my greatest fear

when i was seven,

i had a million obsessions.

sticker books, barbie dolls, birthday presents and more.

i wanted to grow up and be so many things

like a doctor for stuffed animals, an intergalactic warrior, a power puff girl.

all these dreams and aspirations

didn't seem so out of reach.

they seemed so easy and possible

and i felt unstoppable.

add a few more years to that age

and the circumstances change.

nuances and shades of gray,

complicated situations and busy days.

i don't know what i want in life.

i don't know what i want to be.

the future seems so muddled and unclear,

covering my eyes so i can't see

and so begins my greatest fear.