Chapter 256

256 Despicable Love

Selma Payne’s POV:

Looking at his trembling hands, I didn’t have much hope for the accuracy of this examination.

Ten minutes later, the temple’s door was suddenly pushed open. Before I could see anything, the person suddenly rushed to my side.

“Selma!” Aldrich hugged me tightly, his excited voice showing that he was not calm. “You’re awake, my god, you’re awake!”

I hugged him back and gently stroked his trembling back.

“I’m back, Aldrich. Don’t worry. I’m fine.”

We quietly hugged until Aldrich calmed down.

When he saw the doctor standing awkwardly at the side, he immediately realized something and moved away to make way for him. He said in annoyance, “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have interrupted the examination. What have I done?”

“Don’t worry!” I held his hand and smiled. “I’ve already cured all my injuries. Nothing will happen.”

“Yes, general Aldrich,” the doctor agreed. “There is no problem with Her Highness’s mortal body. I’m just here to ensure her daily nutrition intake. Now that my work is done, I won’t disturb you any longer. I’ll take my leave.”

After the doctor left, Aldrich sat by the bed again and held my hand tightly.

“I’m not dreaming, right?” He muttered.

“You’re awake. You’re really awake.”

I couldn’t help but laugh. I leaned over and kissed his cheek. I pressed his forehead against mine and whispered,” This isn’t a dream. I’m awake, and I’m sitting in front of you, healthy and safe. I’m back, my dear. I’m sorry to leave you alone. You must be scared, right? I should’ve told you, but I’m out of strength, and I’ve made you worry for so long.”

Aldrich stared at me for a long while, and seeing that I was getting goosebumps on my back, he suddenly kissed me.

I fell on the soft pillow and felt the uneasiness and eagerness in his kiss. I didn’t dodge and guided his sense of security back with gentleness and tolerance.

After the kiss, he panted, and his voice was choked.

“Every day, every day, I live in fear. It’s as if you’re asleep, but no matter what I do, I can’t wake you up. Dorothy said that it’s because your soul has left your body. I asked her where you went, but she kept silent and said she didn’t know either.

“Even the Eye of Insight can’t see through you. Does this mean that you’ve already left your fate in the mortal world and gone to the other side that we can’t? This thought grew like a weed in my mind. If you left, if you went to the place where gods should go, what should I do? Where should I go to find you?

“Are you still willing to come back? Are you willing to give up eternity, give up glory, and give up supreme power to return to the ordinary world? I didn’t know. I was not sure. I wanted you to come back, but I felt like a knife was being twisted in my heart because of this selfish thought.

“I wanted to be by your side, but I couldn’t stay in the temple all the time. I have my responsibilities, and I have to complete my mission. Every time this happened, I would envy Dorothy and your other followers. They weren’t burdened by their status and could devote themselves to you. And me? I call myself your believer, your lover, but I can’t even accompany you through the long nights in the temple.

“I was going to go crazy, Selma. If you didn’t wake up soon, I think that there would come a day when I would break away from the past without a care for anything. I would give up on that bullsh*t status and responsibilities and turn myself into your ascetic monk. I would spend the rest of my life waiting for your unknown return.

“It’s good now. As long as I can see you, I was willing to be embedded in the temple and make myself a stepping board for anyone to step on.

“But one day, I suddenly realized that I was lying to myself about my love and future. In my heart, I was just trying to threaten you to come back-what a despicable mentality. In the name of love, I made such a selfish plan. Since then, I’ve been too ashamed to see you. Every time I saw your sleeping shadow on the high platform in prayer, I was cut in half by my thoughts and shame.

“You’re back.

“But what right does such a despicable person like me have to stay by your side?”

Aldrich’s hot tears fell on my wrist like boiling lava, causing me so much pain that I wished I was dead.

I didn’t know what he went through when I was unconscious, but I remembered he was no longer the majestic Alpha wolf. Now he was like a stray dog that had been through heavy rain. He was in a sorry state, at a loss, and looked around, not knowing where to go.

My lover, how could I bear to see you become like this?

Thus, I held him in my arms, held back my tears, and gently said, “This isn’t your fault, Aldrich. My heart will die with you if you blame yourself for this.

“Love is such a selfish and unreasonable thing. If it meekly accepts all the old rules, what right does it have to be independent of other feelings?

“You’re not selfish, nor are you despicable. This is not your fault. There’s nothing wrong with love.

“Fate has given us painful training, but this will only make us stronger.

“My shepherd, don’t cry.

“From now on, I won’t leave without saying goodbye. I won’t go anywhere other than be by your side. ”