53: Quinn

When we get to school, Riley and I say goodbye to her mom before walking inside. We don't dare hold hands even though I crave her touch. No one except for my friends know that I'm gay and no one knows that Riley likes girls and neither of us feel like announcing it. Most people at the school are accepting, but there are a few assholes who think it's okay to bully people for their race, color and sexuality. I'm not in the mood for this, especially since it's my last year here, so I keep quiet. I also didn't show off how gay I was because my parents didn't know and I didn't want them finding out, but it's too late for that now.

Riley and I walk through the hallways and make it to our first class together. We walk in and sit at our normal desks. I watch as Riley takes her stuff out and prepares for the lecture. She's so unbelievably adorable and all I want to do is pull her close to me so that I can kiss her.

"Are you going to get your stuff out or just stare at me all day," Riley teases, making me flustered.

"I can't help it, you're beautiful," I blurt out. Riley can't help but crack a smile, but she tries to play it off by rolling her eyes at me.

"Pay attention today, we have a test next week," she responds.

"It's going to be hard to pay attention to anything but you," I blurt out again. Damn, I really need to stop saying things without thinking. I'll just give myself away and I don't want anyone else knowing I'm gay.

"For fucks sakes, Quinn. You can't just say that and expect me to not want to kiss you," she whispers to me.

"I'm sorry," I say covering my face in embarrassment. I can hear Riley chuckle then feel a poke on my hands. I put my hands down and Riley softly pokes my cheek with the eraser of her pencil. "Hey, that's not hygienic."

"Says the person who tried to touch my face after touching a tortoise," she retorts.

"That was one time and in the heat of the moment," I remark.

"Ladies, can you please stop talking, I'm trying to begin class," interrupts the teacher. Riley and I say sorry and pretend to pay attention. However, we glance at each other and smile all throughout class.

After the class ends we pack up slower than others so that I can hold her hand on the way out. It's such a simple thing, but it means the world to me. The second we make it to the door we let go of each other and I feel hollow without her touch. Riley turns to me and she starts to pout.

"Time to go to our other classes," I comment sadly. There's a small silence that overwhelms us for a few seconds before Riley speaks up.

"It's okay. We'll see each other at lunch. In the library?" She asks.

"Of course, see you then," I reply. Instead of walking away I linger next to her for a few more seconds and she starts to crack a smile.

"Go to class, Quinn," she says pushing me in the direction I need to go.

"I don't want to leave you," I murmur.

She sighs, but continues pushing me. "Stop being so sappy, you'll make me want to ditch class to be with you."

My face lights up and I turn to Riley with excitement. "No! I wasn't being serious. We can't miss class. We would get in trouble," she explains. I start to pout and she rolls her eyes at me. However, I know she can't stay annoyed at me and within a few seconds she chuckles and boos my nose to make me smile.

Her tactics work and I smile. "Okay, okay. I'll go to class." Before walking away I make sure to brush my hand against hers and she shivers. I smirk at her and she playfully pushes me away. We say goodbye and part ways to go to class finally.

All my other classes are boring and it's difficult not to think about Riley. All I want to do is be with her, but the classes feel like they've been going on forever. I try my best to distract myself by writing down as many notes as possible, but I better never show Riley my notes because I kind of wrote her name down many times throughout this lecture. Oh my god, I'm such a lovesick puppy, for fucks sakes. I'm hopeless. I'm hopelessly in love with Riley. I have always been, but now it's getting out of control. I don't know how to act around her anymore.

Poor Riley has to put up with my clingy hormonal ass. She probably overwhelmed with me. I can't help it though, she's amazing. How could I not be mesmerized by her.

The bell finally rings and ot snaps me out of my thoughts. I quickly pack my stuff and jog out of the classroom and make my way to the library.

Im there within minutes and I secure a table for Riley and I. I sit down and try to relax, but I'm so excited to see my girl. I watch the doors, waiting for her to enter but I keep getting let down when another student enters. However, I finally catch see Riley walk through the door and she scans the room. When her eyes meet mine she instantly smiles, she fast walks over to me and hesitates for a few seconds.

Then she sits down and I tilt my head and wait for her to say something about her actions. "Sorry, I was about to kiss you, but then I remembered where we are," she whispers. Damn, I really wish she would have done it, but I understand her.

I think for a few seconds then something clicks and I smirk at her. She looks at me with confusion as I stand up and tell her to follow me. She hesitates, but then follows me as we walk through the aisles of books. We make it all the way to the back where all the history books for reports are.

"Why did we come here?" Riley asks.

I don't even try to answer her question, for now I think showing is better than explaining. So, I wrap my arms around Riley to pull her closer to me. "This is why," I say before I lean in to kiss her.

Riley is shocked at first, but kisses me back passionately. I've been waiting hours to do this and it feels amazing. This just feels right, it makes my heart feel so full.

However, I also feel slightly scared because we are in a public place. My heart is beating like crazy and I have a little bit of anxiety eating away at me. My adrenaline is definitely pumping, but I can't stop kissing her.

Riley puts her hand up to caress my cheek and I think it's adorable. She so sweet and.....

I pull away fast to stare at Riley in shock and she tries to look away to hide her blushed face. "Did you just bite my bottom lip?" I ask.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to. Actually I did mean to, my bad, I got caught up in the moment..." she rambles on.

I chuckle and lean close to her so that I can shut her up with a quick kiss. "You're testing me, Riley. First with touching my thigh and now with a lip bite. You play mean," I tease.

Riley snaps out of her embarrassment and wraps her arms around my neck to pull me close to her. "I never said I was going to play fair or take your will power into consideration," she teases back before kissing me.

We get lost in the kiss and things start getting passionate between us again. I push her against the bookshelf and lower my hands around her. Since she has her hands up around my neck, her shirt is riding up and exposing some of her skin. So I rest my hands here and lightly caress her skin with my thumbs. Riley shivers against my touch and I smile into our kiss.

We stop kissing to take a breath and she rests her head against my chest. I continue rubbing her exposed sides with my thumbs and Riley looks up at me with a blushed face. I smirk and lean to her face. Riley thinks I'm going to kiss her again so she leans up as well, however, I go around her face so that I can kiss her neck. She wasn't expecting me to do this so she let's out a light gasp and immediately turns red. One of her hands around my neck comes down so that she can cover her mouth.

I can't help but chuckle, but I'm also hiding the fact that her gasp made me want her so badly. I want to hear her gasp more and moan. The thought of that is turning me on and that's not what I want to happen at school.

"We should really go back to the table and do work or eat some food," Riley suggests. "Come on, let's go," she adds tugging me in the direction.

"What's your rush? Is this too much for you?" I tease.

She rolls her eyes at me and answers back with, "Too much for the both of us. You can't just kiss my neck like that or caress my sides like that. It's not fair either."

"So, essentially what you're saying is that I'm turning you on?"

"I never said that."

"Sure, you never said it, but that's what you implied," I respond.

"Oh shut up, you can't tell me that this didn't do anything to you as well," she retorts.

"Oh I'm not denying that this makeout session turned me on," I reply. Riley stays quite for a few seconds and I can see a blush spread across her face. I walk closer to her to the point where we are just centimeters away from each other's face.

"Come on, time to go," I say walking past her, but grabbing a hold of her hand to pull her behind me. I can tell that we don't actually want to go back and focus on school, but we don't have much of a choice. At least I'm happy that I'm not the only one who would rather be doing other things.

Before making it back to the book aisles that have some people, Riley and I let go of each other's hand. We walk side by side back to the table and sit down. While we take out lunches out to eat, we hear our names being called.

We turn around and notice Megan waving at us. She fast walks over and I try to imagine why she would come find us. There has to be a reason why she is here, she normally never comes to the library except to talk to us.

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Author note: I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, it was definitely a more playful and heated chapter. It was fun to write and I I can't wait to see your guy's reaction lol.

Also, I made another short video. It would mean a lot for you guys to check it out. It's a funny story about a scary time I had a few years ago. I hope you enjoy it, the link is down below.