Dark Paradise

[Based off Dark Paradise by Lana Del Rey]

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"All my friends tell me I should move on

I'm lying in the ocean,singing your song"

It's over.

It's all over.

You're gone.

You're gone and I...I'm lost.

I don't want to let go.

If letting go means moving on, I don't want to let go.

Because it means learning how to forget, learning how to lessen the pain.

But I can't, I can't.

Because I don't want to love anyone else but you, I don't want anyone else's lips on mine, I don't want to forget you.

I don't want to replace you with someone else.

"Loving you forever, can't be wrong

Even though you're not here, won't move on

Ah, that's how we play it"

I don't care what they say.

I don't care if you're not beside me anymore.

I'm going to hold on to us. To you.

I'll love you forever.

And ever.

Even when I'm dead.

"And there's no remedy for memory

Your face is like a melody

It won't leave my head"

I'll never forget you, as long as I live.

You're gone, but I'll keep your memories alive, I'll memorize your face so I won't forget it, I'll carve it into my bones.

You could never be a bad memory.

"Your soul is hunting me and telling me

That everything is fine

But I wish I was dead"

I still see you sometimes, imaginary visions my head conjures, and I reach out to touch you, but when I start to get near, you blow away, like smoke.

And sometimes, you're saying something, your lips are moving but I can't hear a thing, and I only manage to make out two words, "Be fine."

But I'm not, and sometimes, I wish I was dead too, so that we could be together again.

Forever.

"Every time I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side"

And every night, I see you, smiling like you always did in life, and I can almost believe it's real, when you touch me, and swing me around, but when I lean down to kiss you, my arms are empty.

And I wake up to an empty bed.

Maybe I should go.

To the other side.

But will you be there? Will you be waiting for me? I'm scared that when I arrive, I'll find out that you're not there, scared that you won't be waiting.

"Every time I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

But there's no you, except in my dreams tonight"

I want to believe it's all a dream sometimes, a terrible nightmare, but I know the reality, the reality that you're already gone.

I won't be able to find someone like you ever again.

There's only one you, but there's no you, except in my dreams tonight.

"I don't wanna wake up from this tonight"

I'd rather stay asleep forever, living out my dreams in my head, because that's the only place I'll ever be able to see you. That's the only place where I can touch you, speak to you.

I'd rather lie to myself and live in this dark paradise.

Because you're there.

But I know I'll have to wake up. I'll have to wake up eventually. Face the cruel reality, a world without you is hell.

I don't wanna wake up from this tonight.

Author's Note

This song is honestly really sad welp I had to write something out of it.

This is pretty long, I hope you enjoyed it!