Chapter 18

After a long and dramatic day the school was finally over. Thank God, if I had to spend one minute more I would have died of boredom. I packed all of my stuff and headed towards the car. What am I going to say to Noah when he comes over tonight? I started the car and tuned into the radio to keep my mind off Noah for at least a few minutes. I reached home and opened the front door. The house was silent like usual.

I still can’t believe my parents noticed something was wrong with me. They are amazing parents but they spend most of their time at work so that came as a little surprise. I glanced at the clock on the wall; Noah will be here in an hour. I have got to figure something out, I told him I would. Oh God, please help me. If he really likes Cassie and is happy with her, I guess I got to let him go. It’s going to be harder than I think.

I just want him to be happy even if it’s with Cassie. I know it is going to be painful and difficult to let him go but I would die for that boy this is nothing. I just want him happy even if it hurts me. It’s like people say, when you love someone let them go. I am not going to try and hold on to him, it will be selfish to tie him down like that. I went to the kitchen and made myself a hot cup of coffee and sat on the couch waiting for Noah.

Ok, I will ask him first about his feelings for Cassie and get to know how strong they are. Then, if he really likes her I will tell him to agree. If he doesn’t feel much for her then, I don’t think there is going to be any problem. I just hope that he goes for the second option but a part of me knew that he won’t. He will not be ready but I can convince him if that’s what it takes. In the past few days, we have become distant and it is entirely my fault.

There was a knock on the door and got up immediately running to the door. I stopped and took a couple of deep breaths to calm myself. I opened the door and there stood Noah looking breathtaking as ever. He always manages to have an effect on me whether it is due to his looks or his words. He smiled and stepped forward pulling me into a tight hug. He hugged me tightly and lifted me off my feet.

I was clinging to him for dear life. He picked me up like I weigh nothing. I loved being this close to him, our bodies fitted perfectly together. I am so stupid, I just never give up but there is nothing wrong in having hope. He set me down on my feet and pulled away. He was looking into my eyes longingly like trying to figure something out then brushed a loose strand of hair from my forehead.

I had already ordered a pizza for us tonight; I didn’t want to cook today. We both settled ourselves on the couch and just stared at each other. I was waiting for Noah to say something and he was waiting for me. Ok, I will say something before he does maybe it will be easy.

“I need to say something.” We both said at the same time. That was weird like he was reading my mind. We both looked at each other and chuckled.

“You go first.” Noah said his smile slowly fading away. Please don’t this I can’t talk to him when he looks at me like this sad and slightly confused.

“Um...what are we going to do?” I asked. I hope things don’t get weird between us from now on. This has never happened before, we always have something to say to each other but right now none of us have any idea.

Noah sighed. “What do you mean?” He asked looking at his feet. This means he is as nervous as I am so I don’t need to worry.

“About Cassie. She clearly hates me and she is your girlfriend. You need to do something.” I said making myself more comfortable on the couch.

Noah didn’t answer for a long time and I just sat there looking at him. There was a knock on the door. Oh it must be our pizza. I got up and grabbed my purse heading to the door. I paid the delivery guy and set the pizza box on the coffee table. I went to the kitchen and removed two plates and water bottles.

I went to the lounge and Noah was still sitting in the same position I left him in. “Noah, say something will you? You are freaking me out.”I said setting the plates and bottles on the table.

“I don’t know what to say.” He said bending forward and taking a slice of pizza in his plate. I did the same and closed the box so it won’t get cold.

“You don’t know what to say so you think saying nothing is better?” I asked him and took a bite of my pizza. Damn, I am hungry; I only had cookies for lunch.

He just shook his head and continued eating. “Stop running away and do something, figure something out.” I said shrugging. Typical Noah, whenever things don’t go according to his plans, he starts avoiding them instead of facing it.

“I won’t give you up, I know that much.” He said looking at me sternly. He looked into my eyes with a fierce intensity which was actually making me uncomfortable.

“Can I ask you something?” I said looking away from his intense gaze. He made me feel uncomfortable and lightheaded with his gazing.

He shrugged. “You can ask me anything, you know that.” He said shaking rubbing the back of his neck.

I smiled and took a bite of my pizza. “Do you really like Cassie? I mean a lot?” I asked trying to be casual and unbothered. They had been dating for two weeks so I think they should know how serious their relationship is.

He nodded. “I like her not a lot since today morning.” He said easily making me laugh. He always tries to lighten up the mood.

“Does she make you happy?” I asked looking at him intently. His face fell and he ran a hand through his hair and then looked away. He is hiding something from me, I am sure.

He took another two slices of pizza and finished then within seconds. This boy can eat a lot. I didn’t say anything and just waited for him to finish eating. After a few minutes we both were done. Noah ate the whole pizza almost by himself.

“You didn’t answer me and don’t lie, I will know if you do.” I said biting my lower lip nervously not knowing what to expect him to say. I crossed my arms over my chest, waiting for him to answer me.

He sighed and ran his hand through his black hair making it stick in all directions. “I don’t know I like her but its more in a physical way. I mean we don’t have a connection or a bond, you know what I mean?” He asked looking at me desperately, I nodded. “Last two-three days have been really stressed full; we have been fighting a lot.” He said.

I nodded. “Because of me.” I said simply.

He shook his head. “Not only because of you. We have been arguing about everything so much that I don’t even like spending time with her. The first week everything was nice, we spent most of our time in bed.” He said.

“Whoa, I don’t need details.” I said raising my hand to stop him from giving me any more details. He laughed and looked away again.

“I don’t know I just don’t feel anything for her. Everything’s changed.” He said looking defeated. I scooted closer to him and placed my hand on his shoulder.

“Don’t worry, everything will be fine.” I said trying to make him feel better. I didn’t have any hope to be honest their relationship was not very strong one. A part of me was really happy about it.

“If you just agree to her.” Noah shook his head fiercely interrupting me. I knew he wouldn’t even let me suggest it but it is an option that may work, if he wants it to.

“No. You remember once you said to me that it is better for any relationship to run their course. The people who are in it need to figure out their problems without any interference from others. You said that, remember?” He asked.

I nodded. Its sounds like something I would say. I don’t remember when I said it but I must have read it somewhere and would have told him that. “Then isn’t this interfering? Let things run their course. What has to happen will happen, you or me can’t do anything to stop it.” He said fiercely ending the discussion.

“I will never give you up for any girl. If having a relationship means letting you go then I don’t want to be in one.” He said and got up and left.

I just stared at him in disbelief; I pinched myself to check if I am dreaming. Oh my God, that was so sweet. I got up and ran behind him. I can’t believe he will do that for me. I have been cold and distant with him since he started dating Cassie. I love him was not his fault but I blamed him without any reason. From now on I won’t avoid him or distant myself from him. I will be the way I use to be before realizing my love for him.

“Noah waits.” I said when I saw him opening his car door. He turned around and looked at me. I ran to him and hugged him catching him off guard; he steadied himself by placing a hand on his car for support. He wrapped his arms around me.

I buried my head in the crook of his neck and breathed him in like always. I can’t believe I have been behaving like a bitch to him but he still cares. Is this boy real or have I made him up? No one can be so perfect, can they? I love with everything in me but I am more than happy to be his friend. He is the most important thing to me; I need him even if I can keep him just as friend.

“I am sorry.” I mumbled in to his ear. He pulled away but his hand was still around my waist. He looked at me confused. “Sorry for what?” He asked.

I wish I could tell you, I really do. “Just for everything.” I said looking down at my feet. I don’t want to think about the last two weeks anymore. From tomorrow, there will be a new beginning to us, our friendship at least I hope for it.

He brushed my hair away from my forehead. “You have done nothing to be sorry. You have always been there for me; you make me wanna be a better person. You are perfect.” He said.

I can see the truth in his eyes and the sincerity of his words. I have no reason to doubt him, I can tell by just looking at him that he means every word he just said. I could feel my vision getting blur, I am so pathetic. “Thank you.” I said and buried my face in his chest.

I have no idea how long we stood there, wrapped up in each other’s arms. However long it was, it was not long enough. I could die in this moment and be the happiest girl in the world. Noah’s phone buzzed and I pulled away from him reluctantly. His one hand was firm on my waist; he looked at his caller id and frowned. We looked at each other, there was something different.

I swear for a minute I could see all his love shinning for me in his blue eyes. I think I am hallucinating or I have too much hope of him loving me back. “I should go.” Noah said removing his hand from my waist and pointing towards his car.

“Ok, will see you tomorrow in the morning.” I said and he looked at me confused. “You won’t drive me to school like before?” I added.

A look of understanding crossed his face and he smirked at me. “Can’t stay away huh?” He asked cockily at then winked at me. I missed this Noah so much.

I just shook my head and waved at him. He got into his car and sped of the driveway. I went inside and closed the door behind me and leaned against it. Noah makes me so happy and I can truly be myself with him. I am so glad that dad took the job here otherwise I would have never met Noah. I smiled and made my way to my room. I just don’t want to stop smiling, I am so happy today.

I changed into my sleepwear, brushed my teeth and got into bed. My phone vibrated on my nightstand, I took it and felt a smile creeping up on my face. It was Noah. “Hello.” I said trying to hide my excitement.

“I just want to make something sure.” He asked.

“What?” I asked. God knows what this boy is thinking sometimes it impossible to predict how this boy’s brain works. I am excited to know what he has to say.

“If you are back.” He simply replied.

If I am back? He is crazy. “What do you mean?” I asked confused.

“You have been different for past few days. Today I saw the old you after a long time, the one I like a lot more than the one you have been in this past few days.” He said.

I was expecting him to not realize that I had been different. I wish I could make it go away but I can’t. I can make sure though that it never happens again. “I am sorry.” I said.

“Don’t be silly. I must have done something. The past is past right?” He asked.

“Yeah, it is.” I said. I didn’t even care if he noticed my behavior. I thought he was too busy with Cassie to be thinking or even bothering about me.

“I will pick you up tomorrow. Bye.” He said and hung up.

I kept my phone back on the nightstand and lay down on my back. Today has been a very significant day. In the morning I thought I was going to lose Noah forever but by the evening I think that we can never be without each other. In a few months, when we go to college I hope he would still want to be friends. I could talk to him on the phone or could visit him sometimes. Hopefully, he will be ready to settle down by then and I may have chance. I will wait for him forever; he is worth the entire wait.

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