Chapter 17

Seventeen: Natalie Natalie's p.o.v.

Killian had done as I had expected and returned to his cold and brooding self the next morning. Iwas just happy that he hadn't killed anyone else since we had come home. Brooding, I could dealwith.

He was already halfway out the door before I had regained consciousness, and the “good morning’ Ihad thrown at him was greeted by him closing the door between US.

It still made me smile though. The fact that he was there when I had woken meant that once againhe had slept in with me, holding me tight against him. His walls were cracking, and as soon as hewas ready to let me in, I would be here waiting.

Training had been canceled as Joselin was busy with Killian, and Tobias shook his head at me. I knewright away that he didn't want to have any distractions today. So, having him train me was also outof the question.

Instead, I decided that it was time that I educated myself. I didn't want to keep pestering Killian withquestions when it seemed to be a sure way to make him angry, and Tobias guided me to the librarywhere I found all kinds of books on Lycan history and different creatures. It was the information onVampires that I found particularly useful.

I could come back to learn about Lycans, but the immediate threat was the bloodsuckers that hadkilled one of our men. If I could educate myself on their kind, then maybe Killian would see someuse in me after all and would talk to me about it.

I was lost in their story, learning about how they took pride in capturing the strongest of victims toturn them into bleeders. Lycans were at the top of their food chain. It was rare that they managed toget their hands on them, but when they did, the Lycans had been able to fight off the poison foryears. It made them the perfect food source.

Having one of their men attacked and killed yesterday told me that it was far more than just onevampire that had fed from and repeatedly bit him. Killian had said that the man had died from theexcessive number of bites.

If a Lycan could stay alive for years with the poison in their system, I had to wonder just how manybites or vampires were involved in the man's murder. It was a lot more serious than just one roguevampire causing trouble.

"Huh," Joselin said as she appeared in front of me, the black lines dancing along her skin andcatching my attention. “I never thought I would find you here.”

I closed the book on my finger to save my place, giving Joselin my undivided attention. "Why isthat?"

"I pictured you as more of a cheesy romance type than to be reading in the history section.” Sheleaned forward, grabbing the book from my hands, and I let out a protest as she made me lose myplace. "Curious about vampires, are we?"

"The king doesn't like it when I ask questions. I am looking for answers." I watched as Tobias shookhis head in disappointment as he maintained his sweeping gaze from one door to the next. I knewhe wasn't disappointed in me, but his reaction still made me feel embarrassed. 1 I reached forward, trying to grab the book from Joselin, but was too slow as she pulled it out of myreach.

"Fascinating creatures. If they didn't believe that the rest of the world was only here as cattle to feedand serve them, they wouldn't have had to die.” The book floated above her palm as she flippedthrough the pages. "It'll be hard when we have to battle them again.”

The attack was only a warning, and I knew from what I had learned of The Great War that historywas about to repeat itself. I just wasn't sure what part I was to play in it. If I were to one day bequeen, I would be expected to stand by Killian's side as he sent our men and women off to war... totheir deaths. 1 It was a guilt that I was not prepared to live with. "I imagine it will be. Is that what you have beentraining me for?"

The pages stopped as Joselin leaned in, looking particularly interested in whatever she had seen."Yes, you had to have been lot stronger then than you are now to have saved Killian like that."

Her mumbling took me by surprise, and I froze in my chair as she flipped the page once andcontinued reading, her lips moving with the words silently. The excitement that maybe she wouldanswer one of the questions that Killian refused to, had me leaning forward in my chair.

"How do you know I was stronger?" Her head shook back and forth as she slammed the bookclosed and tossed it to the chair next to me. She had just given me more information in that onesentence than Killian had given me the entire time I had been here.

Not only was I supposed to fight in the battle against vampires, but I would save the king's... mymate's life. It seemed an impossible task to accomplish as I was only human, but if she hadsomehow seen the future, who was I to argue.

"You do ask a lot of questions.” Her clipped tone was followed by her walking back toward thebookshelves. "I came here to talk to you about something I saw today... about your mother.”

My eyes narrowed, as I watched her run her fingers over the spines of the books. "What about mymother?”

She had been a regular suburban housewife until I failed to shift. Only then did she show her truecolors and her all-consuming disappointment in me. Before that, she was just like any other lovingand caring mother. She would go out for training for a few hours a day, but otherwise, she stayedhome and took care of my sister and me.

"Did she tell you about your birth?" Joselin asked as she ducked behind one of the shelves, and Imoved to follow her as she continued browsing.

"Not really, she only said it was really fast," I said, walking behind her as I waited for her toaccidentally release more information. Instead, she spun suddenly on her heels, her blank white eyesbore into me and sent a shiver down my spine. The feeling of small worms moving beneath the skinof my face, made me gasp as I reached up to grab my cheeks, wanting to claw them out.

As I fell to my knees, Joselin stepped back. While the feeling disappeared, my hands continued toshake as I continued to search my skin for the intruders.

"Hm, you're blocking me. Very interesting.” She mumbled to herself, and I glared up at her from myplace on the floor, wanting to scream at her for her invasive attempt at getting information.

"What the hell? Did you just try to get into my mind? I just told you that she never told meanything.” Using my hand on my knee, I pushed myself up until I was standing.

Tobias stepped in front of me, blocking my view of Joselin, and I could feel his body shaking as hefaced off with the witch. Whether they had something going on or not, his job was to protect me,and that was what he did.

"Don't fool yourself, Tobias.” Joselin snapped, but I could hear the hurt in her voice that he hadstood against her as if she were a threat. "We both know that I'm not an enemy.”

The grow! he let out in response had me flinching back, and I stared at him with wide eyes.

"That is enough!” Killian's voice boomed out from behind me, making me jump as I had not noticedhis entry to the library. "Joselin, we have work to do.”

I turned to look at him, enjoying how his eyes traveled over me as if searching for injury before hepulled his gaze away. I wanted to greet him, but I was not sure how to address him with othersaround. Would he be offended if I called him Killian, or would it be improper to have his mate callhim Your Majesty?

Instead, I just nodded my head in respect, watching as his eyes narrowed as he noticed mymovement from his periphery.

It didn't escape me that as he turned and gestured for Joselin to leave, he stood between US. In anact of defiance, she flickered before disappearing from the room. The little trust I had in hervanished with her, and my feeling of security in the castle was suddenly gone.