Chapter 15

The day at school seemed longer than usual. I was so annoyed by lunch itself. I walked into the cafeteria and bought a salad. Thankfully, the students were making their way to the cafeteria so I didn’t have to wait in a line. I went towards our regular table where all of us had lunch. I sat in an empty seat between Will and Rosie. Noah always sat beside me so; I chose the seat between them on purpose. Rachel and Liam were already sitting but, the others were yet to come.

“Are you okay?” Rachel asked looking at me a little concerned. She didn’t know anything about my feelings for Noah otherwise I would have never heard the end of it.

I nodded. “Yeah. Why wouldn’t I be?” I said and looked away from her. She looked at me for a couple of minutes and then smiled a little.

I was sitting quietly having my salad. I heard Rachel and Amber whispering something to each other so, I looked up at them. Over their shoulder I saw Noah and Cassie walking in our direction with trays of food in their hands. Noah sat exactly opposite me and Cassie took a seat beside him. She smiled at everyone warmly and then turned to me. She looked at me and her expressions changed then, she put on a fake smile.

I half smiled at her. I was playing with my salad turning it and moving it in the plate. I didn’t want to eat. I was not hungry. I just wanted to get up and run away from everyone especially Noah, go home and lock myself in my room. Noah was looking at me confused. He tilted his head to left, pointing at the empty seat next to him where I always sat.

I didn’t want to seat next to him so; I didn’t pay attention at him. The lunch was passing rather slowly with everybody making small conversions with Cassie so she felt like a part of the group. I hardly spoke to anyone. Will kept looking at me sympathetically but, he couldn’t do anything now.  I squeezed his hand a little reassuringly. Noah was kissing the side of Cassie’s and her neck.

The minute I saw that I got up. Everyone at the table stopped talking and looked at me curiously. “I have to go.” I said picking up my bag. I hung it over my shoulder and walked away as quickly as I could. I heard footsteps behind me but I didn’t stop.

Noah covered the distance between us soon and held my forehand making me stop. It had to be him no one else bothered me so much. I turned around to see Noah looking at me confused and slightly annoyed. Why the hell is he annoyed? I should be the one annoyed not him. He didn’t have any reason to. “Where are you going?” He asked.

I struggled to free my hand from his grip but it didn’t work, he had a death grip on me. I just shook my head and looked away trying to move away from him. He turned me around more and took hold of both my arms moving closer to me. There was an inch space between us; I could feel his hot breath blowing across my face. I refused to look at him. “What the hell is wrong with you?” He asked shaking me a little.

I looked up to see his face. He was looking at me a little worried, confused and hurt. I stated to feel bad for doing this to him. I pushed away the guilt and moved my hands to his chest and pushed him away forcing some distance between us. I won’t let him affect him anymore, I have had enough. “Just leave me alone.” I yelled at him.

Luckily, the hallways were empty during lunch otherwise I would have created a scene. I sighed and looked at Noah. He was looking at me confused and hurt. He was looking so hurt and lost I just wanted to wrap my arms around him. I instantly felt guilty about yelling at him. He didn’t move or anything, he just kept looking at me with sad eyes.

I shouldn’t have yelled at him, he didn’t do anything wrong. This all was only my fault, I couldn’t blame him. “I am sorry Noah. Just leave me alone for a while, please.” I said pleadingly.

He didn’t say anything and just nodded. “I will meet you after your practice, at the car.” I said. He looked at me for a couple of second before nodding.

I started walking without another glance at him. After a few minutes, I turned around and saw Noah walking back in the cafeteria. I just hurt him and now he hates me. I ran to the girl’s washroom and locked the door behind me. I was crying again. Tears were running down my cheeks and I wish I could stop. The feeling of hurt and pain which I was feeling since the morning was releasing in form of tears.

I have no idea how long I was crying. I splashed some water on my face. No one must have thought this but I actually felt a little better after crying. I took a deep breath and made my way towards the next class. I hardly paid any attention to the teachers. I just took note of my homework in every class and left.

The final bell rang, signaling an end to this dramatic school day. I made my way to the library and slumped on a chair of a table in the corner. I pulled out my books and started with some of my homework. By the time I was finished, it was time to leave and meet Noah. After I yelled at him during lunch, I don’t have the courage the face him.

I was walking slowly, using this time to calm my nerves. I reached my locker and opened it, stuffing some books in it. I had finished all of my homework today in the library. I made my way to the car park. Noah was already there, leaning against his car waiting for me. I started walking in his direction and he looked up.

Noah smiled at me and opened the door for me. He is so sweet. I stepped in the front seat of his car and he closed the door. He walked to his side and got in. Noah started the car and we sped off the driveway. I knew what I had to say. After a few minutes, I decided to speak, now is the time.

“Noah, I need to talk to you.” I said. He looked at me curiously. His eyes met fine and I felt a little lightheaded.

“Ok.” He said simply.

Come on, you can do this. “First of all, I am sorry I shouted at you. I shouldn’t have done that.” I admitted a guiltily.

He nodded for me to proceed. “From tomorrow I won’t be coming with you in the morning and after school. In short, I don’t want you to drive me to school.” I said.

Noah pressed the breaks and stopped the car on the side. “Why?” he said looking into my eyes intently. Please stop doing this, you are making this hard for me.

I gulped. “I don’t want to be the third wheel to you and Cassie. Besides, I think she feels a little uncomfortable with me around.” I said.

It was true. I don’t why but she didn’t like me and neither did I. I at least didn’t show my disliking in front of everyone. Noah looked at me curiously. “Rebecca, you don’t need to worry about her. She doesn’t have any problem. Even if she does there is nothing I can’t handle. Don’t worry about her.” He said brushing my hair away from my face.

“Noah, you don’t understand. She is your girlfriend, your first priority should be Cassie not me. You like her and she likes you.” I said trying to see my point of view.

This was my other point of view. My first priority right now was to distance myself from Noah. “Ok, she is my girlfriend but you are my friend, my best friend. I am sure she understands that. I like you too, you know.” He said easily.

I laughed at his desperate attempts to win this argument. I let him win every time but not today. He will have to listen to me. “Look, I don’t want to be the reason for problems between you and Cassie. You guys have just started dating. You should spend more time with her, get to know her.” I said.

“You are sure about this? Rebecca, trust me, you don’t need to this.” He said looking at me pleadingly, begging me with his eyes.

I wanted to give in but, I couldn’t. I had to be strong. “I am sure. I want you to be happy with Cassie. This needs to be done. Please try to understand.” I said pleadingly, pouting a little.

He never resisted to my puppy dog face. “This is not fair you know. You can’t use this face always to get your way.” He said smiling and starting to drive again.

He pulled up in the driveway of my house. He opened the door for me. He took my hand and we entered the house, going straight to the kitchen to make dinner, “I can still come over for dinner everyday right?” He asked looking at me a little worried.

I chuckled. “Yes you can.” I said and breathed a sigh of relief. “I love your cooking definitely don’t want to miss that.” He said slapping my ass playfully.

I gasped in shock and he laughed again at my expression. I slapped his chest playfully and pulled out ingredients to make lasagna. Noah was helping me by chopping some salad eating half of it in the process making me laugh. Maybe he didn’t have his lunch properly. I felt bad that I was the reason he is so hungry.

After an hour the lasagna was ready and we sat on the counter to eat it. Noah and I were chatting easily and laughing making little jokes. We talked about my old school and my friends there. He told me about his trip with some of his friends to the beach house. He said that he would take me there once and I will enjoy so much that I will bed him to take me there again.

We had our dinner and watched TV for a while. Now it was time for Noah to go and he was hovering behind me nervously. He never liked to go to his house, it got lonely. He liked to spend time at my house with me and sometimes with my parents too. They adored Noah a lot and treated him like family which he loved.

Noah reluctantly made way to the door. He opened the door and turned around pulling me to him tightly in a hug. I buried my face in his chest and breathed him in like I always did. He smelled amazing and I didn’t want to let go. He pulled away and brushed a strand of hair from my face putting it behind my ear, his fingers trailing on my cheek.

“I am going to miss you.” He said. I could hear the sincerity of his voice and could see the honesty in his eyes. There was no reason to doubt him.

I smiled at him warmly for the first time today. I had been giving him fake smile and ignored him and behaved like a total bitch to him. “I will miss you too.” I said sincerely.

He sighed and bent forward to kiss my cheek. He had no idea what he did to my insides when he touched me. I wondered if I had any effect on at all. Noah left and I made my way to my bedroom. It was still early to go to bed. I went in the bathroom and to run a bath for myself. I removed my clothes and wore my hair up. I settled myself in a bath with a book in my hand. For an hour I was in the tub reading.

The water went cold and I got out wrapping a towel around myself. I was thinking if I read in the bath I will be able to stop myself from thinking about Noah but it backfired. The romantic scenes which were going on I imagined me and Noah in their place. I sighed, I am in serious trouble and only Noah can help me. I changed into my pajamas and got into the bed.

Hopefully the next few days at school will be better. I was in mood to handle so much drama every day. In fact I hated it, I wished the next few days will be easier. Noah and Cassie will tone down their PDA’s in a few days at least I hope they do. I don’t know for sure but if Cassie makes Noah happy I might even like her. I laughed at that thought. I knew I will never like her, whatever happens. I closed my eyes and drifted to a peaceful sleep.

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