24- Fix Me (Pt. 5)

JENNIE

"Well.. No.. I'm straight? " Okay so she's straight? "Okay I see" I continue munching my foods while secretly glancing at Lisa. She look disturbed by my question. I contemplate Lisa's expression.. She's cute.. I lean my face forward to watch her closer, she was startled by my action, her eyes widened and her mouth is agape.

"Are you sure? " I ask her, she's now distancing her face from me. I smirk and tug her shirt using both of my hands. "S-s-sure what? " she stuttered, her gaze shift to her left side, I tilt her face to fix her eyes on me. "That you're straight.. "

LISA

My pulse run into light speed with every pound hits my chest. Her vanilla scent mixed with alcohol heating my face up, her stares are shooting wildly into my eyes, her dark nature start to overwhelm my nervous system, our proximity is now eating me up, I can't feel my face.

No.. Not at this rate..

I clench my eyes as her face shift at the side of my face, we're so close... "You won't blush if you aren't gay" she wishpers with a husky tone. Hearing her dark seductive voice make my chest bumps harder, then I feel a trace of fingers on my jawline, gripping lightly. "Open your eyes Lalisa" her husky voice is meddling between the heavy atmosphere that adding up the tension.

No.. Not at this rate..

She traces her fingers down to my collarbone, I gulp hard at the sensation this puffy cheek girl lurks into me. "Open your eyes and look at me" she says seductively but with authority. I open my eyes slowly only to be greeted by her fucking sexy face, it almost took my breath away, heat rising all over my body. Her feline eyes are narrowed with so much fury, her body leaned on the counter with her left hand supporting her body and her right hand is on my collarbone.

She smirks right away as I open my eyes. My whole body feel binded by Jennie's stares, her fingers are still landing on my collarbone. "I can hear your heart beat Lalisa" she whispers in a low husky tone, realizing how my chest is pounding so loud, I backed off and almost fall, I can feel my face heat rise up in instant.

"I-I.. Need to w-wash the d-dishes.. " I stutter, damn you Jennie Kim. I almost tripped from my seat when I tried to stand up, quickly recovering on my feet, I hurriedly step away from the dining table. I swear, I can see Jennie is giggling watching my silly flustered self on my back.

Aish..

She's dangerous, this went too far. She let me in too far and I'm letting her in too far.

Where did it goes wrong? I'm not supposed to feel this way..

I'm not supposed to feel this gleaming sensation. I'm losing myself everytime I feel her presence...

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Third Session

AUTHOR

Lisa is sitting nervously in the counseling room, she's waiting for the puffy cheek girl to come since 30 minutes ago. She feels her nervous system begin to eat her up everytime a minute passed. She sigh for the nth time..

"Why do you always have the reason to make me feel nervous? Yet you're just a girl? And small.. And petite.. And beautiful.. Aish.. What am I thinking! " Lisa groan and ruffles her hair, her chest filled with mixed feeling that she can't explain herself.

Knock! Knock!

Lisa jolted up as she hear the knocks. "C-c-come in.. " Lisa's stutters, her hands tremble as she's reach the door knob. It doesn't take a moment for Jennie to open the door, she appears with a an appealing presence. Lisa's breath choked as Jennie step closer.

As usual, they sit on their spot. Lisa sit after locking the door. She sit and lock her eyes on the puffy cheek girl, trying to start their session. She feel a little awkward after the scene they encountered few days ago. Minutes passed, Lisa voice out hesitantly trying to kill the heavy atmosphere. "Hello Jennie.. Thank you for coming today.. How are you? " 'she's fine as hell' . Lisa's mind cursing herself for her poor self, not able to control their professionalism as she rewind all the upside down event that happened between them.

"I'm fine. " Jennie coldly reply, Lisa. has learn to adapt with Jennie's personality, but she can't ever survive everytime the cat-like girl show her bold seductive personality. Lisa inhale a deep breath and immediately focused on their session. "Last week we talked about the big incident in your life.. You remember?" Lisa observes Jennie's blank expression. The older girl nods her head "Did you slept well last night? " Lisa voice out as she realized a dark circle forms under Jennie's eyes, Jennie shook her head "I got a nightmare.. " she seems hesitant to tell, struggling to keep her cold self but her gestures shows the opposite of it.

"Can you tell me about it? " Lisa ask, trying to figure out Jennie's wild dream. She managed to maintained the professional atmosphere while battling with her inner self to caress the fragile girl. Whenever Jennie talk about her past or what she feel, she immediately change into someone who really need somebody to hang on. Lisa scold herself for wanting to hold the older girl. "I.. I dreamt about my father.. The day he killed my mother and sister.. " suddenly her hands tremble, suppressing her fear. She start to sob while holding her head down on her knees.. Lisa watches her in awe. 'What should I do.. What should I do.. ' She's battling with her body to hold her, she just can't watch her like this.

'that's it.. '

LISA

I step closer and begin to caress her back. I put my hand on her shoulder to ease her shivering body. "I'm afraid Lisa.. " she cracks a small voice between her sobs. "He will find me, he will come back to kill me.. " I hold her closer. "It's just a dream Jennie.. He will never hurt you." I assure her. Her state is calmer now but Im still holding her hand. "Is there anyone related to you aside your family? A relative?"

She shook her head "we have no one, my mother and father was the only child, plus we were living at New Zealand then.. We've just moved to Korea when I was 15, so I don't really think we have any relative here, since both of my grandparents has died long time ago.. " She explain with a small voice, I stares at her eyes and listen carefully. "...and I don't have any friend"

I smile at her.. "I'm your friend.. " I don't know what gotten into me, but I really said those words, a forbidden declaration between counselor and client. She smiles brightly at my words and grip my hands tighter. "You're mine" she says in between. Okay.. She sound creepy in a funny way. For the first time in forever, I see her glimmering expression, for awhile I thought I forget how to breath because I swear her smile is really intoxicating.

I stroke her head "you'll be fine Jen.. I promise.. " she nods, her smile get wider. Gosh Jennie Kim.. Can you stop stabbing me with those smile? Because I feel like dying.

"Let's finish our session.. Okay so tell me, Jennie.. What you always do if you have those disturbing incident start to trigger you? " I ask in a soft tone. "I.. Hide in the corner, or in my bed..and cry.. " I observe her sorrowful face and smile "Do you often do that? " she nods, hanging low her head. The bold Jennie Kim has faded, this is the one and only soft side that I know in herself, I can't help but feel like wanting to uncover everything about her.. Inside her..

"What about when you're outside of your house? " I ask her, she diverts her eyes to the window. "I'll go to somewhere less crowded, or hide in the washroom, I'll get more anxious if I'm in between a lot of people.. I mistrust everyone, sometime I get paranoid, and that limit me from doing a good performance in my job, I nurtured a habit of mistrusting people in many ways"

I look at her, she's calm while telling me.. Wait.. She's saying that she have a job? I thought she's jobless. "What is your job? " I ask her, a little amazed that she actually have a job. "Project accountant " I was jaw dropped as I hear what job she has before, I even thought she's a strip dancer before. "You have a nice job Jennie.. " I'm truly amazed at her, she's smirk proudly as she realized how much amused I am between my expression and tone.

"I know right.. I'm rich you know? " she lean forward and shoots a dark stares against my eyes. Here she goes again, making me nervous and sweat in this tiny cramped room. I gulp hard and damn my eyes.. They landed on those intoxicating lips. "People like me.. Could buy you anything, could bring you anywhere you want.. " her husky voice again. Damn! "T-t-thats great for you.. " I stuttered as I try to back off. "Do you like it? " She smirk while playing her fingers on my abs. "Nice body Manoban.. "

Jennie touching my body will be the end of my life. My body shivers as I feel her hands start to unbutton my shirt. "S-stop it Jennie.. " I push her body lightly, she immediately sits on my lap. "Why do you want me to stop Lisa? Are you afraid that your supervisor will caught you doing something... Like this? " she snake her hands around my neck. Her stares soften, her feline eyes conduct a great thumping feeling inside my body "I have never feel something like this actually.. Towards anyone, I feel so cared, so protected, so secured.. You are the only one.. " She lean closer, I know what going to happen next and who am I to resist Jennie Kim.. I'm just weak..

She kiss my.. Forehead.. Okay, I thought she was going to kiss my lips. Fuck.. I open my eyes and found her gentle stares. "I think.. I.. Like you Lisa.. " She says in a small and adoring voice, it's genuine and touching. I can't utter a word, I don't know what I'm feeling, I'm confused and in the same time I'm happy, that I earn a place somewhere in her heart, am I recipocrating her feeling? This is wrong, she's having a counter transference (a terms where a patient develop a feeling, or see the counselor as someone who she can depend on) This is bad.. Totally bad.

I sigh and unconsciously hug her back, leaning my head on her chest. This is too heavy for me. I think I like her too.. It's amazing how short the time it takes to feel this rumbling feeling, especially towards a person who have an unexpected personality. She pull my face deeper on her chest, resting her chin on my head. This is crazy, she's crazy.. Both of us are crazy. "You are unbelievable.. Jennie Kim.." I mumble, inhaling her sweet devilish intoxicating scent.

'You make me want to hold you,  you make me want to unbottle you, you make me want to protect you'

Knock! Knock!

I jolted up when I hear the knocking. I look at my watch, it's only 50 minutes ... Ugh.. "5 second.. " I fix my hair and clothes, then I look at Jennie.. She sit and adjust her posture to be more natural. I open the door and greeted by the presence of my lecturer and department supervisor.

I'm totally shocked by their sudden appearance. "Lalisa.. We need to see you.. " my lecturer says in a firm voice. "B-but.. I haven't finished my session" I glance at Jennie who is sitting behind. "You call that a session? " My department supervisor voice out in a sarcastic way. I'm stunned, did they observe my session today? My lecturer sigh, he massage his temple then shook his head. A disappointment showed clearly on his expression.

"Stop this session now and go to my office. " My department supervisor says in a cold tone then walk away from shortly after that. My heart rate arise when I think all the possibilities regarding my career, I lean on the door trying to calm myself.

"lisa.. " Jennie touch my shoulder and that snap my thought. I regain myself in instant. "Jennie.. Our session for today is dismissed, you can go home now.. " I say in a weak tone. "I'll be seeing you next week right? " She ask me but I just can't be sure about that, our session were messed up from the start. We grew into something we shouldn't be and what worse is my lecturer and supervisor know about it.

My dream is at stake, my hardwork.. My effort everything that I built within four years is going to vanish. My head got dizzy right away thinking about my future. "Lisa.. " Jennie's voice is concerned, she touch my hand. "I'm sorry.. " She says and lower her head down. "No.. Don't be.. now.. Just go back home first, I'll update you regarding our session after I meet with my supervisor" She obeyed my words, she kiss my cheek before leaving the room.

1st floor...

2nd floor..

3rd floor...

Knock.. Knock..

"Come in" I hear my supervisor's voice. I open the door slowly, my chest bump hard as I push the door open. "Sit Lisa, we have something to discuss with you" My lecturer says, he is in there too, I immediately follow his order. "Do you know why we called you here? " Miss Camela, my supervisor, break the silence. I shook my head, I bow down my head as Im afraid to look at both of my superiors raging expression.  "What are you.. Between you and Miss Jennie Kim ?" My lecturer ask me directly.

"N-nothing.. " I mumble in a low voice. "Are you perhaps in a relationship with her? " Miss Camela take turn to ask me and I just give her a quick shook. "Explain what's going on in the counseling room Lisa.. " I know, there's no point in hiding thing as everything is clear in their eyes. "I.. I don't know what happened, but I'm gonna be honest with you.. I break the boundary.. "

I didn't get to finish my words when my lecturer interrupt me "...Obviously! What were you thinking Lalisa? You didn't just cross the boundary but you break the ethic!  You know it is severe in your case right? For God sake, you're a counselor, you're supposed to help her within a therapeutic relation, using mind medication, using a theory and the technique in it! "

He sounds so angry, I don't have any choice but to take his blazing anger. "You're the best student in your course Lalisa.. I didn't expect that you could ruin your reputation just because of a client who got attached to you, you have learnt how to handle your emotion for your client but why did you spoiled your treatment because you can't resist her temptation? She was seducing you and you didn't refused?! "

I clench my eyes, taking everything and remain silent. "You're a good student Lisa.. I still believe you are.. So I'm going to give you a chance.. Drop the client's case, stop everything  that gone wrong between both of you.. You can befriend after 2 years, thats it.. That is my final decision" (in counseling you can only proceed an informal relationship with your client after 2 years of your ended session)

I nodded in despair.. I think I have no choice then.. I have to stop everything just like my lecturer said, it's my fault anyway.. I let her in too far and let my emotion lead my brain. I let out  a deep sigh .. I close my eyes and the picture of Jennie smiling is spreading in my vision. My heart breaks instantly as I imagine her fearful face when she try to overcome her trauma. I ruffles my hair.. I really want to protect her, but I messed up..

I made my decision..

To Jennie: I know this is sudden and it might shock you.. But I have to terminate our session as my lecturer and supervisor knew that we broke the rule.. It's not your fault, it's mine.. Listen Jennie, I want you to sign up to another counselor.. I really want to help you and this is the least and last I could do for you, trust yourself Jennie, don't be afraid to face the world. You'll heal eventually you just need to be brave..

A/n: I'm sorry for unpublishing this chapter before and here is the complete part. :)

You must wonder how did Lisa's lecturer and supervisor know what they did in their counseling room. Well basically in a counselling room there is a one-way mirror that connect a counseling room and observation room, just like the one in the interrogation room.

Lisa didn't know that she was being observed because she only sees her reflection, but poor Jenlisa.. They got caught..