Chapter 45

Being a doctor is a treacherous venture that needs a complete dedication and passion to the field of medicine. I encountered various of risk and sacrifices in order to save a person.

"ang ganda niya no??"

I was scrolling in lobby's pc and checked the dosage of medicine that my nurse inputed when i asked her to record it after operation.

My eyes landed to the screen of one of the nurses here who's busy hunting whoever that person is.

"Stop with your chatter boxes , it's working time go back to your work." I said and they looked shocked with my presence. Seriously? I've been standing here for half an hour now. I should really discuss this to dad, what an incompetent nurses.

My gaze turned to pc's screen. They literally stalked a woman using one of the hospital's technology instrument, the guts i can't. I was mesmerized by her eyes, no doubt why the nurses here are praising this kid. I think it's one of her post since the window had replaced to an instagram acc.

Her name is Rajim Lopez huh? cool kid.

I turned off the pc and walk my way to my office. I'm really tired right now. I was resting my head to my leather swivel chair when the face of that kid show up in the middle of pile up thoughts.

I immediately opened my phone and go to my instagram account. I searched her name. Her icon is new, this is not what i saw earlier. She updated it and tapped her profile pic.

(A/N:photo not mine , just a portrayer)

She looks so good here. Her jawline, nose, eyes everything in her face. She looks fearless here.

I scrolled down. There's a pic a minutes ago.

I immediately turned off my phone when i realized that i've been staring to her pictures for about 30 mins now. What the hell Soline , when did you start checking a woman.?

" Doc Sol! Yung patient po sa A-3 inatake!."

I run to the hallway and find myself in the room. She's having a cardiac arrest. I tried reviving her but i couldn't see the waves that could bring her back. I checked her pulse and breath.

"Time of death: 4:45pm" i said and stormed out to the room.

It's normal to encounter scenario like that but sometimes it saddens me. It's the cycle of life, you either choose to fight for you to live or just give up.

"Soline we're planning to go to the bar this 6, do you wanna come?"

I think i really need a drink right now.

"Yeah." i dropped my phone inside my pocket and walked my way back to my office to get my things ready.

I immediately drove my car to the bar. I went to an executive table near the counter. I ordered different drinks, vodka,tequila,gin and etc. It's still 5:30 and i'm giving myself a hard drinks. I really felt bad for my patient. I can still pictured out how her parents broke down when i announced that she's dead.

"Hoy bruha ang aga mo naman!"

I gaze up and met Ylona's eyes, she's one of my friend. We're actually 10 in a group.

"Have a drink, here." i hand her the glass of vodka when she sitted next to me.

I've been drinking hard to release my stress in work and the pressure i felt.

A couple of minutes passed by and my other friends are starting to show up. We'd been friends way back in college days and that's where our friend cycle started.

Alliyah Rodriquez, Luji Mendoza, Alex Roa, Ylona Marqueza, Lajace Parker, Keziah Ruscé, Lincoln Maniego, Chase Gustavo, Killian Jaques.

" di makakapunta ang mga itlog na bubuyog. Si Lincoln busy mag imbestiga may kasong hawak eh ,si Killian naman may flight ngayon, si Chase ewan ko dun lumandi nanamn yung unicorn." Lajace stated.

"Soline how's work? You look so tired , you should've rest" Keziah asked.

My head was spinning and i think i'm really drunk already.

"Don't mind me , i just need this."

We just talked about random stuffs, related works and life, well sila lang pala because my blurry sight was unbearable.

I just felt someone touched my hand but i didn't mind at all dahil pagod na ang katawan ko.

The next thing i know i waked up in my bed but i don't feel the pain anymore. I was confused for a moment when Nanay Sora told me about the girl who drove me home last night, maybe one of my friends.

"Hey are u okay now?? Someone took advantage of you last night and thanked God may tumulong samin."

My eyebrows immediately raised up when i read the text message of Alliyah. Did someone dare to touched me??

Weeks passed and one of my friend and client before Lian Custadio offered me a job to be one of the new Professors in her university which i instantly declined.

I don't think i could still push it through. I'm needed in the Hospital and i'm busy.

I drive my way to Custadio Imperium University because of Lian's stubborness. Base on the email she sent a few hours ago before the operation, she really intended to include me in one of her newest professors.

I was even shocked when i saw my 3 friends in the list so i bet Lian also offered the job to them ey.

I walked my way to Lian's office and i didn't mind the students' stares. Without a knock i opened the door of her office.

"I need to discuss it with you asap." I coldly said to her. I turned to the students who was about to go out. I was shocked but i instantly hide it when i saw her face.

It's her that Rajim Lopez. Is she a student here?? What is she even doing here??

"Lian i'll accept your offer."

She gasp slightly and a second later she smiled widely to me.

"Nice! A'right i'll show you to your office."

She gave me a lil description to the univeristy as we walked our way to infirmary, i think she'll show me my office here. I really demand for the biggest office here since i wanted everything to be properly organized and neat. I don't like dirts , it's disgusting.

I was talking to the nurse who was assigned to inject the medicine i'd prescribed but she just told me her useless reasons.

I didn't notice that i was gripping my phone real hard because of the incidents in parking area. I don't like the feeling of being intimidated to a girl, a student to be exact.

"Introduce yourself."

I don't know why i felt hapiness when i saw her holding a map with her hands inside the classroom.

"I'm Rajim Jaziah C. Lopez nice meeting y'all."

There's something started to build inside my system when i saw her classmates looked at her with amazement and adoration. All of sudden i just wanted to get their eyeballs away from her.

Furious and Fuel. Raging with fires of random emotion, exactly what i'm feeling the moment she roamed her eyes. Why can't she just look at me straightly? If she wanted to find a scenery full of beauty , i would gladly stand in front of her.

My heart jumped in joy the moment she walked closer to me and fixed my buttons. I could freely examined her face. Her beautiful face. Her dark orbs who speaks hundred of emotions.

"Ay kaloka ka teh kanina kapa nakangiti jan."

I mentally cussed when Chase suddenly barged inside my office. I had enough with his fucked up bubbles regarding his true self. He's still not out in his family , that's why sometimes he would use me to cover his shit.

I was walking when i heard a voice not that far from my office. There i find her, singing angelically. I was smiling the whole time while watching her. The sight is too much for me to handle. There's something in her that awakened my interest. I immediately run when she raised her gaze in my directions. My heart was beating loudly. I don't know why i find her so charming.

That's why when the battle of music came, i instantly recommended her to my co adviser, with that talent? It deserve to be recognized.

I don't know if i was just hallucinating things when i saw a pain plastered in her eyes the moment i'd confirmed if i have a boyfriend. It was not my plan to say that but it just slipped in my mouth and i don't have the courage to pull it back.

"Gaga ka bat mo sinabi na jowa moko?!."

Chase and i were really close to each other since we're still in college. He looks so manly on the outside that's why most of the people thought that we have a thing to each other, disgusting tho.

"Alam kong gusto mo yang bata na yan , ano nga ulit pangalan nun? Rajim Jaziah? Hanep ka sa bata kalang pala lalambot at sa babae pa talaga. Welcome to the club."

If there's only a gun here i would definitely smash his head and his mucky mouth.

My heart was filled with joy when i stared at her along with my nephew, vibing and laughing. It was one of the best thing that ever happened to me. I could even picture us having a kids.

As much as i wanted to suppress my emotion whenever she's doing something unintentional with her girls. I couldn't handle it lightly as if there's telling me to hold her and just embrace her in my arms.

God knows how possessive i am towards her. I'm selfish when it comes to her. She's the only one who could tame and understand my movement.

"Layuan mo siya Soline, hindi mo kilala ang taong yan. She'll hurt you."

I wanted to punched Percival so much when he suddenly barged inside my room in our house and talked shit about my ayah. He kepts on telling me to avoid her , that she would bring pain to me at the end.

"You need to be careful Soline , di mo kilala si Rajim. Loving her is a sacrifice Soline , pinoprotektahan lang kita bilang kuya mo."

I was confused with his remarks. Why does he kept on talking that my ayah is a bad person? I don't know if they personally knew each other.

The moment she confessed her feelings, I wanted to cussed for lying to her. The constant tears and pain. If she only knew i was forced to say those words because i know that lately someone's kept on tailing me and confessing to her about my feelings very soon would just complicate things even more.

I know in myself that what i felt was strong. If only she knew what i think about her. If only she could read my eyes. If she only hear my heartbeat that's responding to her name.

She would know that it's only her

I was working my weeks and pretended that i was fine when i'm actually not. It hurts me when she chose to ignore my presence like i'm not there, not even existing.

I was drown with thoughts mainly my ayah. Reminiscing our treasured memories. The way she made me smile with her corny jokes and lines, the way she irritates me and the way she praised me like i'm the most beautiful woman in her eyes.

It was even more confusing when i felt like she's out my league, the way the people treat her and even in small conversation in LRA Hotel with randon man. I stopped asking when she kept on avoiding my questions, obviously she doesn't want to talk about it.

I didn't know that a single bullet could drop my heart not because of me but the person who sacrificed her life just to save me. I was so scared the moment she laid in the sand weakly and the moment my eyes landed to her body full of blood.

I'm a doctor but at that moment my mind was shutting down. I couldn't think straight because of thoughts that started to break my brain. All i did was to cry and hold her, making sure that she's still alive and breathing. I couldn't help but to release the words i badly wanted her to hear before she closed her eyes.

There's a lot of unsaid thoughts, calculating and processing everything that happened for the past days. I knew at that moment, she's a different person. I was happy when she woke up after 5 days.

There's no words could explain the emotion i felt when she bring me to her resort and introduced me to Nay Tesa and her family. I witnessed her different side that day.

I gave myself to her without even a doubt because of my love towards her. I am so filled with happiness when we owned each other like there's no tomorrow.

The waves , sea creatures , moon , stars and all of the matter in that resort. They're the witness of our unconditional love.

I thought that everything was already fine. We're so happy not until the accident happened that almost took my life away. I didn't know that it would be the begining of my sorrow and suffering.

I was waiting for her to explain everything to me when she bring me to her house. It was the best and melancholic night i've ever experienced. We showed our love to each other.

But the cruel reality took her away from me. I woke up without her and heard a buzzling sound of chopper ready to fly. My heart was pounding so hard when i saw her walked her way to the chopper.

I was shouting , begging, and crying so hard.

It took me a lot of forces to be free from the hands of my brother who prevents me from running to her, but they failed to stop me.

I was running towards the chopper with my barefoot , screaming her name , and begging her not to leave me.

She took a single glance , the glance that speaks hundred of emotion. I was silently praying that she'd change her mind but...

As the clouds darkened and the winds whistling catastrophe..

She still chose to left me.