Devil in Me

[Inspired by Devil in Me-Halsey]

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They said I shine too bright

That I burn the people around me

They said I should eat my feelings

Bury them six feet underground

Never to be found

They said I should keep my mouth shut

Swallow my words

As if they were never formed

I want to give them what they want

Give in to the weight

Of a thousand expectations

Crushing my shoulders

And sinking my feet into the ground

A thousand eyes watching me

Watching to decide if I was worth the sacrifice

But I don't want to live like this either.

I want them to listen

Even if it costs me

But I scream too loud when I speak my mind

And I don't want them to run away

In the end, I still let everyone down when they see me

For who I really am.

I don't wanna wake it up.

I don't wanna wake it up.

I don't wanna wake it up.

But it's waking up

It's waking up

It's waking up and I feel it clawing it's way out of my throat and turning my skin over and my insides out and I'm screaming.

I'm screaming and screaming and screaming as I feel it struggle for control, control over me.

Now I gotta wake up.

Wake it up.

Wake it up and accept it, because it isn't just a part of me.

It is me.

Lying to myself all along, keeping it hidden, but it was time to let it out.

The devil in me.

And I would accept myself for what I was.

Author's Note

Ok, not sure if you got the message from this but in case you didn't it's about accepting the worst parts of yourself as who you are and embracing it because you are you.