Chapter 11-The Sorrow

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Chapter 11-The Sorrow

Sydney Carrignton's POV

I opened my eyes and blinked in shock to see Kingston watching me. The room was dark and i guessed it was probably really early in the morning or it was rather late at night but we just sat there watching each other.

Well, for me, I was quite confused, looking around the room, it wasn't familiar at all. The room I was in wasn't the room I have been using here in the European pack.

Looking back at Kingston, I chewed on my lower lip before asking, "Where am I?"

Kingston studied me warily before replying carefully, "You're in my room."

At this, I froze and looked down at my attire. I was dressed in a white nightgown that certainly didn't belong to me. "Wh-why?" I asked nervously, my heart pounding. Had Kingston taken his rights? But how?

And everything came back to me. The note. The chocolates. The pain and the poisoning.

"Don't you remember?"

My heart starting beating really loudly and my palms became clammy. "Did you take your rights? Is that why you poisoned me?!" I started to become hysterical and Kingston narrowed his eyes.

The thought of someone touching me while I wasn't awake sent shivers of disgust crawling through me. And I felt sick as if bile was coming out of my throat.

"My rights?"

I knew I was being hysterical as I grabbed a pillow and threw it at him. "Your mating rights! Did you do it while I wasn't awake?!"

Kingston growled angrily at me as he grabbed my hands. "Sydney! Calm down!"

"You did didn't you? You fucked me while I wasn't conscious!" By now I was full on screaming and Kingston clamped his hands over my mouth.

"Calm down!" He growled and his Alpha authority leaked into his words. Immediately, I stopped and stared at him with wide eyes as I took deep breaths, feeling my hysteria ebb away.

Kingston watched me and took his hand away from my mouth before saying, "I may be many things but raping women isn't something I'll ever do. Especially to my chosen."

I looked into his eyes and saw honesty there before I nodded shakily. My hands were still sweaty and I swore that my heart was beating so fast and loud that I was pretty sure Kingston could hear it from where he was sitting.

"Now, why did you say I poisoned you?" He questioned, his eyes dark with anger.

At this, my gaze flew to his and a blank expression crossed my face. "The chocolates you gave me. There was a note that came with it and it said that it was from you."

Kingston narrowed his eyes at me, "It said it came from me?"

I nodded my head, refusing to look at him. So many emotions were coursing through me that I didn't know what to do or how to react. If Kingston didn't send the chocolates, who did? And also, if Kingston really did want to kill me, he could have done it long ago.

"When did you receive it?

My jaw worked and I tried to think back, "I-I think it was on Monday which was yesterday." Kingston's jaw clenched before releasing his tight hold on my hands. "Today is Friday Sydney. You were out since then."

I gaped at him, eyes wide as I tried to think of what to say. I had been unconscious for almost five days? Oh god. "The poison used was wolfsbane mixed with a little silver. The pack doctor analysed your blood and found traces of it in your system."

I had almost died? I couldn't seem to wrap my head around that. Wolfsbane was one of the most toxic herbs for werewolves and well mixed with silver? It was deadly. While silver could be worn, but when ingested in the body, it was venom. And a combination of both? Death was definitely a guarantee.

"H-how did I survive? I would have been dead by now." I said stunned. In fact any wolf would have died if they had consumed both within minutes. Even Alphas.

Kingston looked at me with an expression on his face I couldn't identify before saying, "I didn't give you those chocolates Sydney. Someone else did. Someone who wanted to hurt you. Someone who wanted you dead."

Now, my head turned to face him and I demanded softly, "How can I even believe you? You've hurt me before."

Kingston's jaw clenched and he glanced at the ground before his eyes met mine once again. "I never meant to hurt you."

"But you did." I said quietly and looked away, my hands clutching tightly onto the covers. I could feel his intense stare on me and I wanted to look at him so badly but I refrained myself.

What the hell was happening to me? I wanted to look at him? I was losing my mind.

"I'm sorry Sydney, I truly never wanted to hurt you. And I did not send those chocolates to you. Someone must have wanted you dead."

At his apology, my head snapped towards his once more and my lower lip trembled. All the emotions I was feeling was too overwhelming and I shut my eyes and leaned my head back against the pillows. I didn't know what to think.

It couldn't be Kingston that send me those chocolates, that was for sure. But if it wasn't him, who was it? Who would want me dead? Had I offended anyone? I hardly knew anyone here in the pack and I've only been here for about two weeks.

I could feel tears of frustration and helplessness well up in my eyes and I swiped them away angrily with my left hand. Noticing something black on my left wrist, I stopped and looked at it to study the black scrawl and my eyes widened.

"Oh my god." I breathed out stunned. On it, in thick black cursive letters was Kingston's name. Brendon. That only meant-

"You asshole!" I hissed and tears fell. Kingston watched me grimly with a wary and cautious expression on his face.

My lower lip trembled and I stared at the lettering on my wrist. Oh god oh god oh god oh god. I chanted inwardly. "How could you? Without my agreement?" I asked in horror and shock.

Kingston watched me with those grey-silver eyes of his that was turning a little dark. "You were dying Sydney. I had no choice. There wasn't enough time for the pack medics to get to you."

"That can't be. I do not remember saying the vow to you or to anyone." I argued and Kingston looked at me passively. "I did." At his admission, I slumped my shoulders in defeat and looked down at my left wrist in silence before peering at his right wrist.

True enough, my name wasn't on his right wrist. For females, the mark was to be on their left wrist and for males, it was to be on their right wrist.

I remained quiet as thoughts sped through my head with lightning speed. What was this going to mean between the both of us? Now for sure, there was no way I could escape from Kingston. Now that we shared a life-force, I could never be truly free of him.

"Why?" I asked tearfully and Kingston glanced away from me before looking back. His eyes were no longer dark but were filled with so much emotion that all the words that I wanted to say died in my throat.

"You were dying Sydney. I'm sorry that things have to be this way but I couldn't let you die. I do care for you." He says softly and I shut my eyes in sorrow.

"You don't care about me Kingston." I said softly and defeatedly. I could never be truly free from Kingston, I thought dejectedly.

Kingston sighs and holds onto my hand, rubbing small circles on my palm, "I do, despite what you want to think. I would have done anything for you."

I looked at him sadly, "If you did, you would have let me go back to my old pack weeks ago."

A glimpsed of pain flashed through Kingston's eyes before it disappeared "I couldn't. I would have given you anything but that."

"Why not? I just wanted to be free. But it's too late now. Especially after The Blood Exchange." I said mournfully as sorrow and defeat entered my soul. A tear rolled down my cheek as reality set in.

There was no escaping. Not anymore. Not after The Blood Exchange. Even though I had not said the vows, Kingston had and also, we had exchanged our blood. And because of that, we were already linked. But if I were to die, Kingston would as well.

However, if Kingston died, I wouldn't die with him. Now, all I had were pieces of my hopes and dreams that had been shattered into millions of tiny sparkling bits. I had no choice but to stay in this pack for the rest of my life.

Homesickness flooded through me and I bit my lower lip as pain and sorrow filled my heart. I missed Sarah and Sean but I had to get used to the life I had now for there was no escaping it. Also fear of the unknown future made my stomach twist. Why would anyone want me dead? I couldn't imagine why.

Suddenly, Kingston stood up and his large calloused hand released mine. "Where are you going?" I asked as panic gripped at me. I didn't want to be all alone where whoever wanted me dead could simply enter the room and kill me.

"I assume you didn't want me around especially after what I had done."

I bit on my lower lip as I tried to think of what to say. "I-I don't want to be alone after everything." I said softly as I fiddled with the lacy hem of the sleeves of the nightgown I was wearing. Somehow, I guess deep down, I trusted Kingston. It was crazy especially after all the horrible things he had done. Perhaps it was the mate bond but whatever it was, I did trust him. But that didn't mean I liked him or anything.

Understanding lit in his eyes and he moved back to sit on the chair that was beside my bed. "Rest. You need it." Kingston ordered and I gave in. I lay my head back onto the pillows and closed my eyes. "Thank you."

I could feel Kingston's confusion from my words and I clarified, "For saving me." With that, I closed my eyes and sleep took over me.

***

My eyes fluttered open and I blinked before sitting up. Now that I was somewhat calm, I took the time to study Kingston's room.

The walls were white and grey, there were bedside tables beside his king-sized bed. Also, there were two separate dressers on the opposite sides of the room. His room also had en ensuite bathroom and another door that looked like a large closet. The floor was covered with plush black carpets that looked so soft.

Chewing on my lower lip, I glanced at Kingston to see him sleeping on the chair and my eyes studied him His dark hair was tangled and messed up, his jaw was unshaven and he had stubble on it. Also, as his arms were crossed, his muscles were flexed and were straining against the grey shirt he was wearing.

Honestly, he never looked more peaceful and beautiful. Looking at the alarm clock beside me on the bedside table, it was already two in the afternoon and I couldn't help but wonder where was Cara.

We had decided to make plans for a picnic in the woods nearby for lunch today. And Cara had been jumping on her feet excitedly when I had suggested this. I contemplated leaving the room but I didn't want to wake Kingston.

But realising that the floor was carpeted, I guessed that as long I was quiet, it would be fine. I pushed the covers off and swung my legs off the bed and touched the carpeted floor. Moaning inwardly from how soft it was against my feet.

"Where are you going?"

I jumped and I turned around to see Kingston watching me lazily, his arms were still folded across his chest and I said quietly, "I'm a little hungry and I want to change."

Without a word, Kingston stood up and came towards me and somehow, I didn't know why but I didn't try to move back from him. "Here, take it." He offered his arm and I looked up at him and took it hesitantly.

It was only when both my feet were on the ground did I realise why Kingston offered to be my clutch. My body was weak and that included my legs. I was barely able to walk properly without falling and I was thankful that Kingston was helping me.

He walked me down the hallway and into my room where everything was spotless and clean as if a tornado full of cleaning supplies had whipped through my room. "That day, you were coughing up so much blood that we had to move you to another room so that it could be cleaned."

I nodded my head and walked unsteadily to my closet. Kingston left the room and closed the door to give me privacy while I changed out of the lovely nightgown. Pulling on a loose navy blue dress over and slipped some sandals on, I walked out of my room to see Kingston waiting for me.

"Let's go get lunch." Once again, Kingston helped me down to the kitchen where Cara was waiting with a bunch of sandwiches. "Sydney! You're all better!" She cheered and pulled me gently in for a hug.

I smiled at her and hugged her back before pulling away. "I'm sorry I couldn't make it for our picnic today." Cara shook her head and beamed, "It's fine. Your health comes first! And we can always go another time. Oh god! It's already half-past two, I have to go! Adam is taking me out. Bye Syd! Bye Brendon!"

And just like that, she was gone. I couldn't help but smile a little. Cara could just cheer me up with just a single encounter with her.

I sat onto the island stools and helped myself to one of the sandwiches before pushing the plate towards Kingston. He eyed me and cleared his throat. "Would you be interested in going to the cinema room?"

At this, my eyes lit up with interest and I nodded. A wry smile slipped onto Kingston's face before he helped me there.

I gaped at the room with a giant tv screen and plush comfortable chairs before settling myself onto one of them. Kingston placed the remote in front of me, "You can choose."

I raised an eyebrow before turning back to the tv screen and chose Inception. As the opening music started to play, Kingston suddenly spoke out, "Rhett, my Beta found the note and we will be analysing it for fingerprints."

"Oh." That was all I could think to say and Kingston continued, "I promise that I wouldn't let anything or anyone hurt you as long as I'm alive." Kingston said quietly amidst the darkness of the room.

I inhaled sharply but didn't say anything and instead, turned my attention back to the movie.

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A/N: Hello! Here is a two-days early update for you lovely readers. I hope that all of you will like it and please vote and comment! Because it will mean so so much! Also, do let me know your thoughts and such because you guys are really good at the guessing of the plot of this story like sheesh. Sigh. HAHAHA anyway, thanks for reading!