Chapter 177

Pan Zhuqing, who hasn't spoken for a long time, can't hold his breath anymore. No matter what children he doesn't have, as long as Gong Yueyue wakes up, everything else has nothing to do with him. So he approached Zhao Changyuan and asked coldly, "but what doctor Xu said is not unreasonable. Now in this situation, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, we should try, shouldn't we? Or do you have a choice, General Zhao? "

Zhao Changyuan looked at him numbly and didn't respond.

"Zhao'er, you can think clearly. Your parents don't know about it, or the prophet will tell them? Otherwise, you will have good fruit to eat. " The sixth aunt felt that in any case, it was inappropriate to hide it from Mr. and Mrs. Zhao Xiong. Although everyone knows what Zhao Changyuan's choice will be, and no one will disagree. However, with the sixth aunt's understanding of Zhao Xiong, he encountered such a painful accident without his knowledge. The final anger and grief will only be firmly counted on the poor Zhao Changyuan.

In fact, like outsiders, she still has a deep prejudice against Zhao Xiong. The man seems unreasonable. In fact, he is eager to love his son, and at the critical moment, he knows more discretion and concession than most people.

Seeing that Zhao Changyuan had not moved, doctor Xu carefully reminded: "general, you'd better make a decision as soon as possible. Your wife's look is getting worse day by day."

Pan Zhuqing was also anxious, but on the surface, he had to be calm. He just picked his eyebrows and faintly called out: "General Zhao?"

This time, Zhao Changyuan finally had a reaction: "please go out for a while. I want to be quiet. "

Du ruotong and Xiao Mei had red and swollen eyes and tears on their cheeks.

The sixth aunt raised her neck, looked at the dark sky, stretched out her hand, followed by the cold spring rain, speechless and choking.

Tian Hai held back his tears and leaned against the wall, waiting for the little master to call at any time. He was sad, but he also knew that at this moment he must be strong in order to do his best to help the little master through the difficulties.

He Yong, pan heshao, Yang Jinyi, Xiao Jun, Yin Liang and other big men have stood silently in the rain with umbrellas. The two people inside suffered. As friends, brothers and relatives, they can only stand outside and guard at a loss even if they have the ability.

Pan Zhuqing could not see any waves under his silent appearance, because there was no doubt about how Zhao Changyuan would choose. He left doctor Xu behind and stepped on the wet bluestone slab step by step into the night while the rain was not heavy.

Gong Yueyue's pregnancy has been unbearable in his heart. Now it's a crooked attack, pulling out the thorn in his heart. But why didn't he have a trace of joy and pride? Zhao Changyuan's broken look flashed in his mind

Is he sympathizing with the little white face? Sympathy? Does he pan Zhuqing have this compassion?

He smiled bitterly at himself and looked up at the night sky with more and more rain. He murmured, "you are a complete asshole, because you never let anyone go."

Another candle was added to the room. Zhao Changyuan rummaged around the cabinet for a long time and finally found a burden among Gong Yueyue's many clothes.

He came to the bed with his baggage and sat on the ground silently. The candlelight shone on his and his wife's calm faces. He focused on untiing the knot on the burden, suddenly opened his mouth and said softly, "if it's a boy, Dad plans to call you Ziyi and Zixuan. If it's a girl, it's Wan Yue, Wan Zhi. "

With that, a faint smile suddenly appeared on his dull face. The knot on the baggage had been untied by him, and the colorful gadgets inside jumped off in front of him“ These are what dad saw on the road a few days ago. He thought you would like them, so he bought them. "

He picked up those lovely gadgets one by one and murmured to the silent air in front of him: "this is a windmill, this is a puppet, this is a clay figurine... Do you look like father and mother?" In response to his, naturally, there was only the sound of two people's breathing.

He put every gadget next to Gong Yueyue's belly, leaving only a small puppet whose workmanship was not too exquisite in his hand and his eyes focused on playing“ I remember when dad was a child, he saw someone selling puppets on the roadside, crying and making a fuss to buy them. As a result, he was beaten by grandpa and said that dad was worthless and like a little girl. "

With that, he looked at his wife's slightly convex belly, with loving eyes and gentle tone: "but don't be afraid, because dad is not fierce, unlike your grandfather. Dad doesn't force you to be promising, just hope you have a happy life. But you don't have to be afraid of Grandpa. He loves you. "

The rain outside the house stopped, and the people outside the door didn't mean to disperse at all. Everyone listened quietly to the wind, thunder, rain, and the voices in the room.

"Daddy lives such a big life. The happiest time is with your mother. Although she always annoys me, she is always so disobedient and difficult to teach. Leave early and return late, don't go home at night, run away from home, don't take it lightly. When he was in a good mood, he tried his best to cajole his father. When he was in a bad mood, he talked nonsense and blew his beard and stared at his father... "Zhao Changyuan broke his fingers and complained about Gong Yueyue's crimes against the unborn children. Finally, he couldn't help narrowing his eyes and reaching out to pinch her pink nose.

The moment she touched her little face, all the strength in her hands turned into soft water, gently stroking her beautiful but fragile face under the palm of her hand“ Maybe love in the world is doomed to be so. How much happiness you give, you will bear how much pain, but dad has no regrets. " He had a dumb voice and wandered around the room alone. The only thing that accompanied him was the light sound of rain on the window screen“ I don't know what kind of people my children will meet in the future? But whoever bullies my child will break their legs even if they are old enough to lose all their teeth. "

At this point, his calm face suddenly solidified. Because... Because he knows that his children have no so-called future at all. For a moment, all the strength and calmness that the man insisted on burst into pieces

"Dad... I want to take you back to Luoyang to see Dad's home... My grandparents... And my mother's house by the Luohe River. That's our... Future home. Dad also wants to take you to Jiangnan to see the scenery of the West Lake... Take you to eat steamed stuffed buns from Yangzhou... Take a wupeng boat... "

Finally, he held Gong Yueyue's body and sobbed.

"You..."

"Can you forgive Dad..."

"Can you... Don't blame me... I can't bear to..."

"Lady... Lady... What should I do? What am I going to do... Why... Everything will become like this... Will you wake up? "

"Don't... don't leave me..."

When it was almost midnight, people dispersed with sadness. In the yard, in the rain, there was still a figure standing. He stood still and let the rain penetrate every hair and soak his numb scalp. Let the biting cold with the night wind get into his collar and wantonly erode every inch of his skin. Let the wet clothes wrap around the body tightly, sometimes dried by the wind, sometimes drenched

"Young master..." Tian Hai's Distressed face was full of tears. He wanted to rush to Zhao Changyuan with an umbrella several times.

"Don't go there." But He Yong and pan haoshao stopped him several times.

"But it's raining so hard... Don't drench the young master!"

The evil young man's mouth trembled slightly and said faintly, "he's too uncomfortable. Let him." For Zhao Changyuan, the most fatal thing now is the pain in his heart. If you don't let him vent, I'm afraid you'll really kill young people.

It took three days to gather all the herbs in the prescription. In these three days, Zhao Changyuan didn't leave the house at all, and took care of Gong Yue without saying a word. Other people, also help each other outside the house, do not disturb the family's last few days together.

Until that day, when Tian Hai held the boiled soup and knelt outside the house side by side with Xiaomei, Liu Yi sighed deeply and gently knocked on the door.

After waiting for a long time, the door was opened. Zhao Changyuan propped up the door frame and looked at the sixth aunt numbly. Finally, his eyes fell on the bowl of soup and medicine in Tian Hai's hands.

The sixth aunt saw that he was stunned at the moment and didn't respond for a long time, so she opened her mouth and advised him, "it's better to think of other ways. We're not in a hurry at this moment."

He didn't respond. He just took the medicine bowl with a dull look and turned into the room. The sixth aunt was worried. She hesitated for a moment and followed in.

Zhao Changyuan sat by the bed with a medicine bowl, stirring the slightly hot Brown soup spoon by spoon. The look on his face had not fluctuated too much and looked very dull. Presumably, the heart is desperate to the extreme.

The sixth aunt was really distressed. She went up and said softly, "zhao'er, let the sixth aunt come."

"No, I'll do it myself." How can he blame others for this evil deed.

Scooped a spoonful and gently blew it to Gong Yueyue's mouth... "What's going on?" As soon as his face changed, he turned to his sixth aunt.

It turned out that Gong Yueyue clenched her teeth and didn't loosen it“ She seems to refuse to drink. " In his stagnant eyes, two flames finally flickered and jumped up.

"Really? Let me try. " The sixth aunt took the spoon and tried it. She was also surprised“ Her teeth are so tight that she can't feed in. "

"I pinched her mouth open and the sixth aunt slowly fed her." He picked up her upper body, carefully pinched her chin, and finally separated her teeth. The soup medicine was smoothly fed into her lips.

When the sixth aunt scooped the second spoon and planned to feed it again, she only heard the "wheezing" sound in Gong Yueyue's throat. His face seemed to be getting redder and redder. Before long, the brown soup overflowed from his lips.

The sixth aunt quickly gave up and left the spoon“ No, she can't seem to swallow it at all. It's stuck in her throat and will suffocate. Can't feed. I'll call the doctors. "

"I'll go." Zhao Changyuan put Gong Yueyue down, got out of bed and ran out of the house. Inexplicable excitement rushed to his throat. This was the first time Gong Yueyue responded to him since he was unconscious. Although it was resistance, it still made him excited and full of tears.