was a little high as they huddled together through the thin nightwear. Xiang Wan could hear the sound of her own heartbeat in the intervals of breathing, which was anything but light.

What was worse was that neither of them were wearing bras after the shower. Yu Zhou’s soft bosom was pressed to hers, rising and falling with each breath.

Yu Zhou was like all of the maids that Xiang Wan had hugged during that thunderstormy night, fragrant and soft.

But she was also not like any of them.

Only she could make Xiang Wan feel such subtle physical changes. As a woman, Yu Zhou’s body seemed to evoke a greater desire for exploration.

Xiang Wan released her hold on Yu Zhou before she turned her back to her, collapsing onto the bed.

Yu Zhou didn’t expect Xiang Wan to retreat first as she was a little slow to react, still with red-rimmed eyes. She pushed Xiang Wan’s shoulder a bit and asked, “What’s wrong?”

“I’m feeling weird,” Xiang Wan replied, still lying face down.

“Huh?” Yu Zhou wiped her eyes, “Do you have anything to be sad about too?”

“Let’s just say it together and cry our hearts out.”

Xiang looked at the wardrobe across from her, saying softly, “It’s not a sad matter, it’s a weird feeling.”

“Huh?” Yu Zhou tried to walk around to her front to see her.

Xiang Wan extended her right arm to push Yu Zhou’s head away with her finger.

Then she moved her shoulder, settling back into her embrace.

“What kind of weird feeling?” Yu Zhou wanted to pry.

In a soft voice, Xiang Wan said, “When I was holding you just now, I wanted to kiss you.”

What the… Yu Zhou felt goosebumps prickling up all over her body.

“So directly?” She was dumbfounded by the bluntness of it all.

“What else do you expect?”

Xiang Wan was so frank that she left her at a loss for words. Yu Zhou sat cross-legged, looking down at her collar, adjusting it gently.

“You’re not okay,” she said.

“Are you lesbian?” Yu Zhou felt that the problem was a bit tricky. She lowered her head and decided to ask Xiang Wan. Her long hair fell over her shoulders, framing her question with a gentle and coaxing tone.

But it wasn’t that gentle. Yu Zhou saw herself as the community aunt who solves people’s problems.

Xiang Wan has heard the term “lesbian” frequently in the past few days, she understands, but she doesn’t want to say anything.

“What I mean is, have you ever liked a girl before?” Yu Zhou asked again.

“Never,” Xiang Wan shook her head as her ears blushed.

Yu Zhou felt a little relieved and then gossiped, “So do you like me?”

Xiang Wan frowned as she looked at her, shaking her head again.

Yu Zhou breathed a sigh of relief.

“I don’t know,” Xiang Wan said.

Ah, this…

Yu Zhou quickly analyzed in her heart that she was the first person Xiang Wan met here and she took care of her so much. So Xiang Wan depends on her, longs for her, which is only natural. She hasn’t become independent yet, maybe she doesn’t even know what real liking is.

As the saying goes, love after being independent. She is still a newly sprouted little cabbage in this world.

With a little nervousness left, she asked Xiang Wan again, “Forgive me for asking, but where did you want to kiss just now?”

She thought about it, if she wanted to kiss her lips, it wouldn’t be right. If it was something else, it would be okay. She often hugs and kisses the heads of bowls fiercely and sometimes wants to grab Ms. Zhao’s head and kisses it hard.

Like when Ms. Zhao was giving her money.

Perhaps she cried truly and pitifully just now, so Xiang Wan pitied her.

Xiang Wan thought for a moment before answering, “Your hair.”

Oh, Yu Zhou felt relieved and said to her, “Then don’t worry, it’s not a big deal.”

After a pause of two or three seconds, she added, “Not really a big deal.”

“You just want to comfort me, right?”

“Because our era is different from yours. We are open and romantic and we have passion. Look at TV series like ‘Romance in the Rain’, the couples often kiss in the rain as people gather around the train station to watch them kiss. Your heart that has not been cultivated for more than ten years may have been infected by this enthusiasm.”

“You want to embrace this world, to kiss this world, to kiss the people around you, it’s a good thing, it means your emotions are overflowing, you can express love!” Yu Zhou said with a bit of excitement in her voice.

“We have a good relationship, nowadays we call it besties, and straight girl besties sometimes kiss, so if you just want to kiss, there really isn’t a problem. But the problem is that I’m a lesbian, this identity is more sensitive, I can’t kiss you.”

“It’s normal for a little girl to like kissing, but we have to have boundaries in our relationship. In the future, if you want to kiss me or cuddle with other friends, you can change it to a handshake.”

After she finished speaking, Xiang Wan looked at her skeptically and asked, “Really?”

“Of course,” Yu Zhou said, “You don’t have any other intentions towards me, do you?”

“No.” For now.

“Okay,” Yu Zhou nodded.

Seeing Xiang Wan understand, she pulled the blanket, “Well, I’m leaving.”

As soon as her feet touched the ground, she was going to leave in a hurry.

Xiang Wan turned around, looking at her in confusion, “Why are you running?”

“To be honest, I’m still a little afraid that you’ll sexually misconduct me.” Yu Zhou grabbed a pillow to hug, running out the door.

“Hey!” Xiang Wan was annoyed at her using Yu Zhou’s tone.

The next day, Yu Zhou woke up late. She poked out to look around, there was no sign of Xiang Wan in the house. Ms. Zhao was peeling potatoes in the kitchen. Seeing Yu Zhou wake up, she said, “The soy milk is on the table.”

“But it might have been used by the cat to wash its paws.”

……

While observing whether there were cat hairs in the soy milk, Yu Zhou asked Ms. Zhao, “Did Xiang Wan go to class?”

“Yep.”

“Went by herself?”

“That’s definitely not what I sent her on.”

“I see.”

Seeing that everything was normal, Yu Zhou finally let go of her last bit of worry. She told Ms. Zhao that she recently signed a contract with Changpei and was starting a new novel, asking her not to disturb her creativity.

Ms. Zhao ignored her while continuing to peel potatoes.

There was no sense of time in Tianyin Building because it was always so bright and energetic.

What was even more bright than the building was the faces of the young people dressed up in exquisite clothes. And Su Chang was always the moon under the sun, reflecting a serene light.

She appeared outside the recording studio, opening the door and walking in familiarly. Peng Xiangzhi was directing a movie’s dialogue. Seeing Su Chang come in, she spun around on her chair to face her, “Oh, Miss Su.”

Swaying her body left and right, her flaming red lips made her look like a boss.

Su Chang greeted her, “When will it be finished? Let’s have dinner together?”

Peng Xiangzhi squinted her eyes at her, feeling that Su Chang had really changed a lot.

She had known Su Chang for many years, thinking about it, it had been ten years, but the number of times she could really get Su Chang to go out for dinner or gatherings could be counted on one hand.

Moreover, Su Chang didn’t like to talk, not only to Peng Xiangzhi but also to all her friends in the circle. She usually just talked about work and listened to others’s gossip, but never spoke about herself.

But Peng Xiangzhi never doubted that she was Su Chang’s best friend in the circle.

Because no matter what help she asked for, Su Chang was always quite reliable and wouldn’t fuss about it.

Sometimes Peng Xiangzhi suspected that Su Chang didn’t have many friends, because she didn’t seem to know, or didn’t care how to confide in others, even though she was always treated well by those around her.

The various anomalies during the recording of “Shrine” were all observed by Peng Xiangzhi. When she heard the word “ex-girlfriend”, her first reaction was surprise, her second was, no wonder, and her third thought was – Su Chang really had no one to talk to.

Peng Xiangzhi stood up from her chair: “Let’s go, go down to eat.”

The two left the recording studio before Peng Xiangzhi pretended to suddenly discover and exclaimed: “Oh, you don’t have class today, what are you doing here?”

“Just came to see.”

“Oh, did you flop? Relying on our training class for food?” Peng Xiangzhi teased her.

Su Chang remained silent.

Peng Xiangzhi leaned against the wall, waiting for the elevator: “Do you know what people are saying about you online?”

“Chang, don’t love too much.” She imitated the pity tone of the netizens.

Su Chang looked up, slightly puzzled.

“Recently, there are many rumors about you and Xiang Wan, such as becoming a lecturer for love and inviting her to a group for love. CP fans say, Chang, don’t love too much.”

After explaining, Peng Xiangzhi couldn’t help but laugh.

Su Chang sighed as she entered the elevator.