7- Mind VS Heart

*Picture Reference: Kasey is on the left and Kaspar is on the right.*

Elian’s POV

Sunlight peeked through the thin, transparent curtains of the guest room and occasionally hit the side of my face. With a groan, I turned my head and buried it into a hard surface, which was supposed to be a soft, fluffy pillow instead. In a state of confusion, I lifted my head to find my body incredibly close to both of the Alphas. Kasey was pressed up against my back with an arm thrown over my waist while I had recently buried my head into Kaspar’s toned chest. To be honest, it was pure bliss to be in such a close position with my mates. Although, it did make me hornier as well.

Through the entire night, I was dreaming and fantasizing about the Alphas taking me every which way.

Dirty thoughts filled my head as I imagined Kasey kissing down my neck with light bites here and there while Kaspar gave his utmost attention to my easily hardened buds. Without noticing that I was quickly arousing myself while I was in between the two people that I wanted to ravish, I subconsciously started to rut into the bed. With more imaginations of the twins claiming as their own in all of the ways possible, I began to quicken the pace of my unintentional motions against the bed and brought both of my hands into my shirt and over the hardened pecks.

I soon realized what I was doing in front of the Alphas and what they would wake up to if I continued. By then, I was already in a state of pure ecstasy allowing logic and reason to exit the room. At that point, I was far too gone. In my defense, the twins were deep sleepers, always have been since the early days. As all of the minor details of worrying were over, I closed my eyes and let the pleasure take over my body.

Each time my lower half would make contact with the mattress, a low pant would emit from my small mouth. The motions were repeated in a fast pace and soon enough, beads of sweat were descending down my face. As I was close to my release, Kasey moved his arm in a rubbing gesture against my own arm. As much as I wanted to halt my release, the rubbing motion of Kasey’s arm brought me over the edge as the skin to skin contact of mates were quite intense, especially when one is in the state of being sexually aroused. My release was quick but desperately needed if I were to be with the two of these men for a whole month to come.

My breathing was starting to become calm when I noticed that I had dirtied the pair of underwear that I was wearing. I lifted myself off of the bed by jumping over Kaspar’s body and heading to the bathroom with a new pair of boxers. When I looked in the mirror that morning after freshening up a little, a blissful smile was staring back at me. My wings were finally stretched out, aching to get flying at free will.

I honestly cannot believe I had just done that in front of them.

I exited the bathroom with fresh underwear and sweats, and then realized that I had forgotten to re-apply the enchantment. It must have worn off already and my scent was basically clouding the room, and most likely the rest of the houses. Which would then make the Alphas aware of their mate’s presence. I soon devised a plan and grabbed a new shirt that happened to look like the other one as I took off my old shirt and walked out into the hallway of the second floor. The dark, hardwood floor sent cold shivers through my body as my bare feet took steps towards the staircase. There were noises and conversations downstairs as I peeked through a few doors until I had found Daniel’s room. I lightly walked over to his bed and pushed my old shirt into the back of one of his pillows. Afterwards, I performed the enchantment and continued to head downstairs.

Even though I had already made the enchantment for myself, the scent from before would still linger around the house for sure when the Alphas awoke. Allowing, them to search for the source of the smell, and then targeting Daniel’s room. And the rest is pretty self-explanatory.

As I lightly walked down the stairs and into the kitchen, Cara was by the stove and flipping pancakes occasionally. Everyone was scattered around like yesterday, eating here and there. Caspian and Daniel were speaking with one another at the kitchen island while they were eating breakfast. When I was finally in everyone’s sight, there were murmurs of greetings as I nodded my head in reply.

“Hi, honey. There are some pancakes here on the counter for you,” Cara said as she pointed out the tall stack of golden, brown pancakes on the counter.

“Thank you,” I say quietly, and take a seat by Caspian and Daniel at the island.

“How was your sleep?” Caspian asked.

I stiffened, remembering the sexual dreams and earlier this morning, “One of the best sleeps I have had in a while, actually.”

Caspian nodded, and was about to ask another question when a loud growl emitted from upstairs. In a few moments, Kaspar entered the kitchen with a black tee in his hand and Kasey trailed behind him.

“Would you like to tell me what this was doing in your bedroom?” Kaspar asked Daniel.

Daniel furrowed his eyebrows and shrugged, “It’s a simple, black tee.”

“Is it yours?”

“Could be, I don’t know.’”

Everyone in the house was utterly confused except for me. I am the one who planted the black t-shirt in Daniel’s room so the Alphas wouldn’t know that I am the owner of it. My scent was all over the tee since I forgot to reapply the enchantment. And when I finally did, it was too late. Which made me think of this brilliant plan of having the Alphas think that Daniel was their mate.

Now, that does seem sketchy. For one, Daniel already informed everyone at last night’s dinner that merpeople do not have mates. Secondly, that pairing is just visibly off, there is no way in hell that the moon goddess would pair my Alphas with Danny. It just simply wasn’t done.

Caspian cleared his throat to capture the curious people in the room, “Alphas, will you please explain the reasoning behind the black tee. It is not that big of a deal, that it was lying around in Daniel’s room, is it?”

Kasey shook his head and proceeded to talk, “Caspian, the black tee contains the scent of Kaspar and I’s mate.”

After that little sentence was spoken, the whole room started to talk in a hushed tone, wondering who in the house was the mate to the Alphas. And soon enough, they would all realize that the Alphas’ mate is a male, and be disgusted by the unholy pairing. I tried to remain stoic and passive by munching on my pancakes quietly while the scene before me unfolded itself. But at this point, I started to feel light headed again, for the second time that week.

I walked over to the refrigerator to find some orange juice, to help with the dehydration. Though when I opened the right door of the refrigerator, retrieved the juice carton to open it, and pour it into a cup, all I remember seeing was the spilled juice on the counter before seeing blackness.

>>

There were a circle of people hovering over me when I started to regain consciousness and blink my eyes a few times. I was situated in the living room, on a couch, and when I started to groan at the queasy feeling I had in the pit of my stomach, everyone was panicking and asking me what was wrong.

I was never that Fae that craved attention from others, especially when I was injured or ill, it made me seem weak. So I waved my hand, and opened my mouth to beg these people to stop breathing down my neck.

“I’m fine, everyone.”

Immediately, some pulled away and dispersed themselves among the house while others continued to pat my forehead and crowd around me for a sign of an illness. My frustration began to grow when I quickly released my wings and flew upward in a haste motion that would knock those, who were suffocating me, down.

I was in the air, steadily floating in the high ceiling of the living room, when I threw my hands up, “Look, I am perfectly fine.”

As soon that statement left my mouth, my body betrayed me and my wings surprisingly lost their fluttering movement that allowed me to stay in the air. I soon felt myself falling, a feeling that I would have never guessed I would feel in my lifetime. My hands were over my eyes, to lessen the traumatic experience, and squeals exited my mouth as I fell into another’s arms.

When I removed my hands from blocking my eyesight, I found Kasey looking down at me with a saddened expression.

“You are obviously not in well-enough condition. Do not lie to us again, do you understand?” He questioned me as I nodded my head.

In my royal blood, I wanted to shake my head and declare that I was my own ruler that did not have to take orders or scoldings from anyone. However, nothing would have changed, I have always felt this submissive side whenever I in the presence of the Alphas. It was most likely to mating effects.

My mind was flooded with thoughts of my own, when I didn’t realize that I was being carried by Kasey. That was the last straw for this dominant and controlling behavior of both, Kaspar and Kasey. I patted his shoulder and hopped off of him. As I straightened out my clothing, I sent glares to the two Alphas.

“I can walk myself, thank you very much.”

“Very well then, we leave at sunset, so be ready by then.” Kaspar mentioned.

“Yes, master.” I said as I headed for the stairs and entered the empty guest bedroom.

Or so I thought.

“I know your secret,” an ominous voice stated as I swiftly turned my head to the sitting area of the room.

I rolled my eyes when I found Nikolai, the newest Fae warrior, sitting on a loveseat with a blanket draped over him. He simply raised his eyebrows and shrugged his shoulders, allowing my authority over him to waver slightly as I was indeed curious as to what he knows.

“Nikolai, speak, now.” I ordered and he was immediately aware that I was not in a playful mood for his carefree behavior.

“Uh, Elian, I know what you’re hiding. I didn’t mean to intentionally discover it, my logic and reason put two and two together, to solve the little curiosity that I had.”

“And what secret would that be?” I asked as I stood still in the middle of the room, hoping it wasn’t what I thought it was.

“Elian, you are the true mate of the Alphas downstairs,” he exclaimed and my reaction gave away any of the possible ways that I could have denied his assumptions.

Instead, like I had done with Daniel, I sighed and walked over to the loveseat. Nikolai scooted over and offered some of the blanket, which I kindly accepted.

“Your secret is safe with me, Elian.”

I nodded and flashed a small smile, “How did you possibly come up with this?”

“It all started at the Celestial Hala Pack celebration, when you disappeared for a while and then reappeared when the Alphas declared that they were looking for their mate. Then, throughout the entire trip so far, I can tell the motions and communication between one another is nothing that can be described as friendship. It is much deeper. And Jasper started asking questions about the enchantments and other things we use to disguise our unusual glows in the human world. The enchantments should not drain this much of your power. Here, many secrets unraveled. Your gay confession, the Alpha’s sleeping arrangements with you, and your black tee. It all adds up.”

Damn, this kid was good.

He sent me a nervous smile before I breathed in and out, “How did you figure out that the black tee was mine instead of Daniel’s?”

“Because you just confirmed my suspicions,” he said with a smirk as I gaped like a fish.

How many other people were going to discover the deepest secret of mine before the Alphas do?

Shortly after we talked for a few minutes about the circumstances that I put myself in, the Alphas walked into the room and growled at the two of us. The mere sight of me and another person being close, sets them off for reasons that they do not know yet.

Nikolai excused himself, and I decided to bring up Ambrogio the next time we have a discussion. After Nikolai passed the tall Alphas, Kaspar and Kasey walked over to the loveseat and sat down on either side of me, like the sleeping arrangements that took place last night.

“Eli, we need you to be completely honest with the two of us.” Kasey ordered as I bit my lip, anxious for the questions that would come.

“What are you doing to your body?” Kaspar asked.

I sighed, trying to remain innocent, “I told the two of you already! The unnatural glow that alarms the human world needs to be covered up, the enchantments make me deprived of energy. Which is probably why I fainted this morning.”

Suddenly, Kaspar stood up and walked away, exiting the room. I almost stood up as well, to chase after him, but two strong hands held me down on the loveseat.

“Let him be, he needs time.” Kasey advised as I sighed, this was all of my fault.

My bottom lip trembled as I tried to explain myself to Kasey, “I blame myself for all of this, I am sorry I continually push the two of you away from me. You wouldn’t understand what my motives for my actions are.”

I watched a tear fall onto the sweatpants that I was wearing at the moment and felt a hand on my cheek, bringing my eyes to match up with his.

“Try me.”

I shook my head, I was dangerously close to confessing the truth.

“We both promised with our lives, Kaspar and I, that we will never leave your side.”

Kasey’s soothing voice spoke those words as if they were the result of his last breath, his eyes flickered down my face and up again, and I found it hard to breathe again. It was as if he impossibly leaned closer to me, and all that was needed was a little more leaning on my part to have our lips meet as one.

My mind battled my heart as it always does when it comes to anything related to my mates, but as always, my heart was persistent and stronger.

In that split second, I decided to go with my heart.