King of Always: Chapter 1
King of Always: A Fae Romance (Black Blood Fae Book 2)
so am I.
Okay, thatâs not entirely true. Iâm sane enough, just bored, thatâs all. Crazy bored and feeling about as content as a caged lion in a circus.
It sucks to be waiting tables in boring old Blackbrook while my cousin traipses around Faery with her hot, fae prince husband and their bouncing baby girl. Itâs not fair. Why should Lara and Ever have all the fun while I serve greasy hash browns and double cheeseburgers to frowning, grumpy customers?
Instead of working tables, Iâd prefer to be in the kitchen, surrounded by sizzling flames and tendrils of curling smoke. Not that I want to fry burgers for a livingâthatâs Laraâs gig. Or her gig before she became fae royalty and high-tailed it out of the human realm for who knows how long.
Nope, Iâll never be fully satisfied operating the grill at Maxâs Vinyl City diner. Iâd rather be the boss of my very own French bakery and create sweet delights that make people laugh and smile and, okay, if Iâm being honest, I should mention that one time when my pastries made a family of three cryâa mom, dad, and a cute little curly haired toddler. They sobbed and bawled, but still swore they loved the taste of my chocolate eclairsâgo figure! So weird.
So yeah, triple-layer mousse cakes and cinnamon and ginger madeleinesâthatâs my kind of alchemy. I donât need my own magical, pointy-eared fae prince. Nor do I want one, no matter how good looking they are.
Anyway, itâs Friday night, and here I am, plopping two plates of soggy waffles in front of a father and son duo seated at a red vinyl booth, an Elvis Presley tune blaring through the house speakers making my hips rock ever so slightly beneath my purple uniform.
âThatâll be all, Miss. We donât need your help with the eating of it,â says the dad. Shoulders slumped, faces pinched, he and his son look like theyâre at the end of a long, exhausting day.
I smile instead of poking my tongue out like I want to. âMister, youâd have to pay me to eat that stuff.â
The skinny kid, his face hidden beneath a baseball cap, reaches for the syrup and snorts like a gorilla.
âHey, donât add any of that until after you taste them,â I tell him. âThe cookâs already drowned them in syrup.â
The kid gives me a grim, sharp-toothed sneer that matches the sharkâs on his hat, warning me to mind my own business.
With a sigh, I shrug as he drizzles about a gallon of gunk over his plate. âOkay, then. Hope you enjoy your meals.â And the dental cavities.
Father and son grunt as I spin on my heels and head over to clear the table opposite.
Four plates of half-eaten mashed-up burgers and gravy-soaked napkins stack neatly in my arms. Bang. Bang. Bang. Iâm a whiz at this. Normally, Iâd pile the coffee cups on top as well, but Iâm too tired and donât want to risk the lot crashing down and getting my paycheck docked for the breakage. Guess Iâll have to make a second trip.
The four jocks whoâd been sitting here ten minutes ago, whispering about me and guffawing into their hands as they stuffed fries in their faces, left a heck of a mess. Thanks, guys, the two-dollar tip was worth it.
Feeling decades older than my eighteen years, I stifle a groan, massaging my lower back before picking up the pile of plates. As I move toward the kitchen, an image of my boyfriendâs look of total surprise when I politely dumped his ass over homemade crème brûlée in my kitchen three days ago floats across my mind. Since I broke up with him, I guess that means I should be calling him my -boyfriend.
Sam and I had been together nearly two years and mostly got along fine, but the guy loved studying accounting a lot more than he did me. And, honestly, he was about as romantic as a Christmas ham and almost as boring.
âHey, Isla, looking cute tonight,â says Jaxon at table three as I pass by.
I wink. âOh, thanks. You too.â Not really. My gaze skims his bloodshot hazel eyes and the dirty, button-down shirt covering his paunch. Another drunk businessman. Sweet enough, but he doesnât look like the outdoor type who loves camping trips and making out fireside under a sea of twinkling stars. Just like my ex, in a wordâheâs dreary.
Sighing, I tuck a loose strand of blonde hair behind my ear and smile at Kate, the other waitress working tonight.
Wish I wasnât hung up on wanting a passionate guy whoâs prepared to do something dramatic to prove his love for meâlike Ever did for Lara. Someone interesting and maybe a little dangerous.
Itâd be much easier to get a date because, letâs face it, there arenât too many fae princes hanging around Blackbrook hoping to hook up with a human girl. I think of Ever expressing his undying love for Lara by battling evil air mages and then giving up his crown for her. Unfortunately, heâs set the boyfriend bar pretty high.
âIsla,â yells, Max from his serving hutch, his chefâs hat falling over his heavy brow. âTable sevenâs order is up. If itâs not too much to ask, can you come and get it ASAP? The guy looks kinda hungry.â
I grin at his sweat-beaded face and push through the swing door into the kitchen. âOn my way, Boss.â I dump the leaning tower of plates next to the sink. âBut then Iâm out of here. I swapped with Mandy tonight. Sheâs doing the late shift, and Iâm leaving at ten because Iâm going on vacation, remember?â
âYeah, yeah. Go ahead and desert me the same as Lara did. But before you go have fun for a month, you can give the ladiesâ bathroom a quick once over.â
âBut, Maxâ¦â I give him my best sad-puppy face.
He sighs. âFine. Just refill the paper towels, then get outta my sight.â
âSure thing. Youâre the best.â I hide my grimace as I take fried chicken wings and a rainbow-colored smoothie to another businessman at table seven. All three look gross.
If thereâs one thing I hate, itâs cleaning restrooms. The stench is unbearable. Even though Max let me off the hook for a full clean, my annoying sense of duty has me pulling out cloths and spritzing down the mirrors.
As I polish my reflection, scowling at the piles of hair escaping from my ponytail, my tired blue eyes rimmed with dark circles, I count my blessings because the drudgery of part-time waitressing and full-time studying is about to come to an end in the most thrilling of ways, well, for a while at least.
Tonight!
Lara and Ever have been gone a whole two weeks, and I think Iâve finally found a way to follow them into Faery.
I would never have dreamed that a late-night internet search would lead me to an online spirit conjurer who does business with the local supernatural community, but thatâs what happened. Three days ago, I had no idea groups of magical beings lived here in the human realm, let alone that one of them resided a few suburbs away from mine.
The spirit companion dealer put me in touch with a fae in hiding who goes by the ridiculous name of Sally Salamande. Apparently she has a thing for lizards, so maybe itâs not such a crazy nickname after all. And, tonight, as soon as I leave work, thatâs where Iâm headingâto Sallyâs place.
Pastry school has wrapped up for the year, and Mom thinks Iâm going to stay with Lara and Ever in Brazil for the summer. Itâs completely bizarre how she still believes that Ever runs a charity helping street kids in Sao Paulo. If sheâd known what he did to Lara when he first met her in Faery, she would have kicked his butt into the next century instead of welcoming him into our home.
Thankfully, heâs reformed his wicked-prince ways somewhat since Lara freed him from the Black Blood poison, and now the curse has passed on to his younger brother, Rafael. Iâve never met the guy, but by all accounts, he sounds like a typical faery princeâin other words, a self-entitled jerk. Not worth thinking about, really. But I wish him all the best because living with the curse sounds awfulâas does a lot of what Iâve heard about Faery, to be honest. Itâs a dangerous, frightening place. But still, Iâm determined to go there at the earliest opportunity.
Why? Because I want adventure. When I was a child, just like Lara, I was fascinated by her momâs freaky paintings of the Land of Five. I know what it looks likeâa bizarre and beautiful dream that I plan to witness with my own eyes.
I mean, , faeries and elves and emerald castles are real. Who wouldnât want to check it all out and drink goblets of mulberry wine at a fae feast? Or run through a magical meadow alongside blue bunny rabbits with butterflies the size of dinner plates trailing behind us? And letâs not forget all the beautiful fae men I could stare at. All things considered, it sounds like a whole lot of fun to me.
After I freshen the towels and wipe down the bathroom counters, I swap my uniform for travel clothesâchunky boots, jeans, a black sweater, and a hooded down jacket, then swing my backpack over my shoulder. I bid my co-workers farewell for the next month, or if I manage to get myself eaten by a mythical creature, possibly forever. Then I ride the subway three stops to the old Gothic quarter where, at ten past eleven, the main streetâs restaurants and dive bars are still pumping.
A bright crescent moon winks down at me as I weave through folk coming in and out of the neon-lit joints, then stride past closed dollar stores and a vinyl record cafe. A pizza-delivery guy on a bike whistles at me, and I give him the finger and cross over at the stop lights.
I round a corner into a quiet tree-lined avenue, my attention flicking from my phone to the branch shadows tangling over the pavement. I follow map directions two blocks past the main drag until I reach a sorry-looking brownstone squashed between its taller, tidier neighbors, the number seventy-seven glowing in the harsh light of the entrance lamp.
Dogs howl in the distance, the mournful sound prickling over my skin. I shove my phone in my pocket, push open a low iron gate, and then head up the stoop.
I knock on the wooden door, and it swings open, a blast of heat whooshing out of it that nearly knocks me off my feet.
The middle-aged lady standing in the arched doorway and peering down at me is tall and so thin I could blow on her and sheâd snap in half like a pretzel. Sheâs dressed in a navy pantsuit with massive shoulder pads that, a couple of decades ago, would have been a perfect power outfit for a businesswoman. With her brown hair drawn into a tight ponytail, she looks like a retired lawyer rather than the fae creature sheâs alleged to be. So, unless sheâs Sallyâs housekeeper, Iâm beginning to think I paid the spirit conjurer fifty bucks for nothing. She conned me, damn it.
I think of Laraâs faery princeâhis fae beauty always peeking through his hot-jock glamorâand inspect the woman more closely, just like sheâs doing to me. Iâm looking for pointy ears, and sheâs wondering who the hell the skinny blonde chick on her doorstep is.
Something dark flickers across her gray eyes, her thin brows arching. âBy the Eternal Elements, here you are at last! What took you so long to come visit me?â
Huh? Maybe I resemble a long-lost relative. Or maybe sheâs half blind. Or totally crazy. If I have a choice, Iâll take the half-blind option. Sounds safer.
âHello,â I say, offering her my hand. âIâm Isla.â I give her a polite smile. âI donât think weâve met before, so I donât get how Iâve supposedly kept you waiting. But, anyway, Iâm looking for Sally Salamande. I hear she has a thing for lizards.â
Her eyes sparkle as she pushes my hand away like itâs a limp, smelly rag. âYes, child, you are correct. I do enjoy lizards. Very much so.â She licks her lips. âWell, donât just stand there. Come inside and sit by the fire with an old herpetologist. I believe we may be of use to each other.â
âWhat does a herpetologist do, study diseases?â
She chuckles and waves me forward. âNo, dear. Reptiles are my specialty.â
âOh.â A shiver crawls down my spine as I step over the threshold. âI see.â
She leans close and takes a big sniff of my neck, making me thankful for the switchblade in my pack. Iâm not sure how to use it, but itâs certainly good to know itâs there.
While I follow her down a long, dark hallway, she whistles a strange tune. Itâs sad and mournful and more than a little spooky and makes me think sheâs trying to mess with my head and unnerve me. If thatâs her plan, itâs working just fine.
In case Iâm about to die, I start running through all my past sins, asking for forgiveness and absolution from whichever god or gods are keen to give it to me. Iâm not fussy about which one will have me, Iâd just prefer not to go to hell or be reincarnated as a snail to be squashed beneath someoneâs careless shoe if I can avoid it.
When we come to a bright red door, she gives me a sly grin over her high shoulder pad, then pushes through into a red-glowing room. I suck in a quick breath and blink around, squinting against brightness and a confusing mix of shadow and flame. Am I in hell already?
The air is hot and dry enough to cook a perfect sponge cake in, and I wonder if, like me, sheâs a baker of⦠Hmmâ¦probably not cakes. More likely toads and lizards.
Even the roomâs decor is Nouveau Gothic Furnaceâdark crimson walls, heavy red-velvet drapes and furnishings, an intense groovy-vampire-mansion vibe. On the far wall of the open plan lounge and kitchen area, a fire roars inside a massive fireplace, gargoyle heads peering between vines and leaves carved into its wooden mantle.
Forget what I said before about it being hot as an oven in here. This is more like a dinner date in a steel mill. Or maybe sheâs about to bring out her welding equipment and work on some lovely garden sculptures. Luckily for me, Iâm a fan of the flames.
I smile at her and wipe sweat from my brow. The heat is wonderful. I could live here.
âPlease,â she says, pointing at two armchairs on either side of the fire. âTake a seat. How did you finally manage to locate me?â
Finally? I step around a fur rug before sinking into a deeply padded chair. âThrough Sylviaâs Supernatural Megastore.â
Throwing back her head, she laughs loudly. âOh, Sylviaâthat old windbag. Did you meet with her?â
âNope. I sent her an email, paid a PayPal invoice, and thenâbingoâshe handed over your address.â
The rug has a bearâs head attached to itâand gross, it totally looks real! âYouâre a hunter?â I ask, nodding at the beastâs glassy gaze fixed on my combat boots. âOr just a collector of⦠curiosities?â
With a loud huff, she plops inelegantly opposite me.
âPerhaps the latter, but most definitely the former. I do so love a good chase and a fight.â Tapered fingers with the nails painted bright orange fling out and stroke the bearâs fur, and I swear her arm grew three feet just to reach it. The heat must be making me hallucinate. Blinking rapidly, I shake my head to clear it.
She grins. âThis one you see here had the heart of a great warrior. His death was exquisite. It happened over a thousand human years ago, but I will never forget it.â
Exquisite for maybe. The bear? Not so much. I swallow hard, wondering how she killed it. Probably -handed.
âSoâ¦â I say, stalling for time as I gawk at the room. A large cauldron-like pot hangs over the flames on a metal rod. I donât like the look of it. What does she cook in it? Past conquests? Human girls who stupidly drop in unannounced? I force my gaze back on her flame-bright nails still tapping the chairâs armrest.
âWhat can I do for you, Isla of Blackbrook?â
âHow did you know where I liveââ
She silences me with a flick of her hand. âI know many things about you, girl, so donât mince words and waste my time. Tell me what you want.â
Wiping a sheen of sweat from above my lip, I shuffle to the chairâs edge. âIâve been told you can get me into Faery, to a city called Talamh Cúig. Is that true?â
âWhy, yes, it is. What reason do you wish to go there? Faery is not a nice place for a young mortal girl. How old are you, dear thing?â
âEighteen.â
âWonderful. You are of age, then.â
âReally? For what exactly?â
Her lips thin into a sly smile. âFor everything, my dear, absolutely everything. I can do what you ask, but the price will not be cheap.â
Iâd prefer not to hand over my hard-earned savings, but if thatâs what it takes, I will.
âI need to arrive as close to the Emerald Castle as possible, near where my cousin, Lara, and her husband will be. No funny business like dropping me in the middle of a raging sea or a deserted forest to be eaten by one of those wretched othrius things. Can you promise to get me where I need to go?â
The faeâs brow rises. âIâm surprised you mentioned your connection with the Prince of Air, brother to the current Black Blood Prince, and his lady.â
âWhy wouldnât I mention it?â
âWhy indeed? Being known to fae kind is more often a curse than a blessing.â
As if Ever would hurt me. âFine. Well, what do you want from me? Money? A little bird told me youâre into sunflowers and creepy lizards. I know people who could firm up your supply chain if itâs weird stuff youâre interested in.â Itâs true; I have a couple of friends with awesome jobsâa zookeeper and a flower grower.
A cunning smile slides over her face. âNo, mortal. I do not want tributes and trinkets or even your worthless Earth-realm money. Instead, I would extract a promise from you in payment, a vow, if you will.â
âA promise? It better not be for my firstborn child.â I donât want kids, and even if I do have them some day, she wonât be getting her bear-killing claws on them.
The flames crackle beside us then leap higher as if sheâs stoked the coals. But she hasnât moved, not even flickered an eyelash. âListen closelyâthe forever-cure to the Black Blood curse will show itself to you, and you will know himââ
â
? The cure is a person, a guy? What does that mean?â
âDo not interrupt me, child. Simply listen, for your survival may depend upon how well you heed my next words. You will come to know the cure. But you must promise never ever to share this knowledge. Not with your cousin. Not with her husband, the Prince of Air. And certainly not with the cursed Prince of Fire himself.â
âYouâre telling me Iâll have the answer to the riddle that the Elemental Court has been seeking for nearly a thousand fae years, and I wonât be able to help them?â
âThatâs correct. If you do, the life of the current Black Blood heir will be forfeit.â She issues a dry cackle, and leans toward the fire, spreading her hands in front of it in the shape of an explosion. âInstant death for the Master of Fire. Kaboom!â Sparks explode accordingly.
âPrince Rafael? Iâve never met the guy. Maybe I wonât care too much if heâs barbecued alive for all eternity. And Iâm not the least bit afraid of fire.â
âClever girl. You are right to have no fear of the flames. Creation. Destruction. Transformation. This is the way of fire. You understand its principles well. Now, why is that I wonder?â
Who knows? Iâve always loved the alchemy of fire. Itâs why Iâm studying to be a chef, a legitimate way to make money from dabbling in the chaos of heat and sparks and flames.
âBut how can you ask that of me? Itâs wrong to promise not to help the princes. After all, theyâre Laraâs family, so by extension mine too. Itâs cruel.â
âDoes it help if I tell you it is not your job to end the curse? That particular honor will fall to someone else. Remember this. It is important. No matter what you do, Isla, you cannot end it. Even if you were to tell them when you learn of the cure, it will do no good. In fact, it would most likely prevent the curse from ending. The outcome is beyond your control. This I promise you. And fae cannot lie.â
âOkay.â I take a slow breath. âThen I promise you that if I happen to learn the cure to the curse, I wonât tell a soul.â
âNor will you write it down.â
âFine. I wonât write it down, either. Or burn it into the bark of a tree trunk. Or sing it from a rooftop. Iâll guard the secret with my life. I vow it. Waitâ¦but what do you get out of this bargain?â
âYou wish to know how I will benefit?â
âI do.â
âIt is simple. I serve the princes of Talamh Cúig.â Otherwise known as the Land of Five. âAnd your presence will give them great pleasure. Your presence is Therefore, by taking you there, I am the kingdom.â
Right. That seems unlikely. But, apparently, she canât lie. So she must at least believe what she said to be true, which means she isnât planning to harm me. âGreat. Count me in then.â
âVery well.â She gives a sharp nod. âBut if you wish to go, you must go now.â
âSylvia warned me you might say that.â With my boot, I jostle the bulging backpack on the bear rug. âAs you can see, Iâve come prepared for a trip. She also said she wasnât sure if you could open a portal yourself, thought you might need your sister to helpâthe High Mage who got Lara in and out of Faery.â
Sallyâs eyes narrow, and she breathes an indignant puff of air through flared nostrils. âI assure you I can manage this one on my own.â She thrusts her hand out. âShake on it and seal our deal.â
As I extend my hand, the air around her body shimmers, and the plain-faced woman sitting opposite me disappears, replaced by an incredible sightâa freaky, supernatural creature.
Dressed in a flowing river of orange and red silk that streams over a longer, lithe form, a slow smile spreads over her newly angular face. Red eyes burn, the pupils slitted and emerald green. Her hair is a riot of orange, yellow, and scarlet wavesâflames of blue and purple licking over the tips. This ladyâs hair is literally on fire.
She spits into her hand and nods at mine. Hiding my grimace, I spit too, then shake her hand, the skin of my palm sizzling like Iâve made a deal with a red-hot fire poker.
A snicker slithers from her lips. âGood. Now put your ugly little pack on and follow me.â
I stand and shrug my backpack over my shoulders. âWhere are we going?â
âBelow,â she says, and then slinks over to a large painting on the far wall. As she lifts and sets the heavy, gilt-framed artwork on the floorboards as though itâs as light as feathers, I study the hunting scene rendered in rich colors, like an old-fashioned masterpiece.
A pack of giant wolfhounds attacks a creature with the body of a horse and the head of a wild boar, and beside them stands a fiercely handsome blond warrior wearing gold and silver armor and a bloodthirsty smile, about to launch a shining spear into the fray.
âThatâs Ever!â
âYes, your cousinâs husband at his worst. Of course, most fae would consider it his best.â
My heart quickens at seeing him in his natural element, no trace of the glamor that hides his true nature, more than a glint of cruelty sharpening his features. This had to have been before he met Lara. Back when the curse had him in its full grip.
A flash of bright color in the top corner of the canvas catches my attention. Another fae warrior, this one with his back to the viewer. Black and gold armor. A burnished-copper mane of hair. The hint of a strong chin visible as he looks toward the sun setting behind a dark mountain range. Something about his posture makes him appear carefree and easy going. Especially compared to Ever.
âAnd that other fae is Prince Rafael, the current cursed heir to the Throne of Five,â says Sally, breathing down my neck and making me shudder.
âHe looks fun,â I state, not sure why I say it. Both those dudes look scary. To think my cousin married one of them. A shiver rolls down my back.
âHe fun once upon a time. But those days are long past. Come, girl. Letâs not waste any more of my precious time.â She creaks open a long black door that was hidden behind the painting, and I follow a trail of red silk down concrete stairs into a basement. As she walks, she lights ancient-looking wall torches with a snap of her fingers, not once breaking her stride.
âWhy do you live in an old place like this?â I ask, just to fill the death-march silence with some noise. âBeing a faery, Iâm sure you could magic up a stunning, light-filled mansion in the swanky part of town.â
She laughs. âYes, but it is more convenient to reside directly over a portal with direct access to my realm.â
âThis place is a portal?â
âBeneath this basement, yes. And this one is all mine.â She drops off the last step onto a dirt floor, and flames suddenly burst out of the darkness and lick up the stone walls.
âAwesome,â I say, entranced by her fire magic. Despite the low, concrete ceiling, the hexagonal-shaped room seems a lot bigger than the house above, but I guess thatâs magic too. Who knows whatâs real and whatâs illusion? A metallic, coppery scent fills the air as I step down into the room next to Sally.
She fixes those strange red and green eyes on me. âFor a magical being to use this portal, they must pass by me. You were correct that out of all my sisters, it is Ether, the High Mage who has a talent for opening portals. But during my time in the mortal world, I have given many valuable sacrifices and worked many spells into the fabric of this portal, so I can open it at will. Step into the center of the circle.â
Heart pounding in my ears, I do as she bids and walk over a line of glittering red dust.
A high-pitched hum vibrates through the air, its intensity making me grit my teeth.
âLook at the floor, if you donât want to blind yourself, silly girl.â
I drop my gaze as smoke fills the room.
âOne more thing,â she says, her palms manipulating the smoky gray clouds, shaping them into bizarre patterns. âWhen you are in Faery, you must meet and speak with my associate.â
âThat wasnât part of our deal!â
âAnd now it is. I do not ask much, only that you listen to his words. I will arrange the meeting when the time comes. Do you agree to do this?â
If I want to crash the party in Faery, what freaking choice do I have? âAs long as this friend of yours isnât going to hurt me in any way, then sure. Can you promise me they wonât?â
She cackles like a witch. Seems appropriate, I guess. âYes, child. I promise I will not hurt you nor will physical harm come to you as a result of meeting my associate. By pain of fire, I swear this.â
Coughing, I close my eyes against the sting, and Sally begins to chant. Itâs a horrible echoing noise that sounds like one hundred people reciting a black mass rather than one, the only distinguishable words being, â
.â
Her voice rises, growing louder and louder, her whole body shuddering and shaking like sheâs in the middle of a terrible fit.
âSally? Holy shit! Are you okay?â
âI suggest you improve your language when in Faery. The fae are unimpressed by profanity. They will think badly of you and, take my word, you should never wish for that.â
Huh. Ever seemed to think swearing was pretty funny.
The chanting grows louder, the heat of the room unbearable, even for . I feel sick. I might lose my dinner right here, right now, all over a portal into Faery. âWait, stop. I think Iâm gonna pass out⦠I think Iâve changed myââ
The flames disappear, and Iâm swallowed by a vortex of stars, my limbs flung wide as I spin in total darkness. Black; itâs so black and barren and as cold as the grave.
The droning sound is violent, and I wish I would just lose consciousness so I donât have to hear it, a horrible pressure building inside my skull, undulating through my blood. My veins feel like bike tires pumped to maximum capacity, the air inside still building and building.
This is it, the endâIâm dying.
I drift on my back like a helpless lump of flesh and bone, endless galaxies rushing past me, a neon whirl of purple and orange lights shooting across the edges of my vision as I float through space and, , possibly even time.
If I survive this portal, with my luck, Iâll probably land back in the Jurassic Period and have to use my switchblade against a dinosaurâthen Iâll most definitely die. I just hope itâll be over quickly.
Suddenly, the colors fold in on themselves, dropping me back into the sea of blacknessâno stars, no white light, no sound, nothingâand I float onward in an endless void, a forever-night so deep and empty that icy terror fills me.
I feel every molecule of my body begin to shift and swirl and dissolve until, finally, I canât see myself, or feel myself. Iâm nothingâI no longer exist.
Then, like a sack of flour dropped from a great height, I crash into something hard.
The universe stops moving.
Iâm still alive, but everything ! Where the hell am I?
First my eyes fly open, then my mouth. And I scream as loud as I can.
Then Iâm swallowed by the void again.
And Iâm gone. Gone. Gone.