Chapter Nineteen

"I hate you right now," I told Funke.

She gasped, "why?"

"Because you didn't tell me about Andrew." I pulled my best angry face. I mean I was angry but not that angry.

She pulled her lips to a thin line and sat back in her chair. "So he finally got the courage to apologise." She said more to herself.

"How could you keep such from me? I thought we were friends?" I jutted out my bottom lip.

"He said he didn't want you to know and I respected his decision even though I was really itching to tell you." She leaned in again. "I'm sorry," she smiled apologetically.

"Your know if you had told me, I-" I paused to look around the kitchen even though Miles wasn't home and won't be for at least the next two to three hours. "I wouldn't have moved on with Miles. I can't believe you sat back and watched me make such a decision." I scolded.

"I thought that's what you really wanted. Who an I to stop you?" She shrugged.

I sighed. "I'm all levels confused."

"How does Andrew feel about everything?"

"I don't really know. I mean we've talked and all but he never really showed anything. I think he just wants to be here for the baby." Andrew and I have met up a few times since we talked about two weeks ago and that's honestly the only vibes I'm getting from him. I guess we've both resolved that we can't be anything more than baby mama and baby daddy.

"And you," she quirked a brow as if waiting for me to challenge her words.

"No Funke, I'm not going to argue with you but I know what I see." I shook my head in disagreement.

"What you think you see."

"Fu-"

"Do you really think he'll easily give up on you like that? God, Vic you are the air that guy breathes." Her voice went an octave higher.

"Andrew and I-"

She rose a finger. "I'm not done." Her head moved from side to side. "Not to mention that he's the father of your baby and he's well aware of this and you think he's going to give up, just like that? For someone that has known him all her life, I'm really disappointed in you for not figuring this out."

Nope. It's not possible.

"I'll believe it when I see it." I just can't take her words like that, it's not possible that Andrew would still want me, we've closed that chapter of our lives six months ago.

Or could I be wrong?

"Don't tell me I told you so." She rolled her eyes.

The doorbell rang and I looked that way. Andrew is here. "I have to go, we'll talk later."

"Love you," she blew me a kiss.

"Love you too." I hung up. "It's open!" I called and I heard the door open and shut close.

"One sec." I quickly wiped the counter top I just finished eating on, wiped my hands and met him in the living room.

"You ready?" He held my bag for me.

"Yep." I nodded and reached for my bag but he pulled it away from my reach and I just scoffed and followed him out of the house and locked the door.

"Should I unlock my hair," he ran his fingers through his dreadlocks.

I studied him. Till date, I still don't know which I prefer on him, locks or his taper fade cut, honestly he looks unbelievably gorgeous on both.

"If you want, you know I love you with or without it." It took a second for the meaning of my words to click in, or at least what it sounded like.

My hand went over my mouth and a chuckle left his lips. "Okay, it's staying."

I avoided his eyes as he opened the passengers door for me and I gently settled myself on the seat.

Since Andrew reappeared, he has really been here for me when Miles isn't. Miles has been working and isn't always home so Andrew comes over, keeps me company and overall he has been really helpful.

"I'm thinking of going back to Nigeria," I told Andrew as he drove.

It's just a thought and I haven't told anyone else. Andrew looked at me for a second before fixing his eyes back on the road.

"Why?"

"What do you mean why?"

"Why do you want to go back home?" He stole a quick glance at me again

"Because it's my home." I stated. "Well one of my homes," I lifted and dropped my shoulders.

Andrew smacked his lips, "well if that's what you want."

I sighed. "I told you because I want your opinion. What do you think?"

"Victoria, whatever decision you make, I'm okay with it."

"You know what I want to hear from you." I rolled my eyes.

"Well it'll be nice to go home, this whole New York scenario isn't it for me." We stopped at a red light and Andrew turned to me. "That's what I think."

"And by home you mean?"

"Chicago," he confirmed my thoughts.

I nodded and looked out the window. "I'll let you know of my decision."

"What about Miles, would he agree to it? That's if you make up your mind to leave." He put the car back in motion as the light turned green.

He has no other option. I wanted to say but I held my tongue when I remembered everything that was going on.

Miles and I are in a relationship and whatever decision I make also affects him. I can't tell him to just uproot himself once again and follow me. He can't just leave work again, he has a life here.

I want to leave New York, I really do but since no one's pressuring me to come home and there's really nothing I'm rushing back home to do, maybe it's best I just sit back.

I didn't know how to respond to Andrew's question so I kept shut till we were inside a coffee shop and stuffing our mouths with donut.

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It was dark by the time Andrew dropped me back home so I was already so exhausted and wasn't expecting Miles back by that time and a confrontation at that.

"Where were you?" He asked.

I dropped myself on the couch and began to take off my shoes. "Out," I said casually because at first I didn't know he was so serious.

"Where and with who?" His words caused me to look up with a creased forehead.

"Andrew and we just hung out, talked, had lunch." I reached a hand out waiting for him to help me to stand up but he didn't get the memo so I rolled my eyes and helped myself up. "Why the questions?"

"Andrew, really?" He scoffed and rested his hands on his waist.

I was slowly catching up to his emotions.  "What's going on?" I pressed my palms to his chest and looked up at him.

"Today Andrew, tomorrow Andrew again, the next day, it's still Andrew, for God sake Victoria!" He rose his voice and took a step back, extinguishing any physical touch between us.

"What are you insinuating?" I didn't want have it in me to shout, I was too tired for that. "I told you, Andrew and I have closed that chapter of our lives. The only thing that ties us together is this baby." I placed my hand on my baby pumb.

"Don't you get it?" He shook his head. "You think you've both closed that chapter but has he? And this baby, it'll always tie you two together, no matter what."

I sighed, finally getting where he's coming from. "Babe, you have to trust me, Andrew and I are never getting back together." I tried to reassure him.

He looked at me and kept looking away.

"Trust me Miles," I hugged him and he slowly loosened up.

"I just don't want to lose you." He confessed.

"I'm right here." He held unto me tighter.

I hope this time around, I can stay true to my words.

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